I am wondering if anyone can share an experience with me.

It happened a few mushroom trips ago, and has happened in varying degrees since.

SO the first time it happened, I ate some fresh psilocybe cyanescens, and had a bit too much for the occasion. I was hiking, and I figured 15 grams would be cool, but it landed me square in the uncomfortable region of half-way to breakthrough. I could have broken through, but didn't want to, since I was in the woods. I was stuck with that feeling of, "I'm fighting to keep existing."

Anyways, many parts of my life were flashing before me, but not in a good way. It was the stresses, and the bad things. Everything that was around me, in such a beautiful place as I was, became super real. My life became super real. It was as if the entire universe turned its volume knob from the usual 3-5 to max.

I realized-and this is the best words I can put it in-that when things get so real, they take on the most fake feeling. My whole life felt fake, like a cheap flimsy facade had been constructed around my being. It was all a sham! And it sure as hell was not a fun feeling. Probably some of the most anxiety causing, fear inducing feelings I've had. ButI still managed to laugh it off, because I know psychedelics, the mind, and especially mushrooms like to trick us.

Has anyone else experienced this felling of hyper-realism to the point that you come full circle to the realm of fake?

I have experienced this. I get flashes of this perspective occasionally nowadays, but there was an era where it deeply plagued me. I refer to it as the 'anxiety era'.

Some aspects of the experience for me;

- The feeling like I'm the only one, and everything else is fake. I am the only one, and can only exist in one place at one time, so me as I am, is the only consciousness. Everybody else walking around are just clockwork, bouncing around like unconscious inert particles. Including the people I love and thought were real. A deeply disturbing viewpoint that feels really real when I'm saturated in it. I would be 'paralyzed' in this realization, where I would just freeze and stop breathing, overtook with this feeling of anxiety --- like I've been 'tricked' into thinking everything is real. There's a kind of feeling some God tricked you, but then there's the feeling like I am 'God', because I'm the only consciousness, and really I tried to trick myself into thinking there are others but eventually I realize I am the only one again. I'm the only kid on the playground, no other kids exist. I also tried to trick myself into believing that life had some sort of meaning, but inevitably again come to the realization and 'remember' the truth that nothing has any meaning.


Does that resonate with your experience?

I have externally experienced something very similar to this. It was my third trip smoking spice and I was sitting out back on my porch. I didn't break through (or if I did I can't remember). The world became intensely visual, and the trees grew into one another and became a larger organism. The grass became a much lighter green, and i felt as if I could hear every insect and smell every blade. It all felt so real, but the realness didn't stop. It became more and more complex, but the complexity felt unnatural. The leaves began to have a sheen like plastic, and the grass seemed more like astroturf. The whole world felt fake, askew. Life seemed as if it would be no different if all of humanity were androids instead.

Perhaps a new word is needed to be added to the Hyperspace Lexicon for this full circle experience?

This occurred on my very first psychedelic experience and was very frightening. This space that you were in was very, very pure. But it does not mean that all other aspects of your existence do not carry the same meaning, only that you are just realizing this in the moment. I felt that I was not a person, my friends and family were fake, my whole life was some illusion that I just realized in that moment, like becoming lucid in a dream. Only that I became lucid whilst awake and was extremely concerned about my usual existence. Your strive of comfort ability makes this state of being extremely frightening and threatening. But it is not so, you are not used to this feeling, but it is as you say hyper-realism and you have the power to tap into that in a smaller sense in your everyday existence.

Yep, all three posts so far went further to explain how it was I felt, as well. It's a very complex feeling! I'm glad I'm not the only one to have experienced this! When it first hit me, it was the closest I've felt to actually losing my mind. The feeling didn't completely take me, more like it was on the fringes, as if the universe was about to unravel before me and the first phase of that is this feeling of everything being fake.

I was with my buddy at the time, and it was his first time tripping on mushrooms. I told him, "When everything get's too real, it becomes fake."

Since it was his first time, I don't think he knew what the hell I was talking about. Luckily, I told him in advance that the mushrooms are humorous, and sometimes they can have a sick and twisted humor, so it's best to keep that in mind. That was what I clung to for comfort! I guess it worked, since he had no idea I was having a rough time. Definitely learned my lesson about how much I should take, if any, with a first timer! Part of the problem, is I always seem to trip way harder when someone else is tripping with me.

This is also called depersonalization.