Hi everyone! It´s been a while since I posted anything here.
I read somewhere (it was a forum, I just don´t remember which one) that mild DMT trips are somehow "harder" and that´s more probable to have some fear, doubts or uncomfort with them than with full hyperspace trips. What do you think?
I have yet to break through (fairly new to DMT here... I have to admit I still feel fear of blasting off) so these experiences were not hyper real, very clear just not hyper real and somewhat lacking in color. I have had 3 mild trips and want to comment on those, here goes:
1) On the first one (it was the third or fourth time I smoked DMT, around 50mg I think) I saw what seemed to be a golem made of... bricks? Something like bricks. He was coming at me and seemed to be incredibly friendly, actually it extended its hand and was obviously coming for a handshake. I felt awful that I had no hand to extend back

. I felt no fear at all, but no "wonderful feelings" either, just the certainty that the golem was a great guy.
2) This time I was around 60mg and it was a little scary. The idea of losing myself freaked me out a little (not a big deal, just a bit). The auditory hallucinations were AMAZING! After some seconds I saw eyes, or something, in some sort of colorful blobs and rainbow rings. Definitely a female presence. Those eyes seemed to be... judgmental in a way. However I did come out saying things like "WTF was that???" and "Oh God, that was weird!".
3) A little lower dose, around 55mg. I started to feel a little freaked out again but this time something happened, at some point I felt absolutely sure (for no reason) that I wasn't going to lose my ego and a feeling of warm comfort wrapped me like a blanket. Immediately after I saw this female entity made of leaves. I understood immediately that I was being healed. Didn't last long but it was great!
Well, returning to the original point: do you think mild trips can be harsher? That little freak out feeling I get could be because of the in-between state of not being here but not being there?
I'd love to hear what you think.
Cheers!
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