First off; Let me say Its a pleasure to find this place..

I really have to know if im going crazy or if anyone else has experience what i experienced..


I had a few other experiences with DMT but this is first time i broke through..

Without making this really long im gonna try to describe this as simple as possible because its indescribable .. and many of you probably know it does no justice in words...

I did 30mgs of IV DMT; THe onset was fast about 5 seconds...

All i can say is the beginning it was terrifying; it felt like i died or ego Death if i had to put it to words.... The false me was being ripped away and the illusion was my ego...

And basically what happened was I reached the Source; It was superconsciousness; I was everything and anything; I was all and all was me; It was the source of EVERYTHING; Time was an illusion; There is no "time"

It was unbelievable; Its like i was able to experience the superconsciousness that is all..

Does anyone know what im talking about? I cant be the only one who has realized this... I have been on a spiritual quest my whole life and it has led up to this point 28 years old to experience this and realize the truth

What I experienced was powerful beyond means and i feel as if DMT came to me because i was ready for it;

What does this mean in our normal reality and integration;

I feel as if anything is possible now in this "reality" that I'm in; because i realize i am the infinite manifested in this form having this experience;

Is there any else who is "awake"? Is it possible to experience this outside of DMT breakthrough thru other methods of mediation ?

Why the hell is this such a secret? How many people actually know what I know and felt what i have?

I think you have to reach a certain threshold to have this experience;

but once you do its undeniable what it is...

Welcome to the club.

Most people here are what you might consider "awake"; a lot of us have had breakthrough experiences on DMT and other entheogens. The reason it's kept such a secret is because it's not for the average person. Most people on the planet don't eat psychadelics, and out of the ones who do, fewer still chose the route of DMT.

This was the first of such experiences that you've described that I've had.

Thank guys; I this life or whatever reality im in is changed forever...


Do you have any tips on integration?


But basically We are all One;

The closest spiritual text that describes the feeling i had was like the bhagavad gita and the Tao te ching;

These texts can explain it alot better than me

i was freaking out on an ayahuasca experience because it was doing exactly what you described, ripping the false me away. for some reason i requested my friend read to me, he chose the tao teh ching.

i experienced what i can only call nirvana

it was indeed a breakthrough

Im thinking about doing ayahusa now..

the thing is IV dmt is probably the purest experience and fastest possible.

It took me 10 minutes to reach nirvana and by 30 minutes i was completely normal..

so perhaps there will be more time to process with ayahusca

I Don't personally believe the additional risks involved with IV use, is warranted,

considering how quick and effective using a GVG, or the like, with a sufficient dose, gets you to hyperspace.............

IMHO

I would only reccomend IV if you have pure solution and know what your doing with a safe sitter;

kinda like rick strassman style

I hope no one is intravenously injecting something that they extracted in their kitchen.
Endocarditis is one nasty piece of business, on top of god knows what else could result from that.

If yr a pharmaceutical grade chemist or have access, my hats off to you, however as mentioned, smoking is so rapid onset that IV is kinda moot.

Stay safe

I can relate. I think I've described it on this site.

Total disappearance of all structures and sense perceptions and the only "thing" left was awareness aware of itself, that's how I would describe it. There was the subtlest form to that "state" or "recognition", it was the color blue and there is a sense of infinite, formless space and clarity. Although in that being or recognition there was no conceptual knowledge of space, clarity or the color blue. And there was also a sense of absolute realness, although the concept of realness was absent. These things can be talked about only in retrospect.

After "I" got formed again, in this world etc. there was an intuitive knowing that all is well and our true nature is awareness. I didn't know much about buddhism or hinduism at the time. Anyway for me my private life continued normally. I didn't think myself to be a God or anything, just my simple self which isn't contained in a body or thoughts and feelings though.

Only later have I had some confusion about existence and life in general (after some mushroom experiences). Don't know why the dynamics work like this but I guess it doesn't matter that much. And I mean it in a lighthearted sense.

We are that core itself now and always. We are never not the light of awareness. There's only light. Light that enables the darkness to be perceived as darkness, light as light, confusion as confusion and clarity as clarity.

This might not look like the light of awareness, appearances differ. But actually even "This doesn't look and feel like awareness" is seen due to awareness.

That which we call forms and experiences is actually awareness only and never becomes anything.

Very much like my experience I had recently. You can find it in the experiences section.

Although I def wasnt ready for the experience I had. It caught me by surprise. This stuff sure is mountain moving. Feeling what it is to be made up of everything and all at once surely is an amazing feeling. We are the infinite

The integration period for me for these larger doses def takes longer I believe. Everyday I go through it in my head multiple times. Reliving it as best as I can. Trying to not forget what I have learned or experienced.

Recently I started looking into the Gita and migrated over to Buddhism. It suits me better than Hinduism, but there isn't much difference between the two and they both resonate with my last few doses that I have had.

Reaching that place you describe truly is the most awe inspiring event any human can probably achieve. That ecstatic bliss of knowing all and feeling godlike is incredible!

Do you plan to iv again maybe at different doses? It's something i'd love to do but unfortunately i doubt i'll ever get access to pharma grade dmt

Yeah guys; Wow im so glad im not alone;

Honestly, I had the experience a week ago; and I just have no desire to do it anytime soon or ever again...

Its like it was the only experience i ever needed to realize the true nature of my being..


What is crazy is this DMT magically came to me out of nowhere; I had made some last year smokeable but never broke through....


I was really considering killing myself and committing suicide prior to this experience; Im 100% serious here;

It is like i was meant to have the experience to realize the joy of living in this "reality" or life"; just an extension of the true self;

Ive never wanted to live so much in my entire life; It feels as if I am always in a state of awareness of what is; I cant explain it;

I'm about to move cross country with nothing but i know it will work out....


It is my belief that only the few are supposed experience this; It is so powerful that we are lucky;
In my guess the spirit chooses who is to receive it at the perfect time in their life to have the experience ..

Its almost like you dont get the experience you want you get the experience you NEED; Because like I've said I had dmt last year did it a ton of times at most sub breakthrough; Never to this extent; I was always afraid of that weird feeling of death you get when it comes on

Peace my fellow beings i love you all

I'm very glad to hear that the medicine worked

Curiosity though, which (salt)form of DMT?

I really dont know the details.... sorry

It looked like water; it was completely crystal clear

You saw 'the light'?

The single infinite source that fractals and refracts through billions of faucets to manifest the illusion of now?

Nothing is burned deeper in the memory, because nothing is deeper, except for the void.

Such a thing changed me significantly.

Although after years past I sometimes feel sad, because the only real substantial thing it has left me with is comfort in dying. Sometimes I feel like what I saw should of immediately changed the world, but you come back to such a struggle...

You might get a kick out of reading this post-respect:
http://deoxy.org/psyexp.htm#5

Link to my ultimate experience

I know exactly where your coming from cire113. Truly a moment hehe. Realizing that every point in the fabric of our reality is "God". Every point truly infinite and comprising the whole, and not just us, but everything! Not everyone experiences what you've experienced when smoking dmt.

Tat Tvam Asi ~

So you did not prepare IV dmt right ? It was someone else who did that.