I'm a man of few words.

Saturday, October 24th, 2010 was, up until this point, the most significant and life changing day of my life. It was the first time I consumed Psilocybin mushrooms. Every bout of depression and anxiety that had plagued me my entire life suddenly revealed itself in my mind, seeming meaningless, even nonexistent. For the first time in my life, I felt freedom from the mental health problems that are a part of me (and still are). I woke up the next morning feeling like I never have before: optimistic, rejuvenated, ready to finally face life for the first time.

Since then, I've used entheogens to look deeper into myself, to dig up emotions, bad memories, fears, face them, and expel them. I have not "figured out life" (who has?), but the substances I've indulged in have brought me further and further to an understanding of who I am as a human being and what my place in this world is. I've wanted to take the next step for a long time: DMT. Unfortunately, I was never able to find any, or even really associate with any people who took the concept of entheogens seriously. The only crowd I've ever been involved with who knows what DMT is, let alone has used hallucinogens in general, are the stereotypical 20somethings who think "soul seeking" is loading up on ecstasy and listening to dubstep.

About a year ago, I met someone who shared many of my views, and was a regular user of DMT. He was older than me and the other "soul seekers" that I've encountered, an attribute that I mistook for maturity. He told me that he and I were alike, that I deserved to indulge in DMT, and told me that he would teach me the art of extracting this substance.

The red flag was when he offered to sell me some of the substance at an exorbitant price (won't go into details, I know the forum rules). Pretty ironic for a "soul seeker" who only extracts DMT for "personal and spiritual use" to try to make some money off of this substance. I ordered the necessary supplies, and after months of waiting and waiting, the time had come. We began the extraction process, and I was to obtain the finished product a few days later than my friend.

And that was that. No phone calls were returned for a few weeks. Finally I got a hold of him, and he said that "he can't associate with me anymore, because of personal issues in his life." Whether or not this is true, I will never know. However, if his original intention was to basically rob me, I would have liked to have known. All in all, I lose a pound of MHRB, a few pounds of NaOH, safety equipment, syringes and turkey basters, and some other miscellaneous items I don't remember, not to mention the hours and hours I spent driving back and forth to participate in this.

So,

I'll be the first to say it: I'm a complete idiot for trusting someone like this. However, I don't regret the experience. It confirmed the nagging thought in the back of my mind that this path is one that must be taken alone. I have stopped seeking like minded people, and if someone does mention hallucinogenic drugs to me, it's usually in the context of getting as messed up as humanly possible rather than seeking legitimate answers to legitimate questions.

If something has to be done right, you have to do it yourself. I've come here to continue learning, and eventually be able to do an extractions myself instead of depending on someone else to do it for me. I've lurked on this board before, but have never made an account. It's like no other place on the internet; a tiny community of people who are legitimately like minded. It's almost like a sanctuary in a way...

I know the basic teks but have never actually tried one. I hope that during my time on these boards, I can better learn, and eventually succeed in an extraction, and then share my experiences with others who will appreciate them, rather than accuse me of being a "drug addict" (one of the many reasons that I keep my use of these substances somewhat secretive, as my true intentions never have been taken seriously by those around me). I hope that I can both learn and contribute here, and eventually be able to have another experience that I will never forget.

Thanks for your time.

Hey Akasha and welcome!

Sounds like you have had a beautiful experience with entheogens and I'm sure you have come to the best place to find people who take entheogens seriously

Sucks to hear about your "friend" those people stink But now you are here

I hope you find what your looking for! See you around.

Tupo.

Welcome aboard Akasha224, I am sorry you had to experience such a person. Yep, go it alone buddy, except of course for the Nexus. The general consensus of this community, and the way in which it is administrated allows these pages to be full of reliable information to help you on your journey.

You can rely on the information contained here, and if false or misleading information is ever put forward, it will be corrected relatively quickly. Your red flag was raised at the correct time, prior to that, you were not to know of this persons intentions. This place is definitely a sanctuary and a place of learning. Welcome again my friend.

Peace

Macre

Welcome to the Nexus Akasha224 and thank you for sharing your story.

Its good you came here. No one will ever try to do the same to you here as your so called friend did. In Wiki you will find many answers to you questions plus its us here to help you if you need.

Enjoy

Welcome sorry to hear of your problems thats a terrible thing to happen. Similiar thing happened to me, met someone from the aya forums but we became best friends and now I live in a foreign country with him, all because of dmt and ayahuasca, strange how things work out and im sure when you extract it and experience it for yourself it will be exaclty how it was supposed to be, good luck and im sure you will get there, noman tek is ridiculously straighforward!

Edit: your not akasha from df no??

No, this is the first time I've used this name, and I'm not quite sure what df is?

Welcome Akasha224,

Sorry to hear about your misfortune. You made the right choice in learning how to extract yourself. This is an excellent place to learn all you wanted to know and a whole lot more. Check out the WIKI. All you need to know is there! The good people here will be more than willing to help you out.

If you dream it you can do it!

good luck

Welcome friend
You are not the idiot that thrust someone.
The idiot is the one that lurking you and do not stop believing good of people just because of one person

Wholeheartedly agreed... at least until you find the right travel companions for you, but even then, responsibility always pays off.

Plenty of trustworthy people here to listen to. Thank you for your intro, and welcome to the Nexus.

Sorry to hear about your bad encounter with mischievous person Akasha, but take it this way; without him you might not have found this place and who knows what kind of experiences and adventures you might have missed then!


Anyways, welcome to the nexus

Welcome, welcome!

I agree with your lesson about going it alone. We all walk the paths alone, since it's our minds and consciousness we are dealing with. Don't let it shy you away from imparting your knowledge to others, though. There are other folks around like you who could put it to good use, and in my opinion we should carefully propagate this when we can. After all, that's what this site is about! Learn from that douche of what not to do, and how not to be. Without the bad, there's no contrast to put the good into context.

I'll hop off my soap box, now.

Again, welcome!

Welcome aboard friend!

Interesting how things work out in the long run. The one who introduced me to dmt turns out never extracted and would have someone make it for him to sell....would've never known if I wouldn't have taken it upon myself to extract , make some changa, then gift him some...to later find out he didn't even know what changa was. He wanted me to show him how to extract, I mentioned the nexus for him to research teks but hasn't shown any more interest since then. Some people just want someone to do all the legwork for them to reap the benefits. I know he's capable of learning he's an excellent cannabis grower which is alot more complex than extracting...until then I'll just keep gifting him some every now and then for being a good friend until he shows more knowledge relating to extracting.
We are on this path solo, well we have each other of course...but ultimately its up to ourselves. I highly recommend growing your own mushrooms as you already have what seems a good relationship with them.

Hey OP........

Live and learn !

I would personally suggest not letting anyone else in on this special project. I believe its a very personal journey.

By the way, maybe you are a drug addict!

IMHO

This was another project that I had wanted to work on for a while as well.

Welcome to the forum. I find that this path, at least at present, is one to be walked alone for the most part. A lot of people have the wrong idea about such pursuits. They tend to see it as drug addiction, or just escapism. "You just want to get high and forget about everything." As you've obviously already experienced.

As long as you know your intentions are pure, that is all that should matter.


I hope this is sarcasm or a joke...I don't really understand why you would post that.

Hi welcome here

sorry to hear you got ripped off, Karma sometimes bites, I am sure his will.

Peace

Hello Akasha224,

Welcome to the Nexus. Thank you so much for taking the time to submit an Introduction Essay. I'm not sure if your reference in the first part of your essay to drug commerce breaks the rules or not. But, clearly you learned your lesson.

I cannot say enough for self-extraction of entheogens, such as DMT and mescaline. Not only does the extractor know what was done every step of the way, when and why, but one does not participate in commerce with folks who may not care about such factors. It also removes fears about sourcing. You know what it is, etc. so the only fears you in you.

The information and teks here is correct, checked and very thourough. This community is not like other ones, including other drug forums.

Please take a good look around - lots to see here. This place is not like others, nor like the situation you described. I hope you enjoy it. Again, welcome to the Nexus.

"The only crowd I've ever been involved with who knows what DMT is, let alone has used hallucinogens in general, are the stereotypical 20somethings who think "soul seeking" is loading up on ecstasy and listening to dubstep. "

MDMA and dubstep is one of my most profound experiences in life. You should not judge these people and might find something there if you are more open to that crowd. You might meet some amazing people. How can you point your finger at something and claim what is or is not "soul searching"? These kinds of labels can just box you in. There is no such thing as a soul searching person. There are just people.

Well I read your original post in this thread. I'd say that intention is everything and if someone mentions money and these sorts of substances in the same sentence I would run away as fast as humanly possible. The people in my life who I share these experiences with basically all came to me in one way or another. Some have asked before they tried them if I would sell a little. I say hell no I won't, but I'd be more than happy to share them with you instead.

You see, sooner or later some person or the other will pop into your life at some point with the right mindset, but who knows way less than you do. Then it's up to you to insure that your intention is different than the person you spoke of. Profit has no place here imo, would anyone sell communion from a Catholic Church for example?

So just chalk that up as a lesson as to how not to go about things

I was going to post, then I read this .