So I decided to go back up to the cave with some buddies, the place I first experienced a proper journey with enhanced leaf.

I made a decision that if I were to do some, and it misfired again, I was going to take a lengthy break and explore other aspects of my life.

Me and two buddies did it simultaneously at the mouth of the cave sitting on some rocks, and I put about 60mg of 'a pinch of yellow, a pinch of white, a pinch of re-x, a pinch of orange and a pinch of browny tan colour' in my device.

I took two big drags, huge clouds coming from the cave as I exhaled, felt my vision start to shift and what not, saw my hands on my leg look like someone else's hands, and as if I was in a movie with an unrealistic colour scheme.

Short lived, we decided to enter the cave to where it was quite dark, it was around 8pm now (still light out but kinda dim).

This is where it gets really disturbing for me.

I had the same amount, sitting on top of a rock the size of a shoebox, and I was looking around at the cave walls, when I noticed a spider the size of those giant crabs they have at the aquarium (spider crabs?). It was just like tucked away in this crack, it knew I was there but my presence wasn't really significant enough for it to bother with me, it looked very relaxed and so I decided not to "keep my eye on it in case it moves" haha.

I looked at the floor to my left, and saw some movement of black, then I looked down to my feet, and I noticed what looked to be black oil oozing out from under the rock I was sitting on to in between my shoes.

At first I felt really sketchy, because I know it's night time and critters come out, thinking this could very well be a scorpion or spider right in between my feet but I'm tripping "looking at the pretty oil (doh!)", and I wonder if I should move away from where I'm sitting, so I got curious and took a closer look...

I saw it was a squirming mass of insect-like humans, I'm guessing about 100 or so of them, glossy black skin with red hair. They were all rolling around on top and underneath of each other fornicating and sliming about when my vision "zoomed in" to the one on the top left of the mass..

It was the female equivalent to Jabba? the hutt from star wars, and she was moving her arms looking up at me telepathically and facial expressively telling me: "yeeeeahh, this is what it's all about!" I could hear the other little people cheering and laughing too (had it before as well), in those insanely high pitched excited voices that seem to overwhelm you ( closest thing to the elves saying hooray I have experienced).

I jumped up from the rock and turned it over, nothing, nobody was there. I ran out of the cave because I couldn't contain my laughter in disgust and didn't want to disturb the others as well.

It's the first time I literally couldn't stop laughing I felt so amused, disgusted, embarrassed, and confused at the same time - Although everything totally made sense.

It's just that when you are presented with "THE PURPOSE OF LIFE" in such a crude example, you would expect it to be a little more classy, and so it's that little bit of denial that kicked in, which forced my thoughts into confusion over life in general.

Can it really be all that there is to it? What do you guys think? O_o

I know it's just a trip but... there is proof all around us. What are we actually accomplishing except for reproducing ourselves and destroying the planet.

Either way though, I'm not going to take this journey too seriously.

My eyes were open on both trips

Hope you enjoyed the read
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Great point changalavia!

Firstly, you have been warned. My ideas may differ from yours!

I have taken time to ponder on this and i have my theories. One is that we are divinity expressed in the form of human beings. Really we are 'channelers', and our duty is simply to live according to our 'inner compass'. What for you ask?, well, we are god's own way of keeping himself in check!

I think the universe is god, we are here to look after amongst ourselves, the planet. In Peru they worship 'pachamama', the earth that provides their food, the sun for it's warmth, etc, etc. I think they are on a good philosophical path.

Why do we find ourselves working in society?/ because a long time ago someone made the land his own posession, and that gave rise to the money game as a way to enslave us into a rigid society to keep us in check. Man, i am working on my philosophies today i can tell you!

Anyway, i think we are here, guided by positive vibes to naturally remain in this happy connection to the divine by doing good things. If we don't we will be doing no good, hence how good and evil sprang up. Whatever, every action has a reaction, and we are just really just energy moving in a direction, sometimes flowing, sometimes blocked, sometimes going in circles, sometimes too slow, or too fast, or going in the wrong direction. We are this energy 'personified'.

Life is really just a game. Like i said, there really is just our path, and any 'wrong' really means a deviation from it. I believe that life is a gift to be enjoyed as we can if we smoothly transit through this life doing good things. Any wars or problems result from a deviation of that flow, etc. Reproduction is but a part of that flow, and an easy metaphor for spiritual understanding, same like the wind, the seasons, living and dying, etc, etc,. And that is usually how Psychadelics can work as 'teachers'.

Well that's what i think, sorry if it bores you!

Why thank you christian for that very honest point of view, a lot of what you said makes sense to me, and NO it doesn’t bore me, I think that was a perfect response and very well written, so thank you for setting time aside for that  haha.

Have you ever experienced anything similar? Or similar kind of thoughts while journeying? It’s totally an odd thought to have pop up though nevermind the visuals hahaha

You're welcome, changalvia!

It's nice to hear that some of my thoughts resonate with you. In terms of my own experiences, i can say i've had some pretty amazing dreams on stuff as simple as blue lotus flowers seeped in wine, etc. That led me to question if entheogens were used in the past to help keep the 'channels' open for divine inspired societies, etc, as in Egypt, and the building of the pyramids, etc.

I can say i have had some strange dreams with strange vegetation in them of which you can imagine. I have also had a tour of underground caves which were either the network of that vegetation, or something else.

I can only say keep on journeying, because it sounds like you are a good perciever of those realms, and that is good because they are of wonder and fascination of this miracle of life which we are here to experience in the way we choose as we pass through as tourists of the Earth we call home 'for now'!

lol good post changalvia yeah life isn't that classy really. We're just a bunch of clever animals getting their leg over

Isn't it anyway what we observe in ALL living systems? From microbes to enormous animals? Survival, multiplication, adaptation/evolution/mutation (enter loop function here). Why would we be any different?

Because we can be.

We have the ability to be different, and so we are. We can choose to reproduce or not to, we can choose to be different.

We are the masters of our destiny in this life, although life always is in control we can at least sail through it in the nicest possible way...if we are wise enough.

Maybe all lifeforms have a conscience and an ability to choose if they want to reproduce. We cannot know. How do we know that only we as a species have a said "special" ability? Maybe all lifeforms have a choice, and they are simply choosing to reproduce. :shrug:

wHO kNOWS?

wE all have our own theories, and personally i think my own theory is damned cool (haha), because i choose to think so.

Getting back on track, i'd like to add that i think the purpose of life is to experience life using our senses in a way that grooves for us, which will probably be positive, cos positive feels good. Do good, feel good, SIMPLZ!

True, but unfortunately, I don't have any theory. The only knowledge I possess is of what we do not know. I'll leave theory-making to the dreamers

"Do good, feel good" feels like a good moto. I guess fornication falls in that category as well

So what if the purpose of life is sex? I fail to see that there is anything wrong with that? Sex is awesome.

..changalvia..sounds like you got hacked into by a multi-dimensional alien live-porn freak! haha

Zen koan:

A student asked his master 'what is the meaning of life?"

The master replied: 'eat, shit, piss, fuck..'
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haha, I never said it was a negative thing, I'm totally down for life either way ( ) . But as much as I appreciate the fact that all beings bang, it doesn't mean I wish to see a mass orgy in microscopic detail

I think the vision you had was more to do with expressing the constant interchanging of energy and flow that is life. Sex just happens to be a great metaphor. Indeed, it's one of our life 'activities' amongst other ways we pass through existence on this planet.

Defining 'our purpose in life' is quite tricky i think, because it's more like the other way round, that 'life has a purpose for us', and our purpose is to just let life flow through us. For example, do any of you think you are in any way in control over the Earth, and can do without food, water, air, or any other eartly things?

That's why i said what i said about us basically being 'channelers' who are simply allowing life force to flow through us as our human bodies will allow given the many ways we can express ourselves. We like to take comfort in thinking we have mastery over nature, but that is just us kidding ourselves. What we really mean is that we can master some things we consider to be 'meaningful', although on closer inspection we have only created a living environment that is very high maintainence, and lifestyle that is never 'permanent'.

Life, the nature, is abundant, has it's own agenda, and we are at it's mercy, untill the next pompeii or tsunami rears itself and puts our big ego's of 'control and superiority' into a place where they really belong!

I think our big egos, are our way of coping with the realisation that we are really at the beck and call of nature. The nature which has SHAPED us, caused us to adapt. The nature that makes us sit under a tree to shelter from the sun, wear clothes against the cold, build stormproof housing to protect us from attacks from animals.

Oh, we can think for ourselves, but that is only for survival. Our 'achievements' are only us making this life we have created as a haven against the true wildness of nature. Governments, jobs, religions, music, porn, media...all coping mechanisms to the nature that we are at the mercy of, (no matter how secure we think we are).

So, perhaps our purpose of life is..To 'master ourselves' with understanding, and to go with the flow in 'as life a nourishing way', as possible- or face 'hell'?!