Please move to the correct section.Hello all,
I thought I could share my trip report from my first cactI experience. I wrote the report in French, as I am French-Canadian, so I will try my best to translate without losing the content. I will basically write what comes from my journal only, because that trip happened about two years ago...
"21/12/10 - Peruvian Torch Report
T0(22h30): 15g of grinded(dry) PT has been ingested with water. The taste isn't that horrible, but it's pretty bad. After ingesting the substance, I think I feel tiny effects, but this is probably happening in my head.
T+0.5(23h): 2.5g of grinded(dry) PT has been ingested with water; 17.5g should be enough for a first experience. Mescaline takes approximately two to three hours to take effect, so if I feel something, it's probably in my head. +2.5g=20g. 250mL of water has been drunk for 20g of cactI powder.
T+0.75(23h15): I'm finishing the movie
Layer Cake; there's 30mins left; this should help me wait until the effects begin...if they'll come.
T+1(23h30): There's 12mins left to the movie. I feel this kind of effect in my body. Slight potential nausea...for now.
T+1.75(0h15): I'm listening to
1200 Micrograms. Going to the restroom seemed different than usual. I feel that the mescaline's effects are progressively setting up. I think I'm having CEVs, but I'm not sure if the fractals I see when I close my eyes aren't a product of my imagination.
T+2(0h30):
1200 Micrograms will be the music for this beneficial trip. CEV. Subsequent visual "hallucinations"; my bedside table seems to slowly move back and forth. "Good mescaline comes on slow. First hour's all waiting, and then about halfway through second hour. You start cursing the creep who burned you because nothing's happening. And then...ZANG!" -
1200 Micrograms, Mescaline
My room seems pretty lit...though there is only a small light source. Colors seem to intensify. I still haven't threw up the mixture that I ingested...I hope I don't have to do it. My writing is certainly different since T0... This is probably due to the mescaline's sneaky effects. You certainly have to wait a few hours before the effects take place, but they are probably worth the wait. I think I have contradicted myself a few times but...
When I close my eyes, I see some green and pink/violet/purple patterns. Since I have a pretty high tolerance to psychoactive substances, I think that 20g is a very light dose for me. But I feel a bit confused and time is running, is advancing while I'm writing this, so I'm not at T+2 anymore because effects are setting in...I don't know when will be the peak. I think that everything looks in slow-motion from my perspective, euphoria, I feel that my stomach is digesting the cactus. I have this huge desire to move under my sheets. Why am I writing everything that goes on through my mind? Why not? That is the question...why? If only there was a restroom downstairs.
Okay, it's almost 1h00(0h50) and I think I'll turn off the light, hehe....Nothing's happening, really. Was it a good idea to take this before an exam day??? Probably not, but I feel so good now(0h54), but I really need to go pee...Okay I have no choice...Will I get lost in this house? I'll be right back. PS I still feel reality...not yet in another world. But what really is the reality? or a parallel world? Anyway, it's 0h57 and I really need to go pee, I'll be right back, Okay, this felt good and it is now T+2.5 I think.
My senses are only altered... I am still in the third dimension, but I'd like to be in another dimension. Isn't the fourth dimension the time?
The time. What REALLY is the time? Why is time a constraint? A source of stress, anxiety, of happiness right before a victory. Why the time?? Money: pfffft xD money...a vulgar piece of paper on which some found...some found...some build their beliefs. Today's society is founded on the belief of those vulgar pieces of paper. They say "spoken words fly away, written stays". This written text, ladies and gentlemen, could certainly shock, confuse, surprise many people. Anyway, my writing has certainly changed since the beginning and the spelling mistakes are multiplying themselves, it's now 1h13 after having written all of this, this is because time passes, even if time passes slowly, time passes while I'm writing this. I will not will not read myself over later...or maybe I will. But this will probably feel weird to read this in a few weeks or a few years. Time, time, time is crazy. Time is the cause of everything. Time can be really really short or really really long. Time gets us angry: why are you angry? My friend took too much time to come. Why are you angry? We didn't have enough time to finish the exam. There! There written on paper, that the time is the cause of everything: 9 months before the beginning of a new life; how will this one ends? Only time will tell. We have x years?, weeks?, months? to live. Time, it's the cause of everything. Wow, I feel so GREAT in this moment(time)(1h22) where I'm writing this, I don't know if there are more effects coming since it's my first time, but whatever...the important is to live the current moment, I feel good enough to stop thinking about the future. Verbs...this is another example of time. Why is there the time of a tense at a certain time, at a certain moment?Mescaline is really like "playing a game with the big boys"...Marijuana is child's play compared to mescaline. Mescaline. Most people have no f---ing idea about its existence and I am writing this tripping on mesc. Ohh!! 1h30. Do I have business in "the big boys' yard"? Of course I do. Curiosity, the CURIOsity. This is what pushes me to do things like this, to be a pioneer of my birth year, I am precocious from A to Z...D, from A to Z is for drugs I'm also precocious for drugs and it's MY curiosity that pushes me to do some things that other people's consciousness wouldn't allow them to do...what is good and what is wrong...pffft take drugs is bad...yes, but from another point of view, only the fact that taking an unknown substance from my body, which has been researched by me from Internet and books for a very long time, feeds my knowledge, No my curiosity.
Wait, why I do not have music playing anymore, I REALLY NEED MUSIC. I think that's clear enough...if only I could always have the right to listen to music. Personally, I thought that Mescaline would have more visual effects, but I guess it's more inside. This is what helps me have thoughts, umm to write my questions and if other people had to read this, they could certainly be shocked, troubled, upset.
They say that a trip that every trip is different every time, PS I will not describe the effects anymore, because I think writing my thoughts says many things on my state of mind. We say no we don't say I mean a trip is different every time, but weed feels always the same. Okay, I'll try to turn off the light again. 1h43. S--t, I still have no music playing.
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"Psychedelics are probably responsible for every aspect of human evolution apart from the decline in bodyhair." -Terence McKenna
"One of the things you learn after years of dealing with drug people, is that you can turn your back on a person, but never turn your back on a drug." -1200 Micrograms, Mescaline
"There is no space, there is no time, there is no me, there is no you" -Cubensis Theory, Little Tiny White Suited