I'm not really sure where to begin so I guess I'm just going to go and kind of just type and let the words fall where they may. I'm currently in a period of transition attending a new University back in my home state after 2 quite unsuccessful years in College out of state. I've been looking to improve who I am fundamentally as a person and so far psychedelics have made a positive impact there. For some backstory two years ago I made the mistake of developing an addiction to Mephedrone and Amphetamines and it came so close to costing me everything. My gpa had fallen so far since high school, my relationships with my friends, family and girlfriend had taken a serious toll and I simply wasn't happy. Near the end of that first year I recognized that I had a pretty bad problem and had read that psychedelics had a place in helping treat addiction and so with some friends of mine who didn't enable me like a few did I had an 1/8th of Psilocybin mushrooms and if you've done those then you know the kind of trip that can come out of that. It was beautiful, scary, and transforming. That summer back home I was working on pieceing myself back together, I had picked up a 40 hour a week job, I was getting back together with my highschool sweet heart and staying sober. The next year back at school presented some familiar problems, I was back in a place where I had seen myself go from an A student to nearly failing all my classes. I made it through the year largely sober and had made the decision to transfer back to a state school as even though I was doing better I had too many negative feelings about where I was. These feelings were more firmly cemented after a second mushroom trip and I knew that I needed to make some serious changes. I transferred schools officially in February, changed my major from Biology to Business Management, realized how strong my feelings were for my girlfriend and spent most of the remainder of that academic year commuting via Greyhound back to Mass whenever I could to see her. Since I've been back I've been working my way towards my old form in school, making plans to move in with my girlfriend when financially feasible and simply discover more about myself. I've taken LSD several times since I've been here and the trips have opened up my mind even more as to where I can take my life and I've probably been feeling the most positive about my life as I ever have. Recently I've heard about DMT and have done some research on it but remain a little in the dark about it and have been wanting to learn more about it and whether or not I could benefit from trying it either now or in the future. I hope to learn more about dmt, changa, and ayahuasca from all of you folks here and will take the plunge when it seems right.

Welcome Mrpotatohead77.

Thank you for sharing your experience. I had the opposite experience. I did pretty well in a very difficult school during my freshman year when I was exposed for the first time to LSD. During that summer, I tripped way too many times. In my sophomore year I went to one hour of one course during the entire semester and failed miserably. The college was very progressive and the Dean told me that when I was accepted I was accepted for better or worse, and that the college considered any problems that I had to be their fault. Well, I took that as a blank check, not realizing the lifelong implications of my folly and disrespect. I attribute this course of events to the fact that I had emotional problems which were unresolved prior to my admittance. I was not emotionally mature when I tried LSD, and it had a deleterious effect on me.

I am glad that you nipped this in the bud, because the economy nowadays has no room for slackers. You have to excel in this competitive world.

Welcome to the Nexus, I look forward to hearing more from you soon and often.

Spangles

Thanks for the welcome I'm not planning on any trips over this winter break but intend to study and learn more about dmt. I'm feeling good about it from what I've read in some trip reports. Changa in particular interests me. Maybe once I get back to college in January I'll set about seeing if I can make some. Time to hit up the extraction teks and figure all this out.

Hello mrpotatohead77,

Welcome to the Nexus. It sounds like you are on quite a journey currently, one that has involved a number of changes, but also, it sounds like, a new level of self-awareness.

I wish you continuing strength in avoiding the pitfalls of physically addictive drugs.

Have you done any work with meditation, either while or while not tripping? I have personally found it to be very helpful.

Also, I really cannot recommend enough, banisteripsis caapi only ayahuasca brews. Not only are they completely legal (here in USA) but I have found these brews to be very curative of mental and digestive concerns.

Sounds like you are doing a good job checking things out, looking around, etc. See the wiki link for the plant extraction teks - so much good information there. And all over the place here.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.