Hi, my names Alex and i've browsed here a few times but thought i'd sign up.

Quick story of me.I am 20, the past 2 years has been sifting and going through the problems of my personal conditioning and i am now on the verge of choice. Arriving at the decisions to make the choice for a healthy value system, which is all very exciting! I guess more recently i have been reading up alot on the psychedelic/high end experiences which somehow ended up on my lap.

Ironically i used to smoke marijuana years back(not to a concious degree) where i usually always had terrifying experiences. These experiences shaped my identity and waking life for years. If pott could do that, what the holy hell is a mushroom going to do to me? Where at first i'd feel the sensations im my body from marijjuana when i thought of any psychedelic substance, now i have a profound curiosity for it.I do not know exactly why those experiences manifested in such ways(if you must know, i felt my brain being chopped in half, things trying to jump out my head, falling on spikes) but with half a brain, it seems obvious that it was due to all the pain i was holding inside of myself.

DMT has been a more recent discovery, i don't believe i am ready for it yet but it is my biggest curiosity. I hope one day, i will get to experience it because i don't really have any close friends and finding dmt intrigued people seems like a whole other dimension(terrible pun intended).I feel like until i resolve everything inside of myself, i should not take any psychedelic substance maybe because somewhere i still fear maybe those things from pott might manifest again.At the same time though, i know people have used such rouses to help themselves and maybe all the good i've learnt far outweighs the negative things. Anyway, i will probably leave it at that, see you around the forum. Cheers.

Hello Alex,

Welcome to the Nexus. Thanks so much for taking the time to submit an Introduction Essay, .

I think you are wise to be cautious if you had such extreme anxiety/panic effects from marijuana.

Am I to understand from your essay that you have not yet tried any psychedelic substance?

Of course, it's not a requirement here, but I do recommend trying to grow and consume mushrooms at various dose levels before trying to extract and smoke DMT.

We are in a period of transition and forced evolution as our primary DMT plant is no longer available. Thus, for a variety of reasons, many folks find themselves waiting.

But, it's worth the wait and you do have plenty of time. In the interim, as you said, I hope to see you around the forums.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.

That was fast!

Yes, never tried a psychedelic substance. Yeah I have thought when it comes, to first try a very small dose of mushrooms, then in time slowly ante it up. There is a slight worry of "Oh you are genetically sensitive to these things and you have no chance of a happy experience" but i really do not want to believe that. I honestly think its because i was extremely analytical too and didn't have a ground self esteem to manage or seperate myself from those panic attacks.

Well acacias containing DMT seem extremely abundant here, I'm not sure about chemical suppliers though and how experiences differ with other plants. Anyway yeah i will try the less serious substances should they come, even if DMT was in my face now i'd definitely do the wait out. Thanks the nice welcome.