Hello
I just joined the nexus after a long time of reading other people's posts. After 6 months or so of keeping my experiences to myself i decided I need to tell someone. I live in Midwest, USA. Love the ganja and feel fortunate to have had the chance to expand my consciousness in my pursuit of some higher truth. I finally came face to face in a cev with something that maybe had some answers I was looking for but I lost my nerve and and my whole self kind of imploded and I wasn't sure who I was and why I was standing in front of this being. It was determined I was wasting their time and I was expelled from the place with a swift flick of a god size finger. It took a few weeks of feeling inferior to get the courage to try again. The last few times I have been seeing these swirly pinwheel snake type deals as soon as embark. After being distracted by them before, I made it past and was greeted by an entity who told me the pinwheels where other travelers who were caught up in themselves and the distractions. At this point my whole self and personality shattered and I was scrambling to rearrange the pieces but couldn't. To continue on I must reform the pieces, which I am going to attempt now.

Sorry for the rambling. Felt good to type that out

Thanks

I know you've been part of this community for a while, but dude, I'm really glad too see that you took the leap and logged in!

I can only hope that you start looking through your little black book and sharing some of the other experiences that you've had on this incredible journey that we have embarked upon.

There is one instance in particular that I would love to hear you share. And even more importantly I would love to hear what others think about it.

Welcome, my cosm-anomalous bastard broski, and psychonautical comrade!

astrotravellin.... darn tootin...

lol, I just had a very similar experience but I was one of the pinwheels. lol
I was spiraling around and down a tube because I was being flushed back to my
body because I couldn't let go of my self completely. Quite the coincidence...
I wrote a fuller story plus illustration in DMT Experiences.

Hello CrackedFractal,

Welcome to formal Nexus membership. Several lurkers have signed up in the past 24 hours and it makes me very happy indeed.

Interesting trip description there. If you really feel you are not making it past distractions perhaps you should refine your smoking tek or smoke a bit more or hold your hits longer or try to absorb the full dose quicker or the really difficult one - all of the above. Keep working on that DMT learning curve. I also find the Glass Vaporgenie pipe to be very helpful in this regard.

You describe scrambling to rearrange personality pieces after being shattered. Yeah, DMT can do that. For me the best thing just about always is to just try to let go more, to utterly surrender - easy to write, not the easiest thing to do. DMT at high and breakthrough doses does tend to attack the ego and I've more than once said it is Ego Russian Roulette.

Besides ganga and DMT, have you tried or done many more psychedelics? Were you high on weed when you smoked DMT.

Wow Cosmiclearning - that would probably make me nauseaus from all the spinning.

So, CrackedFractal, anything else you'd care to share would be appreciated. I look forward to seeing you around, reading your posts and comments.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.

Yep this is one thing that is very important.

I've been trying to convince the man to get himself a GVG but i think i pushed it so much that he is bound and determined to keep his money in one pocket and his breakthroughs in the other. Recently i started making several machine type pipes out of those little mini wine bottles. My intent was to customize them by etching the DMT Molecule into the glass with a dremel. I made about 5 of these things for my close friends, but only got around to etching one of them. I did leave Mr. Fractal with a plain machine(pre-etching) and i'm hoping that this will be much more efficient than using regular pipe devices. However, i must admit, the man is an expert at vaping the Deems. This guy could vape dmt off of a spoon if he wanted to. I personally can't use anything besides the GVG and the machine if i want to get a quality hit. I'm kind of amazed at how consistently he breaks through with primitive tools.

I really hope that he will start some new threads and share some more of his experiences. Some of them are scary, some are super inspiring, and some are just downright insane with a side of impossible. Seriously incredible. I'm honored to have such a great friend to share this with.

Make no mistakes, FrackedCractal is my best friend, and i assure you he is a seasoned vet when it comes to inhaling the spice vapours. I'm honestly a bit envious of the profundity of his ongoing experiences. I'm beginning to think that the Entities smoke DMT and contact HIM. Hahaha.

Sorry, Fractal. Couldn't resist. 16oz of Caapi vine should be arriving today.

Ready for the next step?

Much love, brother.

Thanks for the feedback. I know it was a little lacking in detail but I hope to share some pretty profound experiences on here. Cosmiclearning Your art was killer. I wish I could put some stuff down like that. I haven’t really tried too much but that was cool. I liked reading your posts too. Thanks for the info Pandora. I know I probably sounded like a noob, I just didn’t want to write too much on my first post. It seems that just recently I noticed that at the beginning of the trip it was like something was showing me cool spinning designs trying to hide what was really behind it all. Almost as a way of weeding out the unworthy by giving them something amazing to look at and enjoy, hoping that they wouldn’t see past their façade. This last time it was like I knew what it was and moved beyond to encounter some kind of entity before my cranium cracked. I usually vaporize on top of a little herb. Gvg is good but sometimes overwhelming to the point that it feels like I did too much. I’ve had quite a few where I can feel something touching me, which isn’t always bad but really weird. Shpongle is always a part of the experience as it seems like a lot of his music will give me a different reaction. I’ve done other psychedelics throughout my life but nothing has really been as meaningful for me. It was usually in a party setting which was cool at first but as I’ve gotten older the pleasure is minimal and paranoia and anxiety is increased. With Dmt I’ve been able to distinguish who can handle it and have respect for it, which is a very small number, and I can do it with them. I’m really all about the solo path and having it get weird as possible.
Hope that clears things up a little. I’m gonna try to post a few meaningful experiences later. I know a few of them had my head spinning and would like to hear what you all think.
MomentofTruth Thanks for the kind words. You’re my dude. Appreciate everything you’ve done man.
Definitely good to have somebody looking out for me
Thanks again everyone

Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away.
Philip K. Dick, "How to Build a Universe That Doesn't Fall Apart Two Days Later", 1978

welcome to the nexus bud id be glad to read your experiences if you have plenty to write. theres plenty of open minded ppl to read them and help give insight to the weird and unknown excited to see you around the forum

Hello CrackedFractal
I been looking for people like you for 60 yrs and only found maybe one or two
I'm glad to be in your company here and I wanna here more of your insights and experiences
I need help maybe more than you, after all we are the"happy few" who are pereneially blessed/cursed to diregard the ordinary world of competive stife and counting toys and status
Read my intro below (OLD DOG) if you get a chance
Warning, I am long winded because I am so excited to find you people who I can see are my kindred spirits
Spangles