PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: clear headed, confident
(physical condition) Set: hungry
Setting (location): bedroom
time of day: (12 or 24 hour system, daylight? starlight? overcast?) Noonish
recent drug use: (list also any kind of medication) NONE
last meal: (Time and type) 1 1/2 hours before hand, multi grain bar (strawberry)

PARTICIPANT
Gender: Male
body weight: 61.8 kg
known sensitivities: none
history of use: experienced

BIOASSAY
Substance(s): Crystal DMT
Dose(s): 28mg
Method of administration: vaporized


EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:00 12:00
Duration: 4 minutes
First effects: body load
Peak: T=0:01-0:04
Come down: T=0:10
Baseline: T=0:20

Intensity (overall): 4 = Extremely
Evaluation / notes:

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: (0-4) 4!
Implesantness: (0-4) -0!
Visual Intensity: (0-4) 3
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 0
Afterglow: 4, crying, laughing, mind blown


REPORT

ok, so I have had a handful of breakthrough experiences now, most of which I have not posted on here for various reasons (timing, inability to get on computer at the time, memory fade ect.)

I have had many moving experiences, breakthroughs and not. This one takes the cake. The song choice, previous conversation beforehand, all took a major role in what I was shown, taught, and felt. This dose has changed me much like my previous experiences have, but this one gets filed in my heart, titled "There is only love". Enjoy.

Songs were ordered on purpose on spotify. In order to be heard like this.

1) Vexare - rattlesnakes (for time leading to dosing, during dosing and ending while about to lay down)

2) vexare - polar (to be heard while under)

3) Deadmau5 - moar ghosts and stuff nero remix (to be heard upon returning)

Music volume was carefully adjusted before hand to achieve perfect level. These songs, considered dubstep I guess, bring about a certain emotion for me, especially the one called polar. It is like my "laying on a beach" vision as far as songs go. Very serene and emotional.

I laid back, holding my breathe. The music was fading into the next song, my song of choice. My mind was clear, no racing thoughts, no anxiety what so ever. Visions started to appear. I exhaled. These were darker in brightness then I was used to. I thought, ok this probably wont be a very strong one I guess. Somehow this changed without me noticing. The visuals became very crystal clear and bright and I no longer was in my body. This happened sometime around when I slowed my breathing down to what seemed to me as stopping.

Very beautiful colors and shape shifting of strange shapes and objects that were not familiar to me. Everything was so clear and sharp. The peak of the song was playing and I could hear it. It sounded as if it was playing in a room with a lot of echo. It didnt occur to me where this music was coming from, but I felt connected to it and it set the scene for what started to happen right now.

The visuals rotated or turned. this new thing appeared in front of me, or above me Im not sure. This entity was kicking back, in a lay down position, and I think he had his head tilted like it was leaning against something, or propped up by his hand. This object he was manipulating kind of resembled a vile. It was laying horizontally and was surrounded by some kind of holder made of light and energy. Awesome colors.

inside are two liquids, as I focused on the liquids the most he was communicating to me through the music, through emotion, and in some other way Im not sure how. The two liquids, one completely clear, the other a brownish clear. They would combine slightly then seperate as he continued to rotate this object. The liquids crashed into each other and seperated over and over again. My energy was filled with this understanding. These liquids were good and bad. They never combine, not completely, and they always seperate easily. The brown, or bad, liquid doesnt really exist anywhere else but in this reality called life. The good energy, clear liquid, is pure and has nothing else to it and nothing can contaminate it.

This eventually passed, for what seemed like a very long time, as I was starting to feel overwhelmed, the feeling you get when you cry while watching an extremely moving movie. I started to come back to my body. As I opened my eyes, I felt tears streaming out of my eyes. For a few seconds everything felt wet, but that slowly faded. I tried to talk, to say something to my friend "I'm crying dude!" but then I was choked up in laughter. Then bawling. Then Laughter. Then Bawling!

I looked around the room clearing the tears from my face. Crazy distortions of everything going on, it was almost too much. I tried to say something again but was choked up with tears, then laughter. It kept coming in waves, I would start to laugh pretty hard, and then that would get shoved aside by this HARD CRYING. My friend fetched me some toilet paper. He had that look on his face like when you look at someone that is feeling major grief and you want to help them. I assured him I was ok and this was good crying. I was shown exactly what i needed to see. A common saying around my house lately.

So I started going on about stuff.

"Wow man, [crying] its so amazing I cant stop myself, Im crying and [laughter] laughing so hard!"

more crying...

"This is insane! I feel all the good that exists and it makes me sad! [BAWLING HARD] Negative/evil doesnt exist, its only the lack of good that we call evil [laughter]"

Crying again...

This all lasted about 10 minutes, waves of crying then laughter, then I would be kind of stable for a second then crying again ect.

I blew my nose around 50 times, I felt like i was purging all this congestion out of my body, so much snot came out it was crazy. I was feeling sick for a few days and now I feel tip top. Clear nasal passages.

This entity had a sensation about him, as if he was just kicking back, not letting things bother him at all. He was sending to me the thoughts that, all is well, dont sweat the petty stuff, everything is the way its supposed to be. This is just a small part of a much bigger picture. Dont worry so much, its going to be ok. You are on the right path and your outlook is good. You know, I dont have to tell you...

So, ya. Mind blown. Definitely one of my favorite emotional experiences I have ever had.

I truly enjoyed reading this. Very inspiring, thanks for sharing!

Sounds like a very deep experience. Nice read!

Thanks for reading!

This has really been an accomplishment in my personal/spiritual growth journey. Every experience is getting better, packed with more knowledge, and helping me along my way. With the correct information for the situation I'm in at the time. I can't imagine where I would be if DMT had not come into my life.

Mega Ultra Super cool

Awesome mate!!!! So happy for you. This thing of ours is purty kiewl huh?

Beautiful report, I wanted to comment on something you described during your experience which, to this mind, is loaded with deep insight into the nature of awareness. I notice you mentioned in another reply here that you felt this was an accomplishment in your personal/spiritual development, and I think I can understand why this is based on the symbolism described and the emotional impact the experience had on you. Bear in mind, it's just my two cents so don't take it as fact or anything.


To me, this is a very clear metaphor for the illusory nature of duality, the clear liquid may symbolize the clear light of awareness owing to it's unstainable and incontaminable nature.

Staying with the clear/brown liquid analogy, consider that, as you say, the brown liquid doesn't actually exist independent from the clear liquid but is also not inherently contained within it or even part of it. It's an impurity which, in the same way we would wash our plant material to extract the actives, can be removed leaving the clear liquid in its perfect, untainted state through the simple act of recognition; in recognizing that the brown liquid is not an inherent element of the clear liquid, we can begin to see how it's only been an assumption that this was the case.

If you can apply this insight to your everyday life, just by simply recognizing the natural purity of awareness as it occurs, with and as all phenomena, no distinction other than via imputation, then you're in an excellent position to make serious progress in your practice.

I don't know how useful this will be to you, but I figure it's worth mentioning since you're inclined towards spiritual and personal development.

Thanks for the excellent report, inspiring stuff!

I like your idea. It goes along with another experience I had not too long ago where I felt that the battle between good and evil is within us. Within our own thoughts, contaminated with negative thoughts that can grow into actions, if we remove these negativities or impurities inside us then we can continue to grow and mature in the pure way that is our whole.

I feel that, our understanding or atleast my own, that I have learned through my travels as a human on this plane of existence, can get in the way of trying to understand the teachings that come to us during hyperspace travel. We try and figure it out, but sometimes the way in which we visualize things are imperfect, and get in the way of truly understanding what certain things mean and how certain things work.

I have only my own understanding to give me the ability to decipher what i see and feel. If my understanding of certain aspects of things are incorrect, that will cause me to understand its workings in the only way I know. This experience ended up leaving me with the thoughts that in this reality we experience what we call evil or negative energy as not its own seperate and individual energy or existence, but as the lack of some or a lot of pure good energy. That negative energy doesnt actually exist, we label what we see and feel as evil but which is only the lack of good.

And that this other place that I feel exists, outside of this reality, only good pure energy exists without a lack of, and that we utilize this existence to grow and learn to appreciate what it is to actually experience pure good all the time, by having to balance between not having complete good energy only.

But i also understand that this may be completely incorrect, for it is based on my meager ability to comprehend the vast knowledge of everything that is.

One thing that made me steer in this certain direction with this particular exp in this thread, water and oil do not mix, you can not have good and evil inside you at the same time. Only good. The lack of enough good can cause you to not be so strong in behaving in the way in which you would if you were pure good. That lack of pure good energy allows us to see how amazing it really is to have such a thing. Then we take that with us back into our original existence.

I dunno. One of those things with DMT. more questions. But I am actually only really focusing on the answers I received. Bad things happen, dont take it so personally its a part of human growth. It is required for all this to work.



Oh man, purty kewl INDEED!

That was awesome..I have a tear in my eye! Not sure if it's out of joy or envy ! What a great report man.. Makes me want to follow suit right now! Would it be rude to ask the in-laws to leave???

As for the good/evil aspect you guys are discussing, and by no means am I religeous, but this seems like a perfect reflection of what the relation between heaven/hell would be like... heaven is all encompassing love, pure and directly from the source... hell, is the absence of "God" and love... so brother, I'd say you had yourself a 100% pure, uncut, bonafied, spiritual experience... no wonder it made such an impact. If I met "God" or it's representative, I'd be a crying, laughing, blubbering mess myself!

Congratu-mother-of-all-that-is-holy-lations! Hope you keep growing, learning and evolvimg your spirit/mind/body!

Very enjoyable read, thank you! I can only imagine how the experience must have been, but I am very happy that it has been useful in your growth.

I hope you have the subscription Spotify as a mate of mine was very bummed when mid-breakthrough a commercial interrupted the Beats Antique



I can certainly relate to your feelings on this. A few of my hyperspace experiences spelled out to me the trickster nature of knowledge. The impurity of assumption that comes naturally with the learning process. Our perceptions are as much guided by our misunderstandings as they our our understandings.

I think it akin to hyperspace experience and daily experiences being different learning styles. Hyperspace experience is an near-instant learning of a small amount of pure energy, or knowledge/wisdom (similar to a video on youtube buffering/playing start->finish). Our meager brains work as a longer non-linear learning process (similar to a torrent download - example download bar). We live lives where we pick from any part of the open field of energy/knowledge and slowly understand the full energy/knowledge. In hyperspace we experience pure energy/knowledge in small portions, perhaps diluted with time(vapor/oral).

You mentioned imperfect visualizations. Are assumptions a natural byproduct of learning? To understand the big picture we must let go our rigid perceptions and allow our imaginations to wander beyond our normal boundaries. Without a direct download we will surely have a chance of our imaginations (or maybe subconscious?) filling in some gaps unknowingly, as seems to be human nature (or at least the human brain's nature at the current stage of growth/evolution). Is perfect visualization ever possible from the start?

We certainly have the power to re-check our knowledge and eliminate assumptions, which is nice... so long as we aren't creating more assumptions. But is that our only option? Re-checking knowledge for impurities and eliminating assumptions? Reminds me of an experience of mine, you can read the poorly written report if interested: knowledge is power; knowledge is weakness (I should probably 'return' to that post at some point). I also wonder the relationship of imagination and assumption.


Always good to have that grain of salt on hand I also experience an immense gratitute towards all the good in my life espe I ally after strong breakthroughs. I like how you said it. We take it back with us into our original existence.

Sure is purty kewl! Congratulations anrchy!