Bonjour ^_^

So, I just took my first journey a few days ago. And of course like the many people before me, when I got back I was f****** astounded to say the least. I was a little disappointed with myself for not following the entities/consciousness/intelligence/elves entirely. They took me for a while but I was ultimately struggling for control throughout a lot of it. It felt amazing as I had womanly type figure soothing me the whole time, however the obvious occurred - I forgot that I did DMT and thought I was dying.

When my ego returned enough I had the overwhelming sense that I had just witnessed the entire truth of the universe. I knew everything. However, I felt that this knowledge was almost too potent for us mere mortals to experience and so we must filter out the vast majority of it on a day-to-day basis.

I would say one of the most intriguing aspects of this compound, from my perspective, would be its ability to show us the hidden, fractal dimensions of the quantum world, dark matter/energy and the one conciousness that underlies all reality.

Perhaps I should also mention that I identify strongly with the message behind Eckhart Tolle's teachings and am trying to integrate presence into my everyday life. Needless to say that my first DMT trip has been playing upon my mind... and it has been a little difficult to integrate the experience into everyday life. Especially seeing so much unconsciousness around me and within myself... after seeing so much beauty.

I could go on & on however I think this is potentially tl;dr especially for an introduction so... in any case I look forward to becoming a member here and delving a little further into this thing with you all. It's nice to be able to connect with like-minded people if you know what I mean?

Bye for now <3 <3 <3

Bon jour neverendingstory,

Thanks for your intro. As you have probably found already, many people here have come to similar thoughts after their first deep experience. The new questions are big and point down towards a rabbit hole exceeding any expectations, and many approaches (Tolle's and others) can be a good way to the most fascinating trip of them all - finding an approach of your own.

Share with us your experiences and ideas... and since you are using Âuryn as your avatar, you might like to see that makes sense to some of us.

And welcome to the Nexus.

..bonjour! neverendingstory.. welcome..
that description of a first time DMT experience was très bon! for both scope and conciseness it's a great description!

hope you enjoy your visits here at the nexus..

Bonjour neverendingstory,

Welcome to the Nexus. Yes, indeed, that first experience was very remininscent of the essence of DMT in my opinion. One piece of advice that works for me - don't try to fight it and don't try to control it. It's always going to be stronger than me so I don't even try. I just surrender and try to return nothing but love, no matter what happens. Even if I am sure I died . . . .we all gotta go someday, right?

You mentioned integration issues . . . . this is something we take very seriously here at the Nexus. There is a very very good section written on this in the Health & Safety Section . . . https://wiki.dmt-nexus.m..._and_Safety#Integration. Actually, I would recommend reading all of that section as well as all of the contents of the links in the upper right hand corner of your forum pages. Invaluable information to be found there.

So, may I ask if you extracted your own DMT?

Also, have you tried many other psychedelics? How do you feel DMT compares.

Again, a very warm welcome to you.