Hello there!

Hmmm, let's go from the start what better place to begin?
So I was born and I grew I walked and I talked and they put lenses on my eyes and I went to school, I was an intelligent kid I liked learning, and I liked video games. As I grew my world changed I got to a certain age and I knew what I was.... Until I realized I had no idea.
Was I a good guy or a bad guy? and who decides?
Where am I going, where have I been.... screw it WHERE AM I NOW?
And so....

I rejected the christian god I was born at a young age, Just like Santa.
I searched to belong, I had few and far between friends.
I found satanism, I found demon worship, and meditation, I found porn and mmorpg's... etc...
But nothing made me happy because What I enjoy doing is learning and what I had been taught in school and at home I soon found to be lies, I kind of gave up on education.
Instead I started to learn what different chemicals did to my body. Worth noting I swore never to touch a ciggerette letting known anything else {with no knowledge of drugs}

I started toking and trying lots of other things, I don't regret doing them because they were fantastic experiences, but I did have many times of hitting "rock bottom" between the ages of 14-19.

I eventually found some real friends about 7 years older than me, they opened my eyes to a much darker world, the conspiracy theorist world. dun dun dun!

But I got my head eventually around it and came to a conclusion, if I send out negativity it creates negativity and If i send out positivity it creates positivity,
You can't end a war you are fighting in.

And I found psychedelics!
So I jumped straight in on my own from the first minor distortion to an intense altered state where I was taught pretty much the meaning of life, and my head exploded and i became a sun. But only for a fraction of time and I was sucked back to earth and into purgatory.

Great and terrifying experiences on psychedlics stopped me from becoming something I really did not want to become.... completely insane and a proper wrong one.

I've recently been able to fogive my thoughts and enjoy life more.

Very recently I met Dimitri and he showed me something great. something different to lucy/sidney, for I could feel dimitri's friend's presence around me.

Have not broken through yet and am fine tuning my tek at the moment.

Currently I am a bit lost, without breaking through I am constantly searching for a tutor, and really would like to go off grid, too many distractions from truth around me.

Looking forward to being a part of this community and would love to answer any questions you have, if any!

Hello shpongloid,

Welcome to the Nexus. That was a very good Introductory Essay - thank you so much for sharing it with us.

Your essay doesn't leave me with many questions other than maybe which entheogens you have tried to date and which one gave you that amazing initial trip?

Also, wondering if you have extracted your own DMT yet?

Please take a good look around - this place is huge. I suspect you may like what you find here. I hope you will choose to participate.

Again, welcome.

Hi Pandora!

Well my first trips was on a high dose Mdma (Giant wonderful butterflies in the sky for a few seconds) and a weak Psilocybin joint trip where me and a girl I know split a dose and at one point we both felt the room get much brighter from the floor upwards.

My first real trip was on 3 tabs of Sidney, was good started at the pub and carried on trip on the bus and when I got home.
Then I tried some stuff called happiness which I think is in the 2c family but can't remember which one, I took a standard intense does and loved it.
Did more of both acid and happiness over some months.
Then the really intense experience I had was on Happiness but instead of it being a weighed 20mg or so capsule it was 2 by eye and so I snorted what seemed like an OK dose but....
That's when all that stuff happened with my head and the universe and purgatory etc...
still loved it really changed me.

Since then I have done more happiness and acid now whilst among others.
Also recently tried a potent wavy cap tea which was intense and fun and mixed with fireworks. (don't worry I wasn't the one lighting them)

Yes I'm just tweaking my extraction very harsh product at the moment, due to Light bulb pipe(with bubbler still harsh) and lighter gas solvent. Will be getting some limonene soon.

Also going to make some Changa as I feel really crack-head-ish when smoking it how I currently do... I know it's not but I'm much more comfortable ripping bongs

Cheers for the welcome I'm gonna go explore the nexus.

Dude, you are awesome.

Welcome to the hood