Hi guys

I'm gonna try ayahuasca in a few weeks. I really want to know
from some of you who have done it, how it changed you.
It would be very interesting to hear some good answers from you


Thanks

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For me the best way to explain it is like, it made everything crystal clear, and not just visually, in every way. It was like my whole life before that had been just a blur, just making some routines inside a thick fog, doing what people tell you to do, never questioning anything. Then, it's like, "hmm what are these psychedelics, let's read some reports.. whoa whoa wait they can do THAT?" At that moment something tiny inside you wakes up and then you get a subtle drive to follow it through and try that experience for yourself.

Once it properly happens (it was ayahuasca for me) it's like BOOM, everything completely changes. You look at everything in a completely different way and you start to question things you always took for granted. And atleast for me, there is crystal clarity about everything now, like hard to describe.. It's like I know exactly what I want from life, because I can never know exactly what I get from life. It's like freedom. Freedom to be an organism and do stuff on a planet. I mean why not? Nothing lasts forever, so buckle your seatbelt Dorothy cause Kansas is going bye bye.

During my first Ayahuasca experience I felt my soul was playing in and out of my body... I felt I could already die. After Ayahuasca I realized I 'm not afraid to die. But I still don't want to.

Good luck =)

Ayahuasca taught me that there is a layer to myself that is far deeper and purer than the mask that people expect me to wear, and that only being that person brings any true happiness.

I also learned that magick is real and that reductionism does not reflect reality as a whole.

Life is sacred.

only did pharmahuasca but since it's close enough I'll reply.

when I took the few doses (maybe 4 or 5 all in all) of pharma that I did over a period of a bit more than half a year, I was at a kind of turning point in my life. First it helped me to identify the things that really bothered me, got me seriously reflecting the fact that I had apparently lost all interest in my life aside from very few things that weren't getting me anywhere.

So I knew things had to change... but how? Should I remain on my current path and try to work it out somehow, or should I change course, and if so, where should I go? Pharma didn't provide me with an answer but it provided me with something far better. A very simple but very needed thing: it told me, have faith in yourself. Trust and follow your inner impulse.

I was still not able to fully follow this advice when I took the final dose and had a very mystical experience, connecting with a ubiquitous presence that taught me how everything I believed I could accomplish for myself and everything I believed I could ever have, was just making me suffer more. That the only things I could ever really possess in this short life time, were the experience of my own consciousness and the consciousness of others occasionally.

This experience greatly helped with a few decisions I had to make then - I abandoned the things that I had originally set out to accomplish because they were making me unhappy and getting me nowhere. I took a leap of faith. I don't regret any of it. Rather I am extremely glad that I took this decision and I feel that it was a spiritual process all in all.

Would I have made the same decisions without the influence of pharma? perhaps. But I think I would have more doubts and fears concerning my choices form material and social-standing aspects without, as well as that I might consider myself a failure for not having accomplished what I originally wanted. However from where I am standing now I feel the real failure would have been to fail to act and to fail to change my life.
Pharmahuasca did not change my life in a physical sense. I did. But pharmahuasca helped me gain insights that facilitated decisions which led me to where I am now. I'm very greatful for this. Admittedly a few other substances were part of the process as well.

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Ayahuasca was a turning point in my life, it helped heal old and very deep wounds that didn't heal like my other wounds but festered and cause much hatred and anger. For this, I need to tell a little backstory about my youth.

I grew up in a dysfunctional family that was ruled by conflict, distrust and fighting. My mother is very paranoid and believes everybody is out to hurt her and as such, everything got interpreted as a personal attack towards her. This lead to her being in conflict with everyone and as children you copy your parent's behavior, so between me and my brothers there was always conflict. Don't get me wrong, I am not blaming my mother for this as her story is a much sadder story than mine, something that pains me but I cannot carry her burden too. I was always fighting with my brothers and parents and they amongst themselves too. I usually withdrew myself from their presence because there was so much negativity.

On top of that I was bullied a lot at school as I had glasses and a whole bunch of warts(37 to be precise) on my hands that didn't go away and I was so afraid of the pain that I didn't want to get them frozen off. It wasn't an exception to get beat up at least twice a week, people used to tell me I looked hideous. I was called the wart king. All the kids ignored me, called me names and didn't want to play with me. Most of my childhood I was unhappy and depressed, I often wished I was never born or that I would die yet struggled with my mortality.

Thanks to Ayahuasca I have made peace with my history. I have gone over all those pains, faced them and dealt accordingly with them. Ayahuasca has taught me to forgive my oldest brother, to whom I hadn't spoken for almost four years. I had broken contact with him because of our history, but Ayahuasca showed me that my hatred of my brother was consuming me and hurting the family ties without bringing any benefits. Ayahuasca gave me the insights and the strength to help me get my family get together and be what we were unable to do when we were younger: be a happy family. We're a long road from being at that point, but we made a step, perhaps two steps in the right direction.

I remember when I was 18 or 19 and I was walking with my girlfriend through town, this kid asked my girlfriend what a beautiful girl like her was doing with such a hideous creature like me. I had no self-esteem nor courage to stand up to this kid, who couldn't have been older than 14 or 15. Ayahuasca showed me that I'm not as hideous looking as everyone used to tell me. During one of my trips I stood in front of the mirror and could see my third eye appear and then my head slowly transformed into a jaguar head. Since that day, when I look in the mirror, I don't see the ugly duckling I was as a kid but the actual me, who doesn't look that bad at all.

Ayahuasca made me relive whole bunch of happy memories from my past, so they would overwrite the bad ones and show me the good times from my youth. It showed me the things that brought me joy, the things that made me forget the hell I was in.

Ayahuasca helped me heal and learn to forgive and more important, it taught me how to truly love myself and others.

edit: I cried tears of joy while writing this. Thank you for offering the space to share this.

Thank you Void for sharing. Beautiful story

You rule<3