Well.

I've dabbled in forums before and found them exceptionally unhelpful but this site seems to promise otherwise.

I have only recently tried my first psychoactive - DMT. About 3 days ago.

I feel with great conviction DMT and psychedelics are the keys to understanding and re-connecting with the planet mankind has rejected and fought over for so long.
A means of getting in touch with where we came from to reclaim our sanity.

I didn't even feel the full blown wake of this magical godsend.
(I used a bloody beer can with holes in it **FACEPALM** ...it was a failure to say the least)
Yet I have found that the way it entranced me (I am extremely enticed to try more when possible) was what I have been searching for all along - a GENUINELY mind altering and mind expanding substance, used to perceive and possibly interact with a world beyond.
To understand and to delve deeper.

I've tried other drugs.
In all honesty, any addiction I've had has derived from an addiction to the individuals I was 'enjoying' them with - more so than the drugs.
And all of the drugs can't compare to the way DMT made me feel.
Ketamine & MDMA make you feel different emotions in an intense way, and maybe sometimes see differently.

DMT - from what I could tell - isn't a drug. It is an experience.

I feel that what I discover and learn on this experience (There will be experimentation with Psilocybin, LSD and others - I find psychedelics extremely fascinating) should be applied somehow, for what is the use of a historian that doesn't use the knowledge he has acquired?

Learning of the past for what reason, you know?

Serving a purpose I feel is essential to the ultimate goal of shaping and changing the world into a better place (which I feel should be everybody's goal in spite of how easy it is these days for people to remain aloof and estranged from the concept of helping other's in a broader more eternal sense).
My idea is that people grossly underestimate the power of the mind and once you do that...

...Well... The results of that paradigm can be seen every where we look - the modern world is quite adjusted and even fond of thinking hallucinations are but mere illusions, that the mind is merely ethereal nonsense to be discarded and used to work the machine of which we all tolerate and despise, a machine owned by people who really aren't thinking in everyone's best interests.

A really obvious and subversive statement is "the mind is where it all begins".
It seems to evade our everyday 'Average Joe''s thought process that something is very wrong with the systems by which mankind exists especially in the First World, the cannibalistic approach that is so common.

My intention is to change all this, & when there is a will there is a way.
Obviously not just through this site.
I just feel that talking with others and expressing myself is an essential component of my desire to improve the quality of the world as well as feedback from others, conversation and input from other people...
& so, I thought to myself, this place must be the place!


...where do I go from here?

Hello EnForme,

Welcome to the Nexus. I really enjoyed reading your Introductory Essay - thank you so much for sharing that with us.

LOL @ your method of administration for your first try . . . I am surprised you achieved any real effects.

Where to go from here? All those links you got in the welcome PM are also in the upper right hand corner of the forum pages - that is a wealth of in-DEPTH information compiled over years. I think you will be pleased.

Please also check out all the subfora, including an entire forum for Preparation and Methods of Administration that you may find to be very helpful.

I see you have already found the chat, LOL - I was going to recommend that also.

Again, a very warm welcome to you.