Since my Pharma experience on the weekend ive been wanting to share some of what i gained from the experience but couldn't find the words to do so, here is a start i suppose and id love it if other people have ideas about the self. after all the sensation of existence itself is a 'phenomenon'
12:52:51 ‹WarriorSage› how do you prepare your Pharma sandz
12:55:58 ‹Sands of Time› lemon juice for citrate, or vitamin c (i have pure powder) then add a little bit more water and drink your harmalas citrate 200-300mg, maybe more if you want an intense experience.
12:56:19 ‹Sands of Time› then anything over 100mg in dmt (which you also convert to citrate, consume half hour after harmalas
12:56:30 ‹endlessness› hey
12:56:33 ‹Sands of Time› i did 90 +70 later
12:57:06 ‹WarriorSage› aahk cool
12:57:08 ‹Sands of Time› lysergic dmtausca frisbee language
12:57:12 ‹Sands of Time› hows it going endless
12:57:35 ‹WarriorSage› hi
12:58:42 * boogerz joins Hyperspace Chat
12:59:03 ‹Sands of Time› i also consumed 3mg LSA approx, with 100mg of "chausca" then by 2 hours after that i had consumed the dmt.very energetic, and awesome mind stimulation, i know so much now, but i just have to use the enthusiasm to do thing to improve my enjoyment of life
12:59:29 ‹Sands of Time› i wastripping on the aya saturday night, it is now monday
13:00:17 * migmag joins Hyperspace Chat
13:00:47 ‹endlessness› awesome, im at travs house
13:00:51 ‹Sands of Time› the wierd sensation is.... i burned up all the visuals.. i got a little bit of visual sensations. but mostly just really wicked thoughts and emotions.
13:01:11 ‹Sands of Time› realised what alchemy of the self realy is
13:01:16 ‹Sands of Time› thought in the form
13:01:31 ‹Sands of Time› as matter, matter is simply thoughtforms
13:01:41 ‹boogerz› lol you guys training endless ?
13:02:16 ‹Sands of Time› such is the fruition of existence i realised my entire being. my true self for the entire time. multiple relisations
13:02:34 ‹endlessness› lol no boogz, im missing it
13:02:45 ‹endlessness› sounds intense Sands of Time,
13:02:46 ‹Sands of Time› i took 150mg and got no visuals
13:02:59 ‹Sands of Time› 300mg+ of harmalas consumed before the session
13:03:15 ‹Sands of Time› it was a freak event. it was a mental atonement
13:03:52 ‹Sands of Time› i just saw it... what alchemy really is about
13:05:30 ‹Sands of Time› we live through our past. its only through our past that we create and live our future, but the past that we are living from is the form of thought (matter) which is the extended limits of the self. one synergises with the material of everything.
13:05:38 ‹Sands of Time› all is within the all yet the all is in all
13:05:52 ‹boogerz› wow sounds like a really good experience sands
13:05:55 ‹Sands of Time› alchemy is also a fractal relationship
13:07:09 ‹Sands of Time› acidity is a phenomenon of complexity. and alkalinity is the pheneomenon of basic form of the fabric. the fabric of time and space. fabric of the self.

edit: just re-reading now and i dont think i actually explained WHY the concept is as meaningful as it is, i mean it was meaningful for me, human emotion was stripped away and it allowed me to experience true purity of self, real silence; but the concept is this:

say i want to build a veggie garden, the thought first occurs as spirit(energy/information) and then precipitates to the form of thought. if this thought is to fruit, to come to fruition like a pungent marijuana bud (building the veggie garden) action must be taken (ie the past[matter] must be engaged) this is also evident in human BO, bacteria (pheromones) fruiting as time passes and material requirements (food) are kept at stock. all awareness (i am you, and you are me) are the same is what i am evidently saying but if that is taken as a value, and you are to think of the 'self' in terms of past actions creating different thought-forms (you are formed by your past, you are formed by your environment/matter) within the mind of the all(self/everything) {matter is just decanting the precipitate of the manifestation of the self}{dissolution of the ego-precipitation of the self}

do you think of physical material as mental past?

If you understand in what way i mean the 'self' its very much like the Alex grey painting with all the eyes and the heads that mould into the landscape. though im describing calculation of mental thought flow as a scientific concept for being. like my true self in a theological sense.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZznUiv1Q5s

YOU CRAZY, JESUS.

crazy is merely a degree of perceived (other sanity) with a concept of negative stigma.
I write my insanity in the hopes that others may share my contentedness with the real silence and truth of this universe.

I like it when John C lilly said: "If you give too much of your insanity, they'll lock you up. Now, I tried to give as much as I could. They didn't lock me up. They published it and paid me." because i like to talk about outsanity, alot of people have a problem with thier own insanity. but i couldnt care less what new creations people have in thier minds, everyone should feel free to think what they like without judgement i think that as a race of people we are so fearful that we neglect tending to the fruits of success in the face of possible failure. leading by example is outsanity, expression of that same insanity in an outwardly way. the truth is that we are all sane. because we are all conscious observers and one with all of creation. I suppose its doing what you enjoy. Always, choose what you enjoy, ask questions about it, do it, rather than trying to enjoy the decisions you make on a frequent minute to minute basis.

DE. Do easy.
I'm very interested in taking action on this, the natural world is part of our consciousness

please share the outburst of laughter with the guy who misses the shot out hunting: http://www.youtube.com/w...h?v=IG4wVAWMZVY#t=12m24s These people are OF THE EARTH, id almost suspect they ARE the earth. they embody every true principle of living life with enjoyment. connection to the truth, connection to what is. i personally would love to learn their lifestyle just for the freedom of mind you would feel by having 1 single obligation: to live. 34:40 is a true example of what i mean. if you have time i seriously recommend watching the whole thing. if we all live 'out of' the earth rather than trying to live into it, then i think we will all have a much more informed perspective of how we can get past our own limits of accepting ourselves. at the same times its a gift, you know. the gift of life, we're living it.

After some slight confusion i found a way to edit pictures into my post, i just uploaded some pictures i drew very recently. the first was before my experience, the other was after.

You are so beautiful man, in every way! I really got what you meant that night, The whole life is the solution and our thoughts are the solids precipitating into material and matter thing. I have been trying to use this and think like this lately. And it relates to my last breakthroug experience where i tipped over, spilt out and and saw my thoughts dissolve in the soulution wich was me and then return to a solid afterwards with an incredible realisation about my self and how so coincidental you think of this and tell me

and its really awesome you put that Yanomami doco on here too.

Sounds like a great experience! Thanks for sharing.

I've had a few trips that alluded to what my thoughts are before they pass through my language (and other) filters and I have great difficulty explaining what exactly I experienced in those trips.

I'm a bit confused on how you propose thoughts are/affect matter. I really like the metaphor you came up with to describe it. Nice report.

dmtahuasca frisbee language!!

I think of it very much like how you attatch emotion, and almost physical feeling to an object.

like burning objects which for you atleast symbolize unfruitful ways to live the life you have come into, have an effect on yourself (past/future selves), someone else wont get a hold of your punk rock satanism notepad (or whatever it is lol)

what im really trying to relate here is the timeless relationship between yourself and 'what is'. ultimately, awareness. and my aya trip just showed me how awareness relates to matter, i suppose thats what we are all doing, relating our awarenesses to matter, to deal with the matter at hand, and to hold onto something that 'matters' to us.

you know in harry potter how tom riddle has them horcrux's left around the place, or how by destroying someones birth certificates and any substantial records people can be made to disappear like they never existed (atleast not to 'the machine'

I have realized this vision. Although not a mistake - insight into what is, as the past, does not reflect present form, coming out of destruction and into life is a more complex agenda than such a 'theory' can ever elude to.

I will say no more on this topic.

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.........