An honest and splendid reply right there, Beelzebozo.

when I returned from Peru this spring I went from months in the Amazon drinking ayahausca in ceremony 3 times a week to the crowded insanity of London overnight. It was more than I could handle after such a life changing series of events and I found myself in panic states multiple times the first few weeks.

I was ultra sensitive to peoples energy and my own scattered emotions. It does happen but will pass.

Kensho,

These experiences can arise from various spiritual practices or even spontaneously. Here is a link to resources for meditators experiencing a spiritual crisis:

http://www.cheetahhouse.org/

eH

p.s. Ignore the comment about danger to those close to you and quantum entanglement. This is superstitious nonsense and may provoke needless fear.

Thank you for your reply in particular, Beezlebozo.

And to everyone else as well.

It feels as if I am normalizing the feeling of abnormalty to some degree, if that makes any sense at all. Difficult material is still coming in big waves, though. Feels as if I am beginning to see my resistance to change for what it is.

I am taking the week off from work and studies to devote myself to introspection. If I feel up for it, I will visit the local zen center on thursday evening, that's when they do their extended sittings.

I will return to let you all know how things are going, but I feel certain that the change is all for the "better". Whatever that means. Probably better to say that the change is taking me closer to "truth". Whatever that means. I don't know. Lol. Perhaps you do.

Lots of gratitude, once again

Take care