Hi guys

I usually don't come and write about my experiences with DMT. I am jsut not good at getting it out in words like some people here.

Anyway, I had been lacking a true "spiritual" experience with vaporizing DMT freebase. I ALWAYS had some kind of technological/alien entity type of experience. Space ships, reptilians with long fingers, you name it, but nothing ever too "spiritual."

Well last night changed that. I loaded ~90-100mg on top of some 10x caapi leaf I had made (All in the bowl of my classic wooden VaporGenie). I meditated, hit it, and awaited the very quick onset. It came on like it normally does. Loud water droplets dropping into water along with vibrating me out of this dimension with a "Hmmmmmmmmmm" type of sound.

The next thing I know, I am in a battle for EVERYTHING. I had no idea why I was in this place, no idea I had smoked DMT or not. I was in some "place" with electrical, tidal waves of energy being pulled at every side of me. STRONG tidal waves of energy. It reminded me A LOT of a strong salvia trip in the way it was yanking me to pieces. However, this was much more DMT-like because it was having me fight and fight and fight for any sense of myself as it was being vibrated or hummed away along with the energy flowing through me. I FINALLY gave up to the power of the DMT, and everything started to LITERALLY rebuild itself before my eyes. As I finally fingured out that I had smoked DMT, and that it was all a DMT-trip, everything became beautiful. It totally rebuilt (geometrically) this reality in front of me after tearing it all away.

I don't really know how to describe it better than that, sorry. But I really needed this experience. I'm sure I have lots more spiritual experiences with DMT ahead, this trip kind of broke the barrier. I was really lacking a "spiritual" experience from vaping DMT freebase, but this was it. Bigger than any other force I've dealt with during my trips. It really gives my an appreciation for THIS reality. Things are "easy" here, so to speak. We aren't fighting for our egos everyday. Things could be much more difficult.

Just thought I'd share.

Peace

woah, thanks for sharing! did it hurt when you gave up trying to hold onto your ego? sounds extremly intense

Wow, i never actually thought that in my trying to find a recognizable focal point in my trips I may actually be desperately clinging to my ego, that being, I am often lost, spinning in data or another realm, and often 'remembering' what I am, at a distance "What am I again...human, yes, but who... you need to remember!"

Next time, i will do my best to completely let go, even of that!

Thank you for passing on this knowledge.

What an amazing report! You were brave to load up 100mgs on top of 10x Caapi. I think I'd be afraid that I might not come back. I know what you mean about getting lost. Today I went in and during the trip when I started remembering myself, I didn't know where I was. I knew I was at home, but I couldn't remember if I was upstairs in bed, downstairs on the sofa, or in some other part of the house. "They" said in words/non-words "It doesn't matter, just be". When I could still myself enough to just be, I kept going up and the DMT world was getting brighter and brighter. It felt like my "3rd Eye Face" was almost against some kind of ceiling and they asked me "Do you want to meet HIM". I giggled a little and said "no". I kind of felt like if I saw HIM, the game might be over. I do want to meet HIM...but not today. LOL