I don't know where to start. I'm fairly new (as a participating member) to forums in general, although I have extensively browsed this forum and many others. I like to observe (pretty much anything and everything), in general, and try to be as aware as possible of everything. I want to help the earth and all it's inhabitants (I feel like it would directly help me, we are all connected) in pretty much every single aspect, because over time interests acquire in pretty much every single aspect, or perhaps love or passion develops. And also the fact that the spiral of love and happiness wants to radiate and in more places. I suppose for example, rather than fearing a spider because there are some that bites, I would rather love it and let it live and appreciate it's life for what it is, it's eight legs arranged in (my opinion) a beautiful way, the web it weaves, it's role in the ecosystem. My close friends know I love butterflies. But then again, I want everyone and everything to be a close friend (I really want to quash negativity). I also ultimately want to end the idea of ownership, I don't like owning, I like sharing. I like having good experiences and sharing them. I don't like bad experiences and do not want to share those. I have a lot of "really crazy" ideas.
I like the "do-it-myself" approach, but I like working with other people better (despite myself suddenly feeling like parts of my younger self soul that was once highly social and an effective, confident communicator has changed rather rapidly into one that suddenly has a hard time communicating at all, even writing this essay is hard for me. It could be because I just fairly recently moved, and I am no longer at a place where others consider me a friend, or where I can have a productive garden. There are people here that come every week as their job and drench the area in herbicide/pesticide. Oh yeah, and I don't have a job yet). Collaboration makes each person many times smarter (in my opinion). When everyones' brains are on, breakthroughs occur.
I love to watch things grow, plants, animals, mushrooms, what have you. I know how to, and have experince doing so. I love to cook, I like to clean, and I love nature. Sometimes it seems like I have a misanthropic view, but that is not how I really feel: I'm disturbed by certain practices and so on, but I generally like people, and most people are quite friendly to me. I'm no chemist (or certified anything at all for that matter, I consider myself an everything, a certified everything, certified by me and whoever is around me), but I like to study and practice. I have experience performing extractions, but I still have yet to develop my own procedures. I like figuring things out.
Recently, I have been (with absolute certainty) out of my body, into the astral realm, lucidly dreaming, and in general, tripping absolute sack all without the use of any psychoactive/entheogenic substance [stone cold sober](at least to my knowledge, unless the food supply has psychoactives in it). That is not to say I have not experienced mushrooms, dmt, tree, lsd, and a whole list of other substances, because I certainly have. And of course I'm interested in spirituality, non-religious. I like freethinkers and freethinking.
I really don't even know how I'm supposed to introduce myself or what to say, just throwing things out here, and I don't want to bore/blind anyone with some wall of text. I also want to bring in new, fresh ideas, rather than redundancy, repeating history (although I suppose it can be important in cases to gain perspective, or empathy. Empathy is super-important. It's certainly worth finding out what exactly the knowledge we all have compounded over the years are). I guess if anyone has questions, I'm down to answer. And I'm sure I can think of more stuff to write later, like maybe I do have some sort of secret knowledge that's new, fresh, not redundant. But I'm not sure yet, I suppose time must elapse, experience must happen.