Hello all who may read this [: I have been delving into the wealth of information from time to time on the Nexus for two or so years now. This led me to discovering the spice leading me to many small scale STB experiences. Throughout this I have experienced much learning both from my own experiences and the experiences of friends and companions. Within the last 4 years of my life I have been so lucky to have had several experiences with Caapi, Mimosa, and Chacruna; among other medicine plants such as San Pedro, several species of sacred fungi, and many experiences with synthetic psychedelics. Through this I have learned a vast amount about myself, the worlds around me and the vastness of infinite space within the spaces between space. This still lies an enormous mystery for me and I have spent a time reflecting on these journeys trying to find the middle path so that I can relate these experiences to the day-to-day and share these learnings with those who tread a similar path.
Recently however I have been pushed back towards the path I was once treading. It came to me in a dream I had in which I was in some kind of Ayahuasca retreat. It has been the most vivid dream I have had in some time seeing as though I don't usually remember my dreams. It involves me and some close friends walking down a river to collect the vine with an Ayahuasca shaman and his apprentice. I saw where there had once been an abundance of caapi, now left though was the dents and marks where the trees had once grown around great vines. These had, I was told, been all taken by others for commercial Ayahuasca use and sale. I was shocked but started to find small pieces of the vine and started to collect them for it sadened me to see something so sacred treated with such little respect. This dream led to the rediscovery of deeply buried emotions. I feel this was somehow related to my desire to become an initiate traditionally to learn the use of medicine plants, and a recent experience with a Caapi, Chacruna and San Pedro brew me and a friend experienced using some ingredients I had been saving for the right moment. Mild as the effects were I feel it has shaken me into a new direction in life. I feel that the Caapi's spirit is still with me. I also feel it is now my duty to try as I can to preserve these medicine plants and delve further into their use as medicine plants, not only for myself. This is what has led me to write this now as I feel there is still a lot of information to be shared with such an in depth and understanding community. I felt that I needed to wait and learn more before making this step as in the past I had gone too far for my teenage delving into shamanic practice which has led to parts of me which never returned from certain journeys. I had been irresponcible with constant psychedelic use as I tried to bend the reality around me so to get to the next level of consciousness.
I feel now though that I am ready for the next steps of the journey. I am about to begin an ethnobotanical garden to preserve these medicine plants and take appropriate steps to learn the ways of use with these plants, so to try to preserve something beautiful that I feel may be slowly bit by bit losing tradition.
I have learned a great lot about myself and some next level experiences by guides I have met in hyperspace who have taught me many things. I have also learned how naive I have been in the past with my uses. I am wishing to expand my knowledge so that I can travel further and bring back more learning into this plane for me and others.
I feel if there is any one thing that open ones eyes it is the Spice, the true key to the door, however walking through at first can be somewhat intimidating (sometimes just downright terrifying the first times) yet I wish to be able to deepen my understanding of this tool. I also hope that others can learn from my experiences.

Well, I guess thats all I have to say here.
Safe journeys

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Great intro, sounds like your headed in the right direction Tripper.

Its normal to have some setbacks and regression. I always assumed, when that happened to me, that that was a sign that integration was not complete before I tried to move deeper into myself.

You have come to the right place for discussing this matter.

Thanks for the intro and good luck on your path.

Welcome,

IH

Welcome aboard Tripper. I think Ice House hit the nail on the head, you certainly have come to the right place.

Peace

Macre