yeeeessss....incredible and ....how to say? TOTALNESS (does this word exist? I don´t know ) Its a real medicine to the one´s soul. All my efforts till this sacred moment have worth!! . It was beautiful and healing. I vap 40 mg. Before that I seek a state of deep meditation.The deeper as I could. I also did some Reiki to my loaded pipe....Before ignite it I made a quik mental chek-list about the vap tek (remenber saying to myself---retain the smoke as much as you can--)and then...just happen. I beguin to feel the same feelings I had in my previous failed attempts ...same sounds (carrier wave?) and same CEV´s ..But then I feel something different , myself floating in a calm sea, with an indescribable sense of onesness. Everything comes very fast and is not easy for me to remember,but now I Know I can improve my trips...I also feel I lose my fear,the fear of the unknown,the fear of open a closed door.Although I've been in the hyperspace twice with 5-meo-DMT (sintetic one) I had the most profound desire of breakthrough on DMT,because I consider Spice to be more natural ,a gift from this beautiful world.After the coming down I feel in my soul and in my body a glorius sense of bless. I don´t regret,in fact I´m proud, to be in this path that life has show me . Thanks all of you Nexians, because you were and are an important part of these sublime experiences,I couldn't reach much of this without your help. Today,I began to wake-up. Cheers!!


I gona post a template bioassays report later

I think is a matter of lose the fear and let it go....in some way it remember me the day I learned to ride a bike...once you lose the fear anything is possible,....
...in one moment I was shaking and the next riding my new bicycle!

Dose is also important.I think is a matter of experimentation to find yours. And I think that meditation is another key, try to reach the launch with your mind as calm as possible,it makes the difference.

Been two days since my first visit to Divinity( or hyperspace,or Zero Point Field or whatever you want to call it) and even my happiness persists, think more clearly and feel more connected to everything,,,,
Good luck friend...Keep in touch

BTL - I'm curious as to why you dont' think you've ever broken through? What criteria are you attaching to a "break thru" that you don't think you've met?

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Its great to hear of your success! Even after many, many breakthroughs I can say for me there is still pre-launch anxiety and trips that sometimes seem to fail while other ones are fantastic and perfect, then the next time perhaps very dark and shockingly scary! I never know what to expect but I have noticed that being careful to focus on only good things in the hours previous to launch helps a lot.

thanks for your kindness,Mad_Banshee. I´m here ( in life and in Nexus ) to learn,so your words are very usefull to me ....