I'm ok demented.
lol.
I was smoking a sage/dmt changa I made and somehow I just kept smoking. I went to hyperspace and every time I came back I kept smoking.
I got the distinct feeling that I was god, and that god was born and died again in every second that passes, because time doesn't really exist. Nothing exists.
It was odd, I spent 45 minutes recording a message for the traveler as god before I eventually got sick and died.
It was strange enough that two days ago I experienced my own death on some level while doing my irresponsible and selfish low dose for hours thing.
That's part of the reason I found myself to be selfish, I was smoking up all the dmt.
So first I got the feeling that death doesn't exist, and that god is a part of me.
Then I get the feeling that I am god reborn, in one of his short and fleeting life cycles, trying to explain the point to everything before I died again.
I might post that stuff. but it's seriously odd, and really I don't want people to think I'm just some fake weirdo trying to create a new religion.
I don't really know if it was real or not. That's what sucks. I had this vivid experience, and I don't know if it was real.
It's really really difficult.
Death is an awakening. . . One day it will come.
But you'll search the skies with your eyes in frantic wonder.
You will come to realize the lies you've told yourself for so long to survive.
"We fear something that does not exist."
Not only does death not exist, we ourselves do not exist.