So, I have been in an odd depression for a few days. I've had inner battles with my stance in life in general. I don't know what’s wrong, Just an empty feeling.
I've been trying to do it for an entire month, and finally had the guts to do it. Not my first but my 6th time. Still can't get used to it, and I respect it dearly. My girlfriend and good close friend didn't want to experience it again since they wanted to wait, so that kind of put me off mentally of doing it. If they can wait, so can I. That was my mentally up until I felt I have waited long enough.
I knew it would help me with my depression, if I could do it correctly. I wasn’t planning on doing it today, but after I lounged around all day I said fuck it.
I took a hour to clean up the house, Which is a ritual for me before I do a psychedelic. I took a nice long warm shower, another ritual. I than got some loose clothing, meditated until my heart stopped popping thru my chest from the anxiety of doing nn-DMT. I was proclaiming in my head while i mediated what I wanted to see, and thinking of images that make me happy. My mother being happy, my father being happy, and what if they could actually be happy together and still married.
I than went for it, Now this is the tricky part. You need to tickle the bowl of oil burner pipe, so it doesn’t waste the nn-DMT, Some people just leave it directly under the spice and it’s just burns. Well I waited until the chamber filled and inhaled.
The veil of reality started to drape off, I started to see warping, and the CEV’s were oncoming slowly, So I laid back, and my eyes start to just naturally twitch, almost as if you were squinting but with my eyes closed. The body high reached its peak after 4 seconds of inhalation I than closed my eyes and enjoyed the trip. I was falling thru a staircase, up and down and sideways, it was a staircase made of different dimension, and I was there with my empty feeling, until I felt it presence. Finally it’s been a while since I got to meet an entity, and this changed my entire outlook. He (mostly felt male, I’ve met females and they are just full of compassion) was there guiding me, protecting me, over me. This went thru for a little longer. I opened my eyes, and just felt happy it all went well.
Tldr: Depressed, Did nnDMT in an oil burner pipe, saw an entity, went thru different dimensions, came back better and happier. (Tickle the flame under the oil burner is the trick, Not to leave it directly. I didn’t use a torch but a Bic lighter. )