On a whim last night I decided to dose some pharmahuasca.

11:00pm Drank 230mg mixed harmalas hcl, mixed with orange juice. yuk

I made coffee for my wife while she was taking a shower. She had to get up early for work the next day, so she hit the hay around 11:20. Time to get twisted.

11:30 Drank 120mgs freebase DMT mixed w/ oj.

I was expecting a sedated trip. Hoping to slip into sleep and have profound dreams, I layed down on the couch and turned on a movie (The Abyss). I could barely keep my eyes open during 1st few minutes. I turned the volume down super low and closed my eyes.
I could feel the DMT slipping into my mind and body. Very slowly it kept ramping up, step by step, closer to that breakthrough feeling. At this point I felt a strange pressure inside my ears, like a humming so loud I couldn't hear it. But, I could feel the vibrations on my ear drums. I knew this was going to be a powerful experience. Before I opened my eyes I thought I could feel warm fluid flowing from my ears.
I opened my eyes and The Abyss was still playing. All the characters were geometric shapes, like I was looking at them thru a bright kaleidoscope. The brightness of the tv was unnerving, so I fumbled with the remote and was barely able to figure out how to hit the off button. Ahhhh peace at last.

11:40
So, I lay back down on the couch and closed my eyes. I'm feeling the DMT rush like I'm slipping into hyperspace. Inside my mind, I arrive inside a very bright room with yellow and red fractal walls. The walls are moving as the fractals meld in and out of each other. Something is there with me and its trying to show me more. Trying to lead me to another place. I hear something and open my eyes. The bright room dissapears and I'm inside my living room laying on the couch. The pressure in my ears starts to fade, until its just a slight ringing. I'm dumbfounded that the pharama is hitting so hard. I'm 15mins into this trip and frying harder than I ever have. I start breathing exercises to try to keep it together. I feel like I'm fighting it because its so strong. I tell myself to stop resisting and just go with it.

11:47
Time is going so slow and its hard to even read the clock face. The numbers look egyptian to me. At this point I'm tip toeing around the house trying not to wake the wife. Everything I see is pure psychedelic. Every object is outlined with fuzzy purple and yellow lines. The lines vibrate together and twist in and out of eachother. The CEV's are amazing colorfull geometry. Everything is in motion and vibrating. I've never been so high in my life. Total jaw dropping visuals. I feel the DMT ramping up again, so I go into my office and sit in the chair.

12:00 to 12:45
Restless and frying balls. I sit in the chair for a bit, then stand and stretch, then sit in the chair again. My arms are waving around trying to fan air onto my body and face. I'm getting super paranoid that my wife will wake up and see me like this (totally zoonked). I think I'm making noises (walking around, spinning in the chair, breathing, stretching), but I can't hear anything. The ringing in my ears is a distraction. I get naked and roam around the room for awhile. Then I feel a massive rummble in my guts. Good ol' harmalas knocking on the backdoor. I go to the bathroom and turn on the light.
The brightness slaps me across the face. The marble tile, fixtures, the walls are all breathing and glowing. Theres no sharp edges on anything. Everything looks like it was rendered with a computer back in the early 90's. Concentrated evil is blowing out of my ass, although when I look down, all I see is darkness. Flush, lights off and back into the office to trip out.

1:20
The DMT hits on and off. I'll get my shit together for a second, then I'll get lost in my mind again. It starts to wear on me a bit. I'm frying so hard that sometimes I can't even see whats in front of me. I feel the typtamine confusion sinking into me. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm walking around the house trying to be super quite. I go outside for a bit, but theres too many distractions and I can't really see whats going on. This continues for the next 1 1/2hrs. Roaming around restless. Sitting, laying, stretching, breathing. Trying to enjoy this experience. Trying to remember how I got here and why. I wrote 23-12 on our message board earlier so I'd remember I took 230mg harmalas and 120mgs DMT. I notice I can read again and I can see again.

2:47
The trip is slowing down and the OEV's/CEV's are fading away. I scan the house looking for any evidence of this massive trip. I find a pair of construction sunglasses on top of the fridge (I think I was wearing them earlier when I couldn't see....duh). Everything else is in order and its time to wind down. I lay down and fall in and out of sleep for the next two hours.

4:47
I go to bed with the wife. Kiss her goodbye when she wakes up and go back to sleep.


By far and away the most intense psychedelic experience of my life. Totally fried balls and lost touch with this world over and over again. I have even more respect for these substances. It was not fun, it was profound. I was glad to be alone, I couldn't imagine trying to interact with another person when your that high. This is going to take awhile to fully integrate.

Pharma can be hit or miss for so many. I'm very glad you had a profound experience!

Amazing stuff.

On a good dose like this interacting with a person often keeps you on target. You don't drift quite as far out there.

Excellent report! I'll be giving pharma a go soon and keep all of this in mind. Thanks for sharing!

Great report brother!
Sounds like you had a good one. Thanks for sharing.

it sounds like your monkey lost his bananas but found comfort in remembering he simply had eaten them

breathing is good, people can keep you linear or spin you, depends on their set/sobriety/personality



ive yet to have a true pharma experience, soon though

Wow, thanks for sharing your experience, "Bezerker". Since I am planning to embark on my first Pharma-journey soon, I will make sure to start much lower...

so jealous....that is amazing

150 mg next time

Nice report,

Just a suggestion...next time RELAX MORE and lie in the darkness with your eyes closed and let yourself become immersed in the CEV's instead of allowing yourself to become so restless and what not.

Awesome report! Very inspiring

Thanks for the post. Had a bit of a laugh too. I can absolutely relate to being so worried about waking my wife. Every creak of the floor, every door that I close, the purge.
Have to agree with some other posters, when I get super agitated lie down and relax. Found what works for me if I'm taking a strong dose, before you start, spend time meditating and reinforcing the action plan if shit turns south or start to panic. Props man, that's not a small dose. Thanks for sharing

"I'm tip toeing around the house trying not to wake the wife." I love this

(EDIT: I just HAD to add it here: https://www.dmt-nexus.me...m=378818&#post378818)

Good advice though I forget and can end up with a trip of constant restlessness, unless its ayahuasca, even then it can happen. The last year or so any high dose of anything this is what would usually happen and I was doing different things, rc's mushrooms aya. ill try to remember that, I remember even thinking that then it would be overridden by going to do god knows what, maybe its lack of discipline, probably, im a lazy git except when ive got loads of energy tripping bounding from one room to another lol oh and good report bezerker I can identify!

Wonderful report. Loved the organization and the details. Perhaps some favorite music would have reduced the restlessness and given you a focal point for the guarantee of the passage of time.

What is it with the on-off-on-off psychedelia of pharmahuasca? That, and the tinnitus, and "DMT music" as I like to call it, the "weeeee-oooooh, weeeee-oooooh" seem so commonly experienced. I've noticed that a simple re-positioning in bed while tripping can intensify the experience when it is seemingly fading.

Man, you've made me want to prepare another pill-huasca and take it at night. I love waking up at 2 or 3 am and dropping a pill containing 250 or so mg of B. caapi extracted harmalas with around 60 or so mg of freebase. If things go south, the dawn always seems to bring the promise of everything being "OK" once again.

Anyway....outstanding and inspiring report. Thanks for taking the time to write it.

N.B.

I think when we use ayahuasca or parmahuasca, the set is very important and also make a diet a few days before...this is the diet that i follow:

Compulsory for ceremonies (between 7 and 10 days ago):
- Abstain from sex (all kinds!).
- No alcohol, no drugs, no smoking marijuana or taking other sacred plants. Snuff Smoking OK, but the real best: mapacho (Avoid if possible manufactured cigarettes).
- Do not eat red meat (pork, beef, etc..).
- Do not eat spicy.
- Do not eat salt or sugar (or eating very little)
- Make a light diet and natural (avoiding seasonings, soy sauce, fried, canned, preservatives, chemicals and fermented products, it is also advisable to avoid dairy, or eat very little)
- You can eat chicken but either field or organic. You can also eat fish but it river, toothless, scaly (eg mackerel, shad, etc..).
  It is also necessary to maintain this diet for the 48 hours after the ceremony.
Additional Compulsory for the day of the meeting:
- Get plenty of rest, avoid stress and energy losses.
- Make a total fast before 7 hs


In an other hand...
I like to do with a couch in the flore, total dakness, some candles, and icaros to hear, and burn some palo santo or copal... smoke mapacho also is very usefull.

Is the traditional way and for me .. the best..

wickid dude this report was really inspiring

Sounds like quite a relatively light experience to me. In traditional ayahuasca sessions people usually sit still or lie down and go into it. If it is strong, then you will not be able to move, nor really feel like moving.

well it sounded like for him personally it was very intense and I guess thats all that matters