It's true that it wont last too long, and that has been an anchor for me to not let myself terribly freak out when I feel the terror. But, for another friend of mine who I explained to that if you feel the fear, remember it will be over shortly, as soon as he entered hyperspace, he no longer believed me that it would be over shortly, and he lost touch with this reality extremely, and he had an experience of dying, and having to accept it.
What I'm saying is, a dmt trip may be 10 minutes on earth, but in your brain, that could be forever. All that been said though, my friend was not turned off from dmt after having died from it. He then was extremely enthusiastic about it, as it was the most profound experience of his life, and he got to experience death before dying on earth. He has now spread the dmt to many of his friends so they can experience what he did. I gave it to him because he had an addictive drug seeking behavior. He told me, "I just want to try drugs until I find the right one for me." I told him that he should stop doing cocaine with his friends, because it was starting to become a habit, and he used to say, I only do it socially, but I feared that this would soon end, or that he would make this "social" activity of railing coke a daily occurrence.
I told him that he should try DMT, because I imagined that the experience that ensued would be followed by industrial sized insight on himself. It worked.
So he experienced that terror, and it was good for him.
I also have had the experience of dying, and it was the most terrifying thing I have ever been through, but it didn't last the whole trip, it was only for the first 20 minutes or so of pharmahuasca. I also became scared of the terror, and the fear of it lasted a good 8 or 9 months. But what it feels like now, reflecting on it all, is like I went through a dramatic life in another dimension, lived from beginning to end, and it was not embracing this fear that led me to realize, I still have much growing up to do. I have too many dualistic properties to me. I like many things, and I dislike many things. I want certain things, and I don't want certain things (like extreme terror), but I feel like the extreme terror only overcame me because I could not embrace the idea of it. I couldn't say, go ahead, take me away. I had to say, NO! LEAVE ME BE! I DONT LIKE IT WHEN YOU KILL ME! But that's the entire reason I entered that space in the first place, to expand my horizons. And when you can finally say, go ahead, do what you will, then you are a truly enlightened soul.
What I enjoy will always perish. What I dislike will always be present. What I want will always evade me, and what I reject will always find me. So if I cast away the grip I hold on what I think makes me happy, and at the same time, cast away the idea of rejecting the bad, then there is no ego struggle, and my being simply is. I have found this space in me once, when I was very young. I have not stopped searching for it since, and I will continue to search until I find it again.
I understand you being scared of what is to come, I am too, but that's why I do it, because I want that fear to perish. My fears blind me from what power I really retain in my soul. Life is not hard, my dualistic thoughts say it is, but my soul disagrees, and it says that life is beautiful, and I need to let it unfold as it may, because it is perfect.