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jonyshin
#1 Posted : 7/22/2012 9:47:47 AM

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I've read much on the subject matter of psychedelics as a guide to a spiritual awakening, and I believe I've always gotten slightly game-influenced answers from people who are biased to value the amount of time or dedication they have devoted to their spirituality and might poo-poo the idea of unleashing it yourself. I've only read different opinions from this site, the three published books I've read so far (DMT the spirit molecule, the psychedelic experience by timothy Leary, and inner paths to outer space ) and the Shroomery, but in the end I always find conflicting beliefs, but never much backing up the answers.
My experience is that I am new to psychedelics, having only used mushrooms for the first time about 4 months ago, and DMT one month ago, yet I knew on the first morning I awoke from a shroom dose that I was a different person, and that this was an important journey for me. Through humbling shroom doses I worked my way up in my conciousness until the point where I was 'ready' for a DMT experience. Funny thing, I don't know anyone who said they were actually ready for DMT. Going into the DMT experience, all I had was my memory of the faint shimmers of hope that shrooms left in their wake as time took its toll. I vaporized spice over and over and over from a machine, but to no avail: Every time the vapor filled my lungs I lost contact and connection to the pursuit of inhaling more, I believe many are common with this. The second day, I was able to make sense of the strange experiences and tack together a strategy to enter hyperspace, by holding everything in my body centered, maintaining perfect posture, and allowing my mind to enter the situation with the smoking as a natural occurance, and my body only a bystandard. This worked for me as I felt my reality melt away and inhaled 3 tokes. Unfortunately(or fortunately?) I still did not reach a breakthrough dose. I was born a cesarean section and think that might be a reason that it has taken me so much to get effects, considering I vaped spice with a friend once and I remember him having a much stronger reaction to the substance.
The experience itself is an incredible enigma in my life, and yet has changed my psyche, as well as my behavior in such a drastic way. So many things in my life that were rarely if EVER psychedelic are psychedelic for me! Dreams, smoking weed, sitting in the dark, going on a bike ride, etc. are all incredibly different experiences for me since I had a taste of hyperspace. Not only do I think incredibly freely, but my actions now have become a thing of wonder. I no longer think about things before I do them, but instead simply do, and it changes how people view me x10. I have visited Spain every year in my life, yet don't speak a word of Spanish, yet after this summer, I have become so improved that my relatives are beyond belief. I attribute all of my gains to the claims that our bodies retain the instructions to do anything that has been done by others in our DNA. After reading the Psychedelic Experience, by Timothy Leary, based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead, I have found myself progressing and experiencing symptoms incredibly similar to what it speaks of. I have hallucinations in my daily life on occasion, and they always have an interesting meaning to me that helps me improve my life. I know these hallucinations are figments of my imagination, and I still retain that I am completely 100% sane, but to live life knowing that everything has a purpose takes something powerful. My spirituality is so strong now that I see things in very archetypal fashions much of the time! I know this is all the responsibility of the DMT, but can't explain how. I barely remember much of the DMT experience besides a few presumed entities, yet sometimes(especially when I smoke weed) I can have beautiful flashbacks by looking at the trees and I remember everything I forgot. My subconscious seems to have been feeding my the lessons of my experience over the past month, day after day, and through learning and thinking and meditating, I feel like I have reached a state of enlightenment. I do not claim ultimate enlightenment, but I feel as though I live in perfect acceptance now, and I constantly notice the paradoxes in human behavior, the silly negative beliefs that tie people down, and most disturbingly, how people are more and more capable of hurting themselves the more you try to help them! Faith is a powerful thing, and I respect a faithfully religious lifestyle much, much more, now that I have experienced life with a purpose.

Sorry if I'm a bit all over the place, I'm interested if anyone else has had this type of an experience and what they might think about this type of spiritual awakening, and it's importance. I get this weird feeling sometimes that I've tasted something of what the greatest people in history were eating.
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Macavity224
#2 Posted : 7/22/2012 1:01:27 PM

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I have never had the opportunity to use DMT, but I have had similar experiences to you with Psilocybin mushrooms. All the way from the first dose of 3.5 grams to my recent quarter ounce adventure, I always learn something of value or my altered perspective helps me see things in a different life. Even if I exit a trip immediately with a sense of disappointment for achieving some sort of "spiritual enlightenment," the after effects last a few days; it's almost as if the trip is taking place in slow motion.

I have realized how ridiculous the world is, primarily in the sense of consumerism and self actualization. Instead of treating life like a game, slowly accumulating crap to one-up others in the hopes of a bloated ego. But a hard enough trip will show you that your ego and your personality really mean nothing - in fact they're a complete figment of your imagination, as, with much meditation, I have been able to "let go" for at least a very limited amount of time.

In short, Psilocybin changed my life. My first trip brought me out of a complete abyss of despair into a beautiful world that I had never seen through my own eyes before. While I still have many psychiatric problems, I have gained the ability to deal with them through the power of my own mind instead of sedating myself on pharmaceuticals while avoiding my actual problems.

I hope DMT allows me to delve even deeper and discover more.
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