i am not sure how to begin this or even why i am. i am very timid as a capricorn, but very thorough and parsimonious. i don't try new experiences like sharing in a forum very often and i feel a sort of block, or hesitance, but i will try anyways. i'm not sure if this is a mini-autobiography and people will get tired of reading what i write, or if it's too much, but i guess i'll try? i feel like i need a community of people who understand what i've been experiencing and this is the closest i've gotten.

i have been an avid psychedelic user for a couple years now, my first experience being LSD and shortly after my second being an end-all borderline ignorant dose of vaporized 5-MEO-DMT when in all honesty i had no idea what i was bargaining for. i experienced total ego-death and out of body hallucination, shortly before being snapped back into my body and face-to-face with one of the not so sentient entities. i don't believe it was a jester or a sprite, but more of one of the 'god' entities. it was a very traumatic and moving experience, after which i spent 45 minutes shrieking and crying. in retrospect i wouldn't classify it as a negative experience, but instead a life-changing one, as i smoked this a couple weeks before joining the military. a month into basic, i was too far removed from where i had been before i signed the contract and i gave up and quit. this spun me into a hard amphetamine addiction and an admittedly ignorant cavalier expedition into using psychedelics (hard ones and benign ones) very frequently and in large amounts.

the third time i ever took dmt i vaporized what i think was n,n-dmt, i closed my eyes and was transported to this omniscient golden room. there was a tablet in front of me and it had the most vivid heiroglyphics and strange symbols, and they were rotating in circles. there were symbols too, like i saw a set of justice scales, and there all sorts of things i couldn't understand. and the inside of the golden room reminded me of tool's 10,000 days artwork, i had a sense of 'what am i supposed to be learning?' and felt like i was in a hurry, and couldn't grasp it, then it ended.

the other day, after i've now smoked DMT many times, i had a vision where i closed my eyes and there was an entity, and he had a turban on and he was smiling and showing me these things, and it seemed like he was moving trays around, or like tablets or something. then it shot to videos of myself in my head walking around at work with safety glasses on, then it cut back to the entity smiling and laughing in the turban. very confusing, but VERY exhilarating.

what i've experienced is an incredibly profound influx of new spiritual knowledge and a complete turn-around of my life. i've recently extracted my own very pure dmt using Q21Q21's tek (which i think i have done very well) and have been learning to grow through it, and to respect it. my life has strangely become different: my habits are different and methodical, i am happier on average, i do not feel the urge to drink heavily anymore, or smoke cannabis heavily. in fact, i have become complacent with relative sobriety. but the more i use dmt the more i realize that i don't really understand HOW it is doing what it is doing for me, and it is very liberating but also very confusing :/

all of these are good things, and i believe DMT is an amazing compound. i am very happy and thankful for this community, i have been an anonymous peruser for many months now.

i'm not sure how to end this so :/

Welcome to the Nexus!

An intro essay is never boring if its a genuine insight into someone's life, like yours was

Im glad you have changed your life and habbits for the better!

Do you consider taking DMT orally/ayahuasca too?

Whats your smoking method?

See you around!

Welcome to the nexus! I'm glad the spice has been treating you well I enjoyed the read, look forward to more of your posts

thank you guys for your replies, my smoking method has almost always been vaporization but lately i've found that i can reach breakthrough using a small bong and parsley. i don't have any issues with that method and find that it's easier and tastier than vaping, although i don't undermine the value of vaping.

i would love to try pharma, and i tried to the other night, but i had a very bad MAOI reaction to rue tea and had to go to the hospital before i even got the DMT in me!

the nurse says i can never drink the tea again and i don't think i will, i will probably try a harmala extraction on rue and take it sublingually or orally, but i learned to respect rue the hard way and will never drink that god-awful tea ever again.

Very well written intro! Thank you for sharing. It looks like you are already off to a great start on your DMT journey. Please feel free to shre your experiences and lessons learned while working with this wonderful molecule.

We look forward to hearing more from you.

IH

thank you for reading, i feel blessed that i've had so many positive experiences with Demetri. i understand that he doesn't rub everyone the right way always

By the sounds of it, the experiences your describing have had immense value to your deepest recesses including your everyday life. Seems to be alot of positivity!

Keep up the solid work!

Why did you have a bad reaction with rue? What kind of bad reaction? Are you currently taking any medication? What did you eat prior to ingesting it?

What vaporization method were you using for DMT ?

actually believe it or not, I fasted before the rue tea so I could avoid all reactions. My heartbeat was jacked up, my blood pressure was rising, I was throwing up violently and was so dizzy I could barely stand. I went to the hospital out of panic, and admittedly it was the most useless hospital visit I've ever had. I could have weathered it at home but I was twitching in uncontrollably and I didn't feel safe so I went, and was discharged two hours later.

I use a bubble when I vaporize, a standard stem and bubble. But I'm thinking about investing in a Sherlock gvg

How much rue did you take?

So you dont take any medication?

Sherlock gvg is highly recommended

i boiled 28g of rue in lemon juice and water, and drank 300ml of the solution, mixed with fruit juice and sprite. no, i don't take medication, i am in good health and always have been.

and yeah, i just need to find the spot in my budget and i think i'll get the sherlock. but i was also wondering, if i get the gvg bat, could that be used as a slide in my small bong? because i hear if you use it like a one-hitter it can get hot on the lips or the spice can fall out. but if i could rig it as a slide, neither of those issues would apply and it would be a sweet buy, wouldn't it?

Holy mary, 28g?!?!?!

Dude, thats like nearly 10x the normal dosage, thats why you had a hard time. Check FAQ for dosages, brewing methods, etc.

i read a rue tea tek on erowid :/ i guess i was led astray. i won't stray from the nexus ever again!

but did you read what i asked about the gvg bat?