So...I did DMT for my second time Sunday. The first time a couple weeks ago I vaped 20mg so decided to go with 25 this time. The first dose didn't vape right so I mostly saw a lot of patterns and a dragon floating around (it looked like a Chinese dragon). It was really cool, but not what I was looking for.

The second dose I took about 15 mins later was absolutely mind blowing. I took another 25mgs. Immediately before I even blew out my hit I was transporting. I laid down and closed my eyes.

First the crazy patterns and colors started. All the sudden I felt like I was looking at everything through a fish net stocking, like it was pulled over my head. The feeling was more intense that anything I have ever experienced. Next, I was traveling down a long, colorful hallway into an old fashioned train car or as I call it a dinner train. At the same time I was being caressed over my entire body by several female entities. They were soothing and trying to tell me it was OK.

Suddenly two entities came into my vision. It was a female and a male. They were sitting together at a table on the train. The female was dressed in traditional 20's to 30's hollywood style clothing. Dressed up in a fancy dress and hat with beads. It was a dark blue hat and she had black hair. She was beautiful. I knew there was a handsome man sitting next to her and they were a "couple" but he was very blurry to me, not as clear.

The female was smiling at me the whole time and telling me it was Ok and to come in and join them. All the while, I'm still being caressed by the other female entities which I cannot see but I can feel them.

At this time I started to panic. I was freaking myself out saying "You f#@*ed up! You're never going to go back to normal again!". I got extremely hot and felt like my entire body was wet. I was still partially in but trying to pull myself out.

As I was leaving I went through several colorful tunnels. They kept changing shapes and colors.

I am so upset I freaked and brought myself back. I was still pretty messed up as I brought myself back too soon. I laid on my bed and started trying to explain to my bf what I had seen and was still seeing pattens and colors as I spoke since I couldn't yet open my eyes for long.

Needless to say I think I'm going to take a little break to think about why I freaked and analyze everything. I want to be able to go all the way in. I don't get scared at all before dosing like a lot of people do so this took me by surprise.

All in all it was amazing but at the same time a big disappointment and only myself to blame.

(My humble opinion)
Don´t be upset too much, and don´t blame yourself too much...

I think it is quite common to freak out during/after one´s first break through... I can remember myself after my first breakthrough: "This was a big mistake...I will never fuc%_!? do this again!" (and of course I did... :-)

Yes, DMT experience can be very intense, but give it some time, don´t force too much meaning onto it.

Thank you Michal_R for your kind words. Yes, as soon as I came out I said I'm done for a while....don't think it will last though

It's hard to not be hard on myself. I guess I'm disappointed that I freaked myself out. It was really shocking since like I said I don't get nervous before dosing.

I'm sure I will do it again. I definitely need to not force so much meaning into it. Stop analyzing everything...lol.