Honestly, as much as clinical data has proven these substances to be useful enough to not fit in the scheduled categories we've filed them away too, I don't think PTSD is relevant to the average MDMA user IME.
Or should we be using electroconvulsive therapy instead, because I can legally rewire a toaster to provide that charge?... although I'm no electrician. That said though I've heard of folk with severe depression doing far more crass activities with toasters.
The trick is to only use a toaster in such a way under the supervision of a toaster expert.
This is the pitfall in recreational drug use (out of the metaphor
). It's essential that you are mindful of how far things are going which is why intentions are so important, no matter what substance you are using.
This is just my experience so I'm not assuming parallels here.
When I first discover'd MDMA, I did so through a group of party people who could easily clear 1g per head in a night. Obviously under this influence I was way overshooting the sweet spot of the substance and frequently redosing as the night went on. I lost a lot of my sensitivity in doing this and no longer knew what I was looking for other than to be noticably under the influence of some effect.
Anyway I kind of had an off on relationship that went something like that for 2 years or so, then got back to classic psychedelics. What I like about these guys is they have a way of keeping most people in check. Some go a little too far before being checked, but I believe these to be minority cases. MDMA seems to lack that mechanism to the same extent. It is there somewhere, but its extremely numbed out. But when it is used in such a way, long term effects can become very noticeable - Mood, memory, concentration etc.
When I finally tried MDMA again, first of all I had my own personal scales (nice!) and secondly I had a much better idea of the potential of the substance. In this second phase of the MDMA thing I'd indulge maybe 2x a year with a close friend. Call me a sinic, but I now look back on the days of sharing the experience with less familiar folk to be nights of lies with big ideas with little dedication after the substance faded. We really were gonna fix that van, not a mechanic among us, no idea if it had an engine or indeed if anyone owned it... it was just there. Also the amount of times I met someone in the street who seemed like such a close friend nights previously and felt, well... awkward if anything... All very false I guess is what I'm saying.
Long term I was getting nothing from it and to this day I'm not in touch with a single member of any of the people from back then.
When I use the substance with a close friend however... well on one hand you have sex with strangers and on the other side there sits a lover. The loving relationship can be further reinforced by these experiences in the peak of which a bond can feel near spiritual bliss. The real journey comes in building the relationship first and all experiences you share are just steps you take on the way.
Sky Motion, I'm rambling a bit here but I guess I'm wondering how you feel your relationship with MDMA is.
How did it begin?
Where did it take you?
Where are you now?