Hi,
My name is George and am 24 years old. My first experience with class A drugs was when i was 15. My first line was in czech where we have extremely powerfull drug called Pervitin!!!! Efedrin is connected with it somehow as well. Pervitin is extremely strong speed and you only need tiny line to by extremely high for 5-15 hours plus most of people cannot sleep or eat for days 2-3. Ithink that when i started i only couldnt get enough of it... But i only needed littlebit. so i was snorting this for about two years .

Lets say twice a week. I was never addicted i think. However i smoke marijuana for about 9 years and i am strongly addicted to it!!! Which is bad!!! But i want to talk about other drugs. When i was 18 i moved to usa and when i was fresh 19 i moved to england. I must say that since i was 15 untill i was 18 i tryed other drugs as well ... Quite alot of them. LSD,extasy,mdma, mushrooms, some pills as well ... But mostly we were doing pervitin. Because its just THE drug. Since i live in england i tried some new things- DMT, heroin , kokaine , subotex, morphine, morphine sulphate, hawaian woodrose, salvia , lots of diferent extasys...and maybe some more stuff... But the problem is that in england .... Or in brighton... Or in my case ... I must say that the drugs here are of very poor quality. Even though other people get high with them. I dont. Lsd when is good works very good. Only i never had halucinations-even with extreme doses of mushrooms or dmt. Never had extreme dose of lsd.extreme-more than 4 trips. Extasys i had in england - never less than 3 at once.... Usually 3-6 at once-stay high about 60mins. mdma - i usually eat 1/3 of gram for one use ... Grinded(crystals) and atay high for about 90mins.

mushrooms are mushrooms. Dmt is weird. ...i have a problem somehow inside my head that wherever i use some new drug i have the need totry to control it even when it is about let it control you.(childhood issues i guess) so dmt is very strong. But no halucinations . Just messed up everything- cant really think or anything trying to get control automaticly . If anyone can help with that wouldo benice ....heroin is probably currently my favorite drug even though i cannot get it anymore- dont know where-heroin feels great. But it is not very strong And doses must increas quite quickly.- injected only three times But even m. First injection - my friend who is 40 and injects heroin for over ten years said that the dose i took was much more than he recommended for the firs time and it didnt do anything.

And after that similar .. Always neede to get twice more tha. Others .not because i am greedy but because less just wont do nothin .cocaine here is a joke i do not know how much is in it of cocaine but it does not work almost at all- i usually eat 1 gram alone and if i don t drink i go to sleep hour later.subotex, morphine, morphine sulphate, hawaian woodrose and salvia i can say the same for all of these - did not work!!!! ... Subotex - 10mg -nothing at all- morphine sulphate 30mg pills - snorted two of them so. 60mg for the first time just now- nothing drunk some tequila - feel bit weak- that is it rose and salvia is pointless....

So to make long story bit longer- the quality of drugs is very drastically decreasing! Get lsd in brighton seems impossible. Pervitin afected my drug tolerance and perception forever!!!! So i dont know . I dont want to be addict. But i feel like i need to get high everyday atleast one at least smoke a joint . And every week i need sOmething stronger and since i can only ge cocaine tha does not work and mdma which i dont like. Because hapiness sucking.i dont know what to do. Gonna try to make my own dmt i guess ... And maybe i will understand it one day. I am crazy arent i?

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I would take a step back and try to figure out why you feel the "need" to get high so often and so heavily. To each they're own but damn, it sounds like you could so a bit of self examination before consuming much more. I only mean this in a good way I'm not trying to be mean or call you a junky or anything.

Oh and yeah, paragraphs are everything here at the nexus, if you don't use them, 90% of the people here will just back out of the thread with out even looking.

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Yes make your own dmt, buy a vapor genie use that. I am sure that you should feel some very intense effects of a good dose of pure dmt. But honestly I dont think that weed is that bad, and if you really need to get high everyday. Smoke some weed, dont try to get high off of all these other drugs such as heroin, cocaine, and mdma. Because if they dont effect you then you could just be hurting your body more than its worth. I am not really sure about Pervitin, but I am not sure how it could increase your tolerance to psychedelics such as shrooms, dmt, and lsd. Unless somehow it has created barriers inside your consciousness that must be broken through with a great force. But I don't think this is very likely. The drugs you are getting are probably just bad. And I dont think I can help you with this, because it is the same way where I live! Except we can get some very good cannabis but if you are really looking for a great trip, after trying your own dmt a few times. You might want to try and brew your own ayahuasca. I am sure you will be satisfied, and have a successful breach of conscious.

Hope this help, and best of luck!

Walter

Thanks guys ... Its really nice to get response...well i dont take hard drugs very often... I want totake more than i actually do... But i dontcause dont know where... Butthats good thing...the reason why i need to get high all the time is probably combination of not having friends here. Longterm problems with finding girlfriend and fucked up world in my eyes... Yeah i think that not enough sex and female relationships is getting to me more and more. But i have some issues and am extremely shy so i have big problem even say hi to a girl... I am bit handsome.. Definetely not ugly... But low self esteem and lots and lots and lots of weed is making this worse... But if i dont smoke ... Well i never quit for longer than one day...weed i mean...so its really fucked up circle which i cannot seem to break... Weak will is issue here as well... Thanks guys for the answers.just now i am looking for some shrink or just some profesionall to talk to u know. Cant find anythig either

Honestly some meditation/spiritual practice might help you a lot. Its hard I know, but the outcome will be very rewarding. I know how you feel with weed causing very low self esteem and a fucked up view of the world. The only way to get over this is quit smoking weed, or change what you want from weed. Dont use it to get high, use it as a catalyst to introspect. Use it in a spiritual way.

Well u see i know i need to stop smoking... I use it as antidepresive.... And i know that if i had girl i wouldnt feel the need to get high... But to get a girl i need to stop smoking.... Yeah i guess that whatever i or anyone think of it always comes to one think.... Stop smoking weed.... But also if try stop smoking i will start drinking lot more.... I mean c mon am i so fucked up that i cannot live happily without drugs?? Well i cant find out because my will always breaks before i can find out.... I keep telling myself - stop feeling sorry for yourself and snap out of it!!!! But i always go and buy more... Its like a spell or somethin

By the way what do u mean by meditation or spiritual practice??

Just apply more discipline in your life. Like Yoga or something, or just regular zen meditation. When you wake up, or before you go to bed. Just spend 15 quiet minutes away from everything, and pay attention to yourself. You may find out what you really need more easy, which could not be a girl. This can just be healthy.

Well i can try but i have no idea how to pay atention to myself... I will be just sitting there thinkibg about stuff... But will see.... Thanks man for your help...

I find that I don't really feel like getting high if I have things to do. Maybe try taking up a hobby, or try hanging out with family if that's an option, and just keep planning things to keep you busy.

Then again I've never had any problems with drug addiction, I just presume it's because I've got other things to do all the time.


Perhaps Ibogaine might also be a good thing to look into? I've never tried it, but I hear it does wonders for addiction/introspection!

Well it sound really good but where can i get it?? Its not for sale online and i dont even know if its legal or not in uk...

Walter is right, you need some discipline in your life. Whether it is sport or mediation, it'll break the habit circle.
If you have access to mushrooms, this might help, too. I know the feeling of being bored by smoking but having no perspective in life either. Mushrooms helped me to break the smoking circle and ayahuasca helped me healing my lungs.
So everytime I smoke something, I have the bad feeling of violating the ayahuasca's gift to me... Might work for you, too. If not, go for sports or meditation.

Here is a site that lists a few places for Ibogaine treatment in the U.K.

It may be expensive though, just a heads up.

Edit: Sorry, I didn't think this would be considered a supplier because it's just a list of Treatment Facilities in the UK, not of an individual Ibogaine vendor.

I guess google "Ibogaine treatment UK", and you should come up with things. That's all I did.

Pervitin = crystal meth (for anyone who was curious)

Ahoj Koblih77,

A good friend of mine has used (abused) lots of drugs in his past; he also had some serious personal relationship with pervitin...

This friend of mine has been (ab)using drugs as a means of escaping reality and of "solving" personal problems (even though he has not been able to fully admit this to himself). Stimulants never delivered their promises, of course... Heavy drug-use led this friend of mine to a stage when the drugs just stopped "working" for him - even psychedelics in very high doses lost their "magic"...

I am not sure what to advice you, my friend, I am not an expert on these kinds of issues. However liberal my approach do "drugs" may be, I still think that drugs can never really solve any problems on their own. I am affraid that in the end it is always us who have to face our problems and try to honestly approach them... It is hard and demanding, but definitely worth it.

I am not any psychologist, or any other "expert" on these issues, but I think that taking a serious break from drug use might help... rearranging one´s life, changing one´s life rhythm or life style (start meditating, practice yoga, start running), and being as honest as possible with oneself might help as well...

S pratelskym pozdravem,
Michal

Don't you love it when questions answer themselves?

Man with all respect, You sound like an addict. I am an addict myself. I'm 28 and just have got out of rehab. I believe marijuana can be abused to the point of hurting us also. Any chemical we use to change how we feel is a sign of addiction in which I struggle with also. Get off the opiates and speed. I myself was injecting a gram a day of crystal meth for around 2 years. I'm still not right man. Anxiety and paranoia attacks. It's got better but it's caused a great deal of damage. Clean yourself out and eat about 5 grams of mushrooms. It changed my life. I feel connected spiritualy. I do DMT from time to time but I don't ever wanna go back to having to have opiates, speed, or anything unnatural to make me happy. I'm a lot more free now thank God. Analyze yourself man. If you truelly can't stop than seek help. If not its a hell of a road thats ends the same. Jails, insitutions, and death. Peace brother

.... Michal_R is spot on !!!
Go here Counselling and get some advice. Its near your location.
. Report back to us please.

Good luck.

Iboga might be a healing tool up your sleeve.