hello fellow nexians..
for the ones who did not follow my last topic about this, i am healing from a tuberculosis, and taking meds. i was uncertain if i should take the medicine, but i did it.
and the medicine had a wonderfull, strong healing power, in a very refined way.
the person who gave me the medicine (a big blessing to her) warned me that it is the most concentrated medicine from Brasil, that i should take a spoon instead of a coup.
So i went to this place me and my famly are taking care of and growing, our "Floresta Sagrada".
at 7 pm i (auto)blowed a little bit of rapé, and took the first spoon to get familiar with the energy of the medicine, and make the set up, focus in the heart, prepare the place, call the ascended masters, declaring my healing intension, and so on..
It has a very concentrated smell and taste, they allone where enough to imagine the potency of the medicine, i usualy like the taste of the medicine but this one is so concentrated that i involuntarly made a mug face every time i took it.
around 9 pm, as soon as the last day light faded out, i took the second spoon, and waited there sitting, meditating, and connecting to the Multidimensional Healing Energies.
besides having to urinate a lot, no other noticeable effect came.
so around 11 pm i took 2 more spoons. i felt a very subtile dizziness and motor discordination, that faded away as quickly as it came.
and then started the effect i call as the Hiper Lucidity Wave, that I usualy only experience after the psychoactive peak from the medicine.
I was very alert, awake, very aware of my toughts, in a very deep and calm state.
around 1 a.m. i took another 2 spoons, and still in the same state of awareness i started to feel an energy like a very refined Reiki, just on my lungs.
So i embraced it, until the effects started to fade away slowly, and a little after 3 am i started to walk home.
I confess i was a little impatient, because i didnt feel any psychoactive effect what so ever, no purging effect, and no communications from the plant.
I think it is due the medication I am taking, and thats why i only took half of the bottle that night.
But the changes continued to take place. I started to be a lot more aware of my mental and emotional bodies, and how disfunctional and damaged they have been.
And i started connecting that fact, this desease, and a lot of my actions, to a very deep emotional trauma i had as a teenager. At the time i couldnt deal with it, so i started
new activities, new works and studies and everything else i could get, until i had so much new stuff to deal with, that this issue was allready burried deep inside me.
I now see how this tuberculosis is a way of my true self to say that i need to resolve all this, i needed this desease to start this process of healing.
And I've been working on that. I still couldnt go over it, but i think i know what i have to do. And just the fact that it isnt repressed anymore, that i am aware of the process, took a lot of weight out of me.
Im really gratefull, deep from my heart, to the person who gave me the medicine, and to all Nexians. this community gave me confidence and will to explore this way of healing.
This is not only a quest to heal my body, but to rescue again the pleasure and will of being alive, to break this lethargy, to rescue my true self and my full potencial.
I am now trying to cleanse myself deeply, and if i think im ready i will take the rest of the medicine like one spoon daily, first thing in the morning, to get over with this desease, i know now i dont need it anymore, i can feel it!
Healing someone is an act of love, but how can you love someone whitout loving yourself first?