(I posted this in another thread, but decided to just post it as a report to try and discuss it. I feel as though I need to have some help integrating or just advice on how to proceed. Or if anyone who has experienced this reads will you tell me the outcome? Thanks everyone, I think this community is really important - we need to be in this together as far as this particular medicine goes...)
This is very bizarre... I just had an eerily similar experience to this one not 30 minutes ago... I looked it up to see if anyone else had gotten this and I came across this...
I have been smoking changa for the past 4 days... I made my first batch with 11x caapi and 3.6 mg spice per 10 mg changa. It's been going fine, all good trips, nothing even close to bad - until tonight.
It was 4 of us. I set some intentions and took 60 mg in one or two hits... Something happened and my closed-eye space was DARK... like exaggerated darkness, an inky blackness. I was a bit confused, and waited. I then felt a strange ominous air enter the space and asked everyone else if the felt it. 3/4 of us did. We continued, with everyone else getting good experiences. Later in the night two of them went to bed and it was just me and one other guy. He took a hit from 60 mg but didn't clear it. He reported lots of open eyed visuals but the same exaggerated darkness with closed eyes. I finished his dose as he was done, noticing the same inky blackness behind my eyelids and only a small area of dark purple prismatic space that was very dim.
Here's where the freaky stuff starts: I told him that I think I may be developing a tolerance, but I didn't think that that could happen so I decided to do the experiment and do another dose right then to see if anything happened. I chose another 60 mg. I took one good hit, clearing 80% of the bowl... the darkness began to envelop me, I got a disturbing tunnel-vision with the inky blackness trying to cover me completely. I was starting to get alarmed but stayed calm. I went inside and immediately turned on the brightest light I could. When I did that, the visuals came. There was an intense warping to the kitchen, like all the walls were bending in on themselves and the everything was falling and melting off it's hinges. I walked back outside and sat down. I was at the edge of panic, but thankfully I am experienced enough now to know better than punching THAT tar-baby. I was talking to my friend just to keep one foot in this world and stave off the darkness, and I thought that this very well may be Satan or some other dark force, and I've recently been having the idea that simply TELLING a dark spirit forcefully to leave is enough, so I did. Around that time, the inky blackness behind my eyes began fluttering and this white light came through it - ah how can I explain this? It was like a host of skeletal animal and plant ghosts was flying away from me! I got the idea then that this "darkness" was the oppressive shade of these ghost's forms around me, and that they were somehow trying to do something with me... I had NEVER seen visuals like this, either the inky oppressive blackness or the White-light-that-seemed-like-ghosts... After the last of the ghosties left I had the visuals of a come-down from a strong changa charge....
I really think people should know about this, the dark side needs to be discussed more. Not so much to ward people off, as to maybe find a way we can combat or deal with this... needless to say, I will be taking a good long break from DMT, as I've been doing it way too often, intentions or no. This was my second real brush with the dark-side, however it was different that the last one. I got a very strong, crushing, looping, recrusive pattern that was at once mental, visual, and in a strange way physical... it was like being flushed down the DMT-toilet... but this Darkness and then ghost-like things flying away from me letting in a bright white light was almost scarier - despite the fact that I kept it cool - there was a strong sense that if I let myself be taken into this darkness nothing good would come of it and I may be in real danger... But I think throwing bright light onto it and then forcefully telling the darkness to leave helped. But now I have this very creepy feeling of being watched...
In the day after (today) I have felt generally worn out and somewhat tripped out still, and cannabis brought a half-mast DMT-esque trip into being... I had to just go to sleep and upon waking I feel better but still kindof tired and weird...
What is there to be done about this? I am most definitely taking a break from DMT/changa, but has anyone noticed this sort of thing bleeding into other psychedelics? I have a bufotenine changa in the process of being made but I am very wary of trying it after last night... I mean, cannabis was visually psychedelic today, the day after the above experience... I won't be doing any psychedelics for a few weeks at least...
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