To make a long dramatic story short - I have a mass of adhesions (scars and new tissue bridges from previous surgery) in my intestine causing a complete obstruction.

I checked out of the hospital against medical orders on Saturday and must go back in 4 hours.

I am terrified.

But, hell, I guess it beats spending 21 minutes in plank time personal hell hyperspace, right?

Anyway, everything is a bit uncertain right now. Telling me they ruled out malignancy while strongly telling me to get a living will put together quickly.

Just wanted to pass on my deep and great love for all of you that make up this community. You have been a crutch to me not only during a long period of decreasing health, functionality and increasing pain but also during this crisis. While inpatient, I missed being with you more than ganja or sweets or a lot of things. . . .

I'll just sum it up to say thank you so much. And always,

Peace & Love

I hope you recover from this fully, Pandora.

We will be missing you and wishing the best for you while you are in the hospital!

Wishing you all the best Pandora, and a full and speedy recovery.

I wouldnt get freaked out by them asking you to make a will even though the doctors seem sure its not malignant; this is due to the real risk which is associated with a general anesthetic.

If you dont mind me asking, have you ever had any abdominal procedures/intra-abdominal or pelvic infections before or do you suffer with Crohns disease?

One potential upside is the quality analgesia you will receive!

Once more, best wishes.......and do yourself a favour, dont discharge yourself against medical advice!

Hysterectomy. Periodic IBS. Aya helped for a good long time.

I fear the NG tube horribly.

And yeah, but it seemed like I was laying there with my pain managed and nothing was happening. No forward movement in terms of tests or procedures or anything. Surely that bed could be better put to use while I make a minor effort to put my affairs into order?

Also it's unsafe - three employees during my brief previous stay told me of exiting from work and waking up inpatients with gunshot wounds.

And yeah, most def, my detox is over. Was going to enjoy bragging rights about 3 years clean this May.

Peace & Love

Hey Pand

I hope you get better soon, and recover fully.
Sending much love your way.

Peace.

Pandora - you were my mentor when I was first getting into this stuff about a year ago. That makes you instrumental in some great, positive change in my life. As such, you hold a special place in my heart.

I truly hope you will pull through this, and have faith that you will. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Best wishes, Pandora. I hope everything goes well. Make sure to let us know when you are recovered.

Hugs

WTF!! Pan
sounds like your giving up..
Yes you got a fight ahead of you ..
Pull your boots UP..and get your fight gloves on!
http://www.youtube.com/w...ilpage&v=PaVfyTJvKc4
Im one of your biggest fans..you helped me and so many others ...
Now its time for you own personal fight....
Im truly sorry you have this on your plate.
But you never seemed like a quiter..i pray im not out of line here..

Get mad dog mean about it!!
I for one will be waiting for your victory!!
Much love and respect.....Oden

Good health is a wonderful gift and it is getting harder and harder to obtain as time passes. But you know that and is not my aim to poke in your wounds. It def. sounds horrible to live in such a uncertainty but it isn't cancer and that counts for something. Try to stay as calm as possible, perhaps remind yourself of the love around you and it will pass. We all hope it does !

get well soon Panda

<3 you're fantastic pandora, you already know i cherish our friendship
i am sending you nothing but the strongest Metta i can muster.

Much love Pando!!!...You are a great Nexian and will be in all our thoughts!!!!

Aetherbound

I did not go yet. I had a small amount of resolution (first I've seen in a week) last night . . . . .and frankly, I'm too anxious.

I have a call in to them to seek advice. I do not seem to be able to make decisions weighing factors correctly . . .

This is very very different from holding a GVG and torch with a big dose of freebase in it. I'm not sure how to apply acceptance and surrender and love to the situation I am in.

Pandora - You hang in there! Chin up! Think positive vibes! We are right there with you girl!

Best thoughts Pandora, may you have a fully and speedy recovery!

I send you cool vibrations should you need to drop the temps of this hectic bizarre thing called life.

Hang tight, much love to you Pan <3

Pandora, strength and courage to you.

Sometimes its easier to trust entities rather than mere men, but right now you have to surrender to letting the doctors do their work and trust their knowledge. I strongly believe you will be back with us shortly. My father wen't through a similar situation not too long ago in which he had to have a few feet of intestine removed due to scarring, he is much better now and I believe the same will be true for you! I wish you quick healing and peace in this time.

Gonna send some good vibes your way.
Much Love and Respect!

I hope everything will work out toward your well-being, Pandora.

Get well... be well, and may blessings abound for you

Call up on all the courage and fortitude you've gained from your psychic explorations. Now it's time for the real work of the putting those lessons into practice. I'm sure you'll pull through this just fine, you're way too spunky to let a little thing like this slow ya down

Wishing you all the best for a quick and easy recovery

☮ & ♥