First let me express how thankful I am that this community exists. I feel that it's unique in its content, brother-sisterhood, and execution. I almost felt a bit guilty for receiving so much free information and insight without contributing what little I may. Thank you all.

I guess I've always been a spiritual person, which I've only recently come to admit Most who know me recognize me as a logical, process-driven person, but that's only the side that I've allowed most people to see. My closest friends know the truth, which is that I'm a creature of instinct only filtered with logic. The fight between the two halves of me reached an intensity a few years ago that had to be reconciled, else I felt that I would lose my mind. I began doing research on everything from quantum physics and astronomy to ancient religions and anthropology.

What I began to realize is that those two halves do not have to exist in conflict! They tend to point to each other more often than away. All of this became very clear to me upon the most paradigm-changing event of my life--the birth of my son. In him, I see the future, the past, the potential of human existence. I see the possibilities and challenges we face. In him, I see the world anew every day. Being a father made me realize that, for me, having the answers is not my goal. It is to ask the right questions.

The world we have created is not perfect, nor do I believe it is as bad as some think it is. But the only way I see to become a better dad, and a better steward of the Earth, is to shatter the paradigms that I grew up with, and help develop new ones. To understand more about the truth of our existence, and the nature of consciousness, and to put these noetic sciences on the same level of the physical ones.

Please excuse my rambling

I have had extensive experience with the traditional hallucinogens, and about 25 spice journeys from my own extractions. I used to be a daily THC enthusiast as well, but those days are well behind me aside from the occasional indulgence.

My first spice breakthrough was about 2 months ago, and it was absolutely the most mysterious thing to ever happen to me. Total ego loss, unspeakable beauty, entity contact, the whole shebang. I'll write it up in a trip report soon, but it was everything I wanted and nothing I expected. I have since shared the spice with several of my closest friends, with similar impact on them and their lives. We collectively feel that we've begun a journey of self discovery and exploration that may never have an end, and our journeys (some new, some re-awakened) began in earnest right here, with me lurking on this very site. We can never thank you enough.

WP

Welcome and thank you for sharing your life

So which would be the right questions to ask ?

Thanks smokerx



I'd say that's a good example of one of the right ones

Truth: I don't know. But there are a few that have proven to be the right ones for me:

1. What am I, really?
2. What are we doing here, really?
3. How does my mind work, and what are (if any) the limits of it's capabilities?
4. What would I like the world to look like, and is it possible for my vision to be harmonious with the visions of others?

I think the right questions for me are more obvious in contrast with the ones that used to make up the majority of the chatter in my head:

1. If I make this decision, how will others look at me?
2. How can I do or say something that will make others like me?
3. What can I do to take my mind off the problems I face?
4. etc. etc etc. You get the point

I feel that since I began my spice journeys, I'm being de-programmed. It's scary as hell, but equally liberating.

WP