Effing amazing.
Ok, here's the story leading up to my amazing journey, of which I don't remember much, except realer than real love and awesomeness.
For the past 6 years, I have not seen one of my long time good friends, the Italian.
For 4 of those years, he lived about 20 minutes away, and for the past 2 years, hes about 40 minutes away.
I've invited him to my place on several different occasions, and he just never replies.
He'll chat it up on facebook, but thats it.
I was in his Wedding, many many years ago.
He has hasn't invited me to anything in the past 6 years.
So I recently decided that the only thing I was getting out of this friendship, was me feeling like shit.
I loved the Italian, and his lack of interest in hanging out at all or even replying to invitations just hurt, and made me angry.
I decided to rid this vampire from my life finally a week ago, when a mutual friend who the Italian had not seen in 13 years came to visit. The Italian never even bothered to reply to the invite.
Sorry, this is all very personal, but relevant to the journey.
It seemed crystal clear to me that there was no longer any kind of friendship there, just old memories of the fun times and youth.
I defriended the Italian from facebook and my PS3 account.
I honestly would have bet a LOT of money that I would never hear from him directly again. This is someone I've known for almost 20 years. I was sure that was it.
And yeah, I'm a sensitive guy, but i've always been open and honest about it. It's not a secret.
So it hurt me to do what I was doing, but I felt I needed to do something.
I don't see the point in having friends that make you feel shitty and nothing else.
FLASH FORWARD
It is now today. It's 420! I got groceries after work, came home, did the dishes, cleaned the kitty boxes, cooked some food and took a shower. My chores were done and I could finally relax for a bit.
I put on some OTT ( MIR ) and decided to clear what was left in the GVG, so there was no weighed dose.
NOTE: I have only broken through on unweighed doses.
I was expecting a mild little trip, but got whizzed away into amazingness that I honestly can't describe.
Heres what I remember:
Lots of love and grandness
When I tried to focus on something so I could remember, it would morph away
I got caught in a small loop, but it wasnt bad
Being shown things I dont remember and cant describe
it was just as real or more real than reality.
So I take off and have the most amazing journey of my life, by far, and eventually, I start to come back.
I open my eyes, and start to process what just happened.
After about 30 seconds, my phone buzzed.
It was a Text from the Italian " Happy Holidays dude, I still Love Ya "
I was instantly confused as hell. The last text I got from him was a similure text on NYE, out of the blue, and when I got that text, I was tripping in NY (far from home) and it shocked me a bit, but was wonderful.
So I immediately thought, Oh, he must have accidently resent that old text. Nope.
I was so shocked, after about a minute when I realized that he had texted me at the same time as I was having this amazing life journey, I got a little scared.
To me, the coincidence was TO MUCH. Understand, I felt pure love and gratitude, but that journey and that text at the same time...I just started crying and shaking. I though I might throw up, as my throat felt like it was swelling up, and I couldnt speak. I was just floored.
I had to sit there for the 40 minutes processing all of this.
wow.
Thanks for reading, Much Love and Respect.