near ego-death experience:


1 tablespoon
3,4,5-methoxy-butyl-bicarbonate lysergic acid: self-awareness raising agent


stir
contextually-idiosyncratically inappropriatelessness

2 pinches
n,n-dimethylphenylalanine:
artificially official self raising awareness reagency

out of bodhisattva inexperience

6,6,6-triiodothyronine-2-ethyltrip-2-mine

closed i individualization selfless actualization


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naruto transfers energy into kyuubi, kyuubi molds with senju, senju transfers into naruto

imagine, you have a realization, you think about what everything is, in its most basic form, the whole universe at the most primal, simplest, smallest form, what is it? is it some sort of energy? some form of vibration?

it seems many things have vibration, you can find waves and patterns in triangles, trigonometry, sine waves, we see with our eyes, our eyes have photoreceptors to translate waves into vision, trigonometry, we hear through vibrations, sound waves, the ear is the home of mechanoreceptors, they respond to movement and produce sound, but they also aid in physical balance which helps us move our bodies, these two things are so closely related.

we can relate basic shapes, triangles, to waves of light, sound, and movement, we have both physical and psychological processes so intertwined, but what else can you look at? the waves of the ocean, the force of a strong wind that knocks you off balance these things can be very large and overwhelming, though what else? what is smaller?

molecules, atoms, protons neutrons, waves of energy, we are a part of it all, one in the same, what is smaller than that? how deep does it go? how many layers are "we" unaware of? are we of one thing? can we look into ourselves and explore the universe, tune our vision into another dimension? is this reality a disruption in the universe's PNS, a single stimuli travelling through a series of junctions, schwann cell after another?

is this reality being transferred to a spinal cord? pushed through hyperspace into the universal brain? the ultimate source of everything in it's most basic form?
is this how the universe interacts with its self? the ultimate meditation of self, one infinite network of afferent and efferent vessels which transfer vibrations and stimulate the ultimate mind. vibrations moving within hyperspace, reacting to the infinite space which is ultimate body of self.

the physical body of human, exists at the centre of size, existing in homeostasis, there exist bodies infinitely smaller and infinitely larger than human, one such stimuli is but a dense ball of bundled vibrations like a mesh of cotton wool, like a bundle of elastic bands, travelling in synchronicity, increasing it's gravitational force, until it reaches self and every individual vibration is absorbed.



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no one loves me...

SEPPUKU!

Well, I surely do not love you. Love is serious stuff that you reserve for special people, not for some random forum patrons.

Is that a problem with you? Do you REALLY need to be loved? Could it be that you're being loved but you do not understand it? There sure must be a person out there that masturbates with you in mind. Are you seeking attention for some reason you should tell us ?

Also worth mentioning: not all posts get replies, even interesting ones. Your post makes for an intriguing read but it doesn't necessarily leave any openings for clear responses. Don't take it personally- hang around here long enough and you'll find that a lot of your posts don't get direct responses. That doesn't mean your words aren't being read and appreciated. A need for feedback is understandable, but ultimately ego-based. That's fine-and normal- but you need to remind your ego not to take it personally. You are part of a vast, complex conversation here, and at times it may feel like you're shouting into the void.

If you really need a response to a post, try trimming it down shorter, then ending it with a question. We are only human, after all, and sometimes we need to be prompted.

@infundibulum

it was a joke comment, i love to joke around (there was even a joke in the OP), yes a part of me wants attention, i wont deny it, i like to explore every avenue, that includes servicing my ego, but i was not seriously expecting people on here to love me, though a couple of replies would have been nice, so i thank you and guyomech for feeding my ego. i dont expect everyone to read my post, and i cant force anyone and wouldn't want to, but it would bring me joy to know that people actually did read it, and with no comments my ego feels somewhat rejected. what i actually hoped for would be that my post sparked some thought in others which they then shared in the form of a reply, and then we began a line of conversation or something of that nature, i enjoy talking to people, especially the kinds of people that would be in such a place as this.

@guyomech

i guess some of the above paragraph could've been written here...
but again, it's not that i took the lack of replies personally, it's that my main hope was to spark some sort of conversation with someone or even better multiple people, this kind of thing really interests me, i thoroughly enjoy interesting conversations. i like to be honest, which is why i stated that the lack of replies makes my ego feel rejected, but that is me being honest, i'm sure many people wouldn't openly say something like that, not that there is anything wrong with not saying it, but i prefer to express these things rather than live in denial. the fact is that this rejection is secondary to my hope which was interesting conversation, my joke comment wasn't expressed solely for something as petty as feeling rejected by anonymous forum members.

as a psychonaut i want to explore everything (perhaps my ego wants to explore everything), so please dont get the wrong impression when i express certain ideas about ego, this is one of many things i explore. my ego believes that i am multi-faceted, i guess if it keeps telling me that then it must be true...