PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: Good to go
(physical condition) Set: a little tired but fine
Setting (location): bedroom
time of day: 10.30pm
recent drug use: beers and joints last night and joints in the day
last meal: lunch time

PARTICIPANT
Gender: male
body weight: 73kg
known sensitivities: none
history of use: 3rd Pharma journey/7 months of DMT use.

BIOASSAY
Substance(s): Rue seeds and Jimjam
Dose(s): 4g of Rue and 100mg of Jimjam
Method of administration: Both in orange smoothie/ Vapourised Jimjam top ups


EFFECTS
Administration time: Rue T=22:30 Jimjam 23:00
Duration: 6 hours to sleep

Intensity (overall): Oral dose 2. Vaped doses 4
Evaluation / notes: Oral dose was pleasant. Vaped doses were very strong and very long.

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 4
Implesantness: 0
Visual Intensity: oral 2/vaped 4
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: exhausted the next day slept for a long time
Afterglow: feel blown away on monday morning. Utter dismay.




This weekend was my 2 month anniversary of not getting high, so to celebrate, I got high.

After work on Friday I headed to Holmes Chapel to meet up with Andy, we drank a few beers and smoked a few joints and chatted the evening away. In the morning we headed for the Roaches to do some climbing. It was a glorious day without a cloud in the sky and only the slightest whisper of a breeze was felt as we walked up to the crag. A few hours of leisurely climbing in the glorious sunshine were just what the doctor had ordered and we closed out the day basking in the sun passing few joints back and forth between us. After enjoying several hours of the good life we packed up the gear and headed back to the car, I drove Andy home before heading back to mine. I got home about 7ish and began to prepare myself for the for the evenings ceremony.

I had a shot of orange and Jimjam in the freezer from an earlier abandoned session, so I got that out to defrost, I then weighed out some Rue and put it in a glass ready for later.

I watched a little TV, smoked a joint or 2 and then read through some posts on the Nexus. At 10.30 it was time to begin, I added some OJ to the rue seeds and drank them down, yummy. The game had begun and I knew I now had 20 mins before I had to be back in bed, I spent this time sorting out the last few things that I needed before retiring to bed. Once in bed I a rolled a joint and listened to some music. At 11 I finished off my joint and picked up my shot glass, I held it up in a toast to existence, stated my intentions for the following journey and then knocked it back.
I got my phone out set my meditation timer to 25 mins and proceeded to sit in silence.

The sound of 3 bells rang out, their chimes cut through the silence of my room and marked the end of my meditation, I gave thanks for consciousness and opened my eyes. I’d had a few twitches while I was sitting so I knew it was on its way. I reached out and grabbed an apple, the crisp crunchiness was a delight.

The last time I had ventured out into the Pharmahuasca landscape I had taken 4g of Rue along with 75mg of Jimjam, this time I had kept the Rue dose at 4g but I had increased the Jimjam to 100mg. I lay back and put on some Terrence to usher me into the experience. I lay listening to his words flow through me as the green tinged dance behind my eyelids began and the trance state began to take hold of the situation. The flickering and visions were similar to last time, there were strange shapes and faces and animals, some pleasant and some not so. This visual show is strange, I got lost in a place halfway between what I was seeing and what my mind was thinking, the trance state seems to take away all concept of time and the brain is free to think about things that the mind doesn’t seem to think about but simply appear, they are given to the mind to contemplate. Ideas and concepts are beamed into the mind and they come complete with a delivery note which reads “here, have a chew on this one for a while”. I slowly get drawn deeper and deeper into the trance and as it takes you it doesn’t let you know you have gone or how deep you have gone, it just sucks you in. All of a sudden I am shocked out of the trance and it is only at this point that you realise that you have no idea how long you have been meandering through the visions of your mind, but you do know that it is a beautiful place in which to wonder, so I smile and close my eyes, allowing myself to once again drift off.

After an hour or so of internal wonderings I decided to allow the genie to apply his particular brand of magic to the occasion. The Genie was ready and eager to go but I had to calm him down and tell him to wait his turn. I selected a few fine musical pieces and enjoyed them as I was lowered into a relaxed state by clouds of smoke. Shpongles “Devine Moments of Truth” was the final song to fill my ears before the genie rose from my bed side table and made his intensions clear.


The Genie received my wish and cast his spell, as I held my breath in anticipation I became part of another seamless dissolving of this reality into the other. I was lovingly and comfortably deposited in some kind of alien biomechanical living computer assisted landscape of plant cyborgs. This place was weird, it was many things but none of them at the same time. It was big and small, it was ancient but futuristic, it was flat but spherical, it was impossible but I was there. The one thing I know for sure it that it was very, very green and very, very alive.
One minute I was flying over the landscape at great speed, the plant life form passing by as I looked down upon it, at this moment the planet was spherical and I was flying around its curve, I couldn’t tell if the planet was huge and I was flying far above it with some kind of zoomed vision of whether it was quite small and I was actually quite close to the surface. In a split second the landscape changed to a less spherical shape, it changed to what seemed like a cut out puzzle pieces from one of those 3D jigsaws. I was no longer flying around it, I was now stationary, as was the planet, and I was able to see one section of the landscape. Even though I was still we were still moving we were in stillmotion, maybe we hadn’t stopped maybe I was just orbiting at the same speed as the planet. I focused in on the structure of this amazing place.

It seemed that it was a planet but also some kind of play set. It reminded me of the Great A'Tuin, which appears in Discworld, it is a planet but also a turtle upon which elephants stand who hold up the Discworld universe.
The landscape was covered in curves, arches and spires and all kinds of jungley architecture and it was not simply a plant life form but some kind of bio-technological being, like Gaia had been given a techno upgrade. It was the perfect synergy between nature and technology, there were no seems of division, it was all perfectly 1. It was as if the plants had evolved and become the pinnacle life form of this world, this was the crescendo of biotechnology and it had completely covered the planet.

I calmly scanned the landscape and was blown away by its seamless beauty. The weirdest thing about these experiences is the lucidity that remains in your awareness, I remember thinking “well, it did it again, where has it taken me this time?” As I scanned the environment I looked down, I was physically stood in this realm, I know this because when I looked down I had legs, they might not have been my legs but I definitely had legs. However these legs were not stood on the surface of the planet, I was looking down on this world from higher up, maybe on a ship of some kind of platform but this detail evades my memory.

I do remember opening my eyes to be met by absolutely no change in my environment, eyes open or closed I was in for the ride, Kansas had dissolved and Toto was nowhere to be seen. I looked back up at the landscape and it had changed, it was still the lush green living biomechanical alien world but it now seemed to be floating in a space, and HE had made an appearance. Draped at the back of the puzzle piece landscape, lying on his side, was Stringpuller. He looked at me with a smile on his face, He seemed to be running his hand over the landscape tweaking and pulling at bits of its structure, he didn’t seem to be doing anything, he wasn’t controlling anything like he did when playing his machinestrument, he just seemed to chilling. This landscape now looked different, it had become completely the same but stayed very different. It now felt like a play thing, as if it was simply a game that Stringpuller had pulled out of the cupboard and he now sat down to play with it. I wonder if it was 2 player?, maybe I should have challenged him to a game. I watched this place and began to be overcome by how beautiful it all was, it was so completely and infinitely beautiful, I couldn’t cope. As the landscape began to fade it was only the visuals which went, the feeling of beauty was still with me, it surged through my body and filled my every cell until my very being glowed with its glory. Revelatory realisations of common knowledge filled me as I began to realise I was back in my bed, I was curled into a ball in the middle of my bed with tears running down my face.

I rolled around in my bed, I was back in the strange trance state but now it was much more involved, I would think a million things with an empty mind half way between 2 realms. I finally opened my eyes and found that my room was getting hard to look at, it was as if it was broken, like my bedroom was a giant puzzle cube that someone had failed to put together properly, so I closed my eyes once again and let myself be taken to where ever the journey saw fit.
The aftermath of the wish began to subside and i managed to come round enough to start thinking about what had just happened, I knew where I was again and took a few minutes to come to terms with my state of being. Once I had pieced it all back together I leant over and whispered in the Genies ear, we struck a deal, he would allow me split my 2nd wish into many small pieces, since these small pieces were easy for him to produce he barely had to put his book down.

After a few hours of restless turning and exquisite mind games I decided to ask for my 3rd wish. The genie proclaimed his tiredness and said that this wish couldn’t be split he wanted to get some head down so I had to take the whole wish in 1, so that is exactly what I did. The Genie put his hat on and produced a thick cloud of vapour which enveloped my being.

I became all that there is.
The commonality of all things, the point at which everything shares a familiar trait, all of everything was 1.
I don’t really remember what this place looked like, all I can remember is some kind of stripes or banded sections and then some kind of tree or working system of the entirety of everything.
“We” were concentrated down into a place infinitely smaller that the point of a needle.
“I” was part of an enormous pressure, this pressure built and built to a horrifying level as the power of everything was bearing down upon “me”, this was a multi dimensional contraction on an infinite scale.
We got smaller and smaller and smaller until we reached the true point of singularity.

For a split second there was only 1.

A place at which all things were hinged on nothing, everything on nothing.

“Balance barefoot on a needle, heaven's just a jump away.”- Eyedea

JUMP.

The needle drove into all, its point burst the compaction of existence. “I” was witness to my own personal big bang. As it exploded “I” was blown apart with it, I think I remember being thrown into contorted positions in my bed, buried in a pile of duvet and pillows, I was filled with the most powerful force I have ever known, emotions and feelings of an indescribable nature where coursing through me as I seemingly moved through a series of uncontrollable shapes my body barely able to stop itself being ripped apart. There was no up or down, no left or right, no inside or out, there was no escape, no place to hide, there was simply the release of all the energy there is, I remember thinking that this must be the end, everything and everyone was over, this was not a survivable event, no one would survive a cosmic explosion of this magnitude but all I could do was to be filled and controlled by its unthinkable power.

Once again, after what felt like an endless moment in time, I was left destroyed, curled up on my bed gasping for breath with tears of awe running down my face.

I lay still, staring at the wall, I would say I was thinking it through, but I wasn’t, my brain had stopped, I just lay there and stared at the wall, I was overpowered by what had just happened. I lay there until the birds began to sing outside my window and I knew that the whole experience was over. I crashed.

I woke up 5 hours later and checked my phone, I had a message from Bobby, it read “This is what I scribbled down 10 minutes ago, when I got back” I downloaded the file and it was some words about a journey he had just taken. To my amazement it was the same as a journey I have taken, he’d had the same experience id had on NYE. He was handed his existence and shown infinite love, he has been shown and given what I have been gifted. He said it had been the greatest experience of his life and that he was changed forever, he now knows someone is looking out for him/us. I was absolutely made up for him, he had been given a real gift that very few people will receive. It’s nice to know at least 1 person I know truly understands what this is and what it means.

Be careful out there boys and girls, this stuff can change you, if you are not prepared to hold up for sacrifice all that you have and all that you believe in then maybe you should think twice.

It can be all fun and games and shiny fractals until the day it gets you, and when it does get you it can all to easily take away all you thought you knew.

You can’t unsee what you have seen.

Wow that sounds like an awesome journey! I can just imagine those tehnological plants existing in a state of bliss

So it was a great success then! I know you were a little apprehensive, but it sounds like it paid off big time! I am stoked for you man I'm glad your friend had such an enridhing experience as well, that's sick.

I need to get some moar oral huascas down me soon, but it doesn't feel quite right at the moment. Some smaller vaporised huascas are definitely in order though!

cheers DeMenTed, they were some crazy things to see.

Perges, i was a little apprehensive with the oral dose's but im geting to grips with it from the bottom up, this time upped the DMT dose but next time i will start to bring the hamalas up.

For me, straight DMT has been eclipsed, combining it with a good dose of hamala's really really is the way to go, it gives such special experiences.

My mate was very pleased, i think his thoughts were "i thought i had broken through, but that was beyond all breakthroughs"

Oh the joy it brings.

Too right mate, I don't even consider journeying these days without some Harmala-y goodness in the mix, except that one time The extra dimension it adds to the trip is quite mind blowing tbh.

So many times I hear people want to try DMT, and I mention that they should try it in Changa or by pre-dosing harmalas, only to have my suggestion shrugged off because they "want a proper DMT (only) experience"... Ok, suit yourself, Mr. expert I put this down to them not really knowing what they are talking about though, and funnily enough, the same people have come back to me asking about Changa once they have read up a little further, funny how these things work out

I have 25g of Rue kicking about actually, might make that into a tea this week and freeze it for smoalking sessions.

The breakiest throughs are where it's at though, I am yet to have an oral based one - I can only anticipate how spectacular it's going to be Cheers for sharing your story bro, I love me a good TR

Amazing report, as ALWAYS, 3rdI.

The whole plant/mechanical thing just sounds astonishing. I am happy you got to experience that.

cheers Sky Motion, it was a crazy place to behold.