hello
thank you for your warm welcome and kind words!
i'm still learning about this site - so at the moment i'm not sure if these messages between us will be public.. but this is stuff Everyone should know anyway! lol.
i'm not very skilled at identifying plant species, but powdered mimosa hostilis root bark seems to be quite cheap and reliable - though this is the only plant material i have ever worked with. i get it here:
http://www.phytoextractu...3h64ba7q0CFUmMtgodvT0Lug you mentioned you're in an 'isolated' place.. if it is somewhere that mimosa hostilis thrives naturally i would like to suggest gathering the plant material yourself. this is something i have always wanted to do, but unfortunately this species is not found where i am located. i don't know if that is easy to do, but i get the impression that the effort and dedication would be much appreciated by this precious alkaloid
personally, my experiences with dmt have been very profound, strange, shocking, and educational. i wanted to measure my doses to try to identify the quality of the product, but a milligram scale is not something i have access to..although i now feel that measuring is not so important.. i load a reasonable amount and smoke it to a comfortable level. i use an ordinary glass pipe and load the dmt on top of some high quailty herb, at a ratio of about 65:35, less herb than dmt. i have tried using tobacco, but i have a feeling there may be some 'disagreements' between all of the chemicals present.
i'm noticing that more and more often i'm referring to dmt as an entity, a presence that is aware of my intention. i know this may sound foolish to some people, and that is fine, but i feel that it is important for everyone to enter into this experience with the intentions of learning and spreading love.
you asked about the nature of my experiences, and that i describe the 'bad' trip..
the reason i called it a 'bad' trip is that it wasn't pleasant, made me vomit right before it really intensified, was very overwhelming (in a new way that was different from previous experiences), and the end was terrifying.. but i'm so glad i had it! i'm working very hard to learn to accurately describle these experiences, but it is quite difficult at times.. i'll try my best
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I'm sitting in my garage with two very close friends. we load a bowl as i described above. i'm smoking by myself as they quietly accompany me, (they're next, lol). low light, soft piano music is playing quitely. i start to feel it working before i exhale the first hit. it's calming, relaxing, soothing.. this continues to intensify rapidly. i take my fourth big hit and, (almost instinctivly), put the pipe down. colors get brighter, prettier..and then i feel like i'm on the drop of a huge rollercoaster. suddenly i need to vomit, i think 'what is this? this is new! i wonder why this is?' I go with it because i feel it is necessery, almost important.. i say to my friends 'i gotta puke, that's weird..' then they seemed to understand to some degree what i was experiencing when i said ' guys, i don't mean to be rude, but get the hell away from me for a minute!' i felt like i didn't want them to see it.
so i vomit in the tiny trashcan near my computer desk, and close my eyes as i am doing so. it feels so good! it's like my body is purging itself of all negativity. it's healing me. restoring me. then i open my eyes.. my vomit - is a circus! dancing all around the trashcan and floor are bears riding unicycles and juggling fish! i watch them for a moment, then look up to the room i'm in..it's gone, everything recognizeable is gone. everything is dark, no room.. and i'm now surrounded by what i can only describe as these twitchy little critters, about 20 inches tall, that look like Gumba - (the little mushroom-looking guy on super mario that you have to squish to kill)- except the things i see have one foot, one eye, are laughing histerically, and keep kind of bouncing back and forth, side to side. There's thousands of them, and they're all laughing at the fact that i can see them. they jump over each other to get to me, some trying to share things i couldn't seem to focus on. they can jump right through me and it amuses them that this confuses me. they're like a swarm of paparazzi or something, lol. this isn't scary yet.
i feel motion, and all of a sudden i'm flying incredibly fast through a slightly curving tunnel. the funny critters are long gone. i have no more awareness of my body, i'm just the purest essence of me - flying through a tunnel. i pass scenes so beautiful - stars, shapes, fractals, moons, planets - entire worlds are passing by like raindrops, it's the most beautiful thing i have ever seen...then it gets scary. i am stopped instantly by a feeling i can only describe as the most helplessly horrifying nightmare a young child could ever have. i'm pertrified in fear. something had hold of me. it's not happy, but it's not mad. it 'speaks' to me in a way of understanding, it was like i didn't hear words, but the understanding or the message assembled itself within my mind. it feels like to put it into words would violate it's essence, like it would take from its signifigance to be reduced to mere words, but it bacially warned me.
if i had to generalize.. 'you know you are not ready. you said you wouldn't peek.'
then it lets go. i'm confounded. as soon as it releases me i'm flying back through the tunnel, but it's different now - no worlds, no stars.. only events, memories, dreams..everything i have ever experienced.. but all i can think of is "i said i wouldn't peek??" i have thought about this for a long time, and after discussing it with several close friends i'm thinking i got a cold hard warning.. not from god though, because i don't think i'd have any doubt about it if god had spoke to me - if it was god, i would have known without doubt, in my personal opinion.
so this is what happened that time, but it's important for me to say that every one of my experiences has been different. i do have similar effects each time, one of which i call the 'robot-chicken level' simply because for me everything begins to look like a cartoon sculpted from lumps of clay. more than once my skin has disappeared, as well as everyone i looked at, but these thing i'm describing now come before the out of body experience..
the only other psychedelic i have used is psyclocybin, which was actually quite dull compared to the effects of dmt. i have hallucinated from the sleeping pill ambien, but that was just weird - everything was breathing. i would suggest avoiding all other mind altering substances, except perhaps other natural psychedelics, while using dmt. it seems to make me sweat out alcohol instantly if i have been drinking. the dmt just doesn't like it
i hope this has been helpful for you. i should add that everyones experiences are unique and open to interpretation. i don't believe i have seen a single thing that i would consider rational by our current definition of the word. there are incredible things in the place this substance reveals to us, and i am now convinced that my experiences have been far more elegant and curious than anything my imagination could conceive of on its own...what this implys about the true nature of what we call reality has become fascinating to me, but again, it is all open to interpretation..
thank you again for your kind welcome
peace and love,
mantis12
peace, love, and gratitude -mantis12
note: mantis12 is nothing more than a five-dimensional carnivorous insect from a parallel universe that browses this dimension's web at night studying psychedelic compounds and their effects on the development and expansion of consciousness in the earth-man. he prefers to sleep upside-down in the shade of a psilocybin mushroom and biting the heads off the moths he catches by the porch light.
everything he says should be regarded as purely fictional.
--have you spoke to your mantis today?--