Took an 1/8 square inch dose that should have been no more than 50 mikes (no way), then after 2 hours took another that was 1/4 square that should have been no more than 75 mikes (no way) . . . . . . .
SOME FRAKKER
MADE an ERROR
OR HAD an INTENTION that I'm ready to put in front of a firing squad.
Got in trouble bit of trouble - more confusion than a bad experience per se, but it was definitely difficult and it ain't over by a long shot. Thanks Nexus chat for trying to put some walls to that rubber room. Hitting like about 4,000 mikes. Over 6 hours since last dose and still crazy synaesthesia, audio hallucinations, music/voices with no stimuli (this usually takes a HUGE dose to break for me). The world should NOT look this way, I should not think this way on this dose. Not on easily 10x this dose.
Definitely gonna survive, but IF I'd have been out I'd be in jail or ER or voluntarily in hands of Rock Med now.
I think I'm gonna be really f_ _ _ _ _g pissed when I start to figure this out.
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