i took my first 2 hits of dmt a few weeks ago and the night i did it i crashed on a mates couch. i had some really vivid dreams, that werent that unusual, but i woke up into this half awake state thatfelt remarkably like trippin on dmt! i mentioned it to my friend the next day who had introduced me to dmt and he said i should report it. took me a while to get round to it but here goes... so i did like 2 hits, one quite mild, the next a bit bigger n then just stayed up with a couple of mates watchin a bit of tv, talkin about my trip (think we might have watched the spirit molecule documentary actually. which is awesome.) i stayed awake for ages despite being really quite drained from the trip, not for any reason really other than there was some other cool documentaries on... so, bit knackered (thats wiped-out to all you yanks ;-) ) and i drift off into this really vivid dream. im in a kind of boxing gym, with loads of different classes of boxers, there all kinda checkin me out n i feel myself slippin down the ranks. i end up with these lower rank boxers and they start givin me a bit of jip n i just flip out. knock this guy out who is like the leader of their little crew. im a little taken aback by my reaction, im usually pretty peaceful, and this new found fighter in me attracts the next level of cronies... so i start to move up the ranks, running away occasionally, n theres this group of 3 right at the top of the pile who scare the shit out of my... anyway long story short i end up overcoming my fear of all but the top guy, then i realise im dreaming and i wake up... this is where it got reeeally interesting! im in this kind of half awake state where with my eyes closed its this world of colour, eyes open im in the room! i start to feel this... hmmm i wanna say being but it was more like a collction of images and moods that were directly recognisable as a living thing/ entity/ summt... so i see these shapes like the green pipes in mario, snaking all around, theres a vivid glowing green face with really fucking cool shapes and designs around it. i know this is a living creature, just all they need to show me is like a flavour of them! but i totally get it! i can comprehend! all the time its like hes checkin me out n i have this feeling like im poking my head through a little bubble or something... just on the fringe of something anyway... he shows me this image of himself with a purple hood, with just black for a face, n i know this means he has a dark side. i kinda respond, n say im cool with that n he introduces himself to me with like green n purple graffitti as 'MR PINKMAN'... ok pretty wierd but whatever i roll with it n he tells me to get a pen or summt. to right something down!! so i get my phone n he says "a species will need to breed in order to achieve whereas a nation will need to be conquered in order to achieve" so i write it in my phone n its still as fucking vivid when i close my eyes!! i kinda just roll with it n he's still there but this ckeeky, anime pink haired girl pops up with him to kinda see what im about. haha she didnt seem too bothered by me if im totally truthful but she told me 2 write summt anyway..."the way to see in only to withdraw/understand" these werent really said in words... it was just kind of understanding, n the last word was kind of a word with 2 meanings. i kinda think i might have had the option to choose the meaning but i might have added that since. this was about 3 weeks ago! anyway these 2 are clearly on the same level as each other but then i see this whoooole other motherfucker! im gliding along over a lake, beneath me is this humanesque form with arms spread into a huuuge wingspan, longer even than the body. behind the wingy things are these luminous white trails, like off the back of the bikes in that new tron movie, it felt kinda masculine and fucking stro-ong and we just glided together, i felt so warm and safe and like this was soooo much more than the 2 previous. when it spoke i expected it to be male but it was so soft and caring and nurturing and female. "the reason of all pain in the universe is just the reason of all cause in the universe. the real reason is in the numbers" ive no idea what this means but... i dunno... so i close my eyes again and its kinda gone further than my comprehesion will allow and....... its kinda overwhelming, just. peacful. and bright as anthing ive ever seen, its fucking awesome man. n i stay for a while but then i feel it leave me and it says on its exit, like a reprise "there will be a father come down form the sky, but the real god will fill you with a love that is undeniable." ...... .....
wow,
i mean i dont really know how to process this, i just kinda put it down to the dmt, but it was sooo vivid and real and i wasnt actually asleep!! so i guess i kinda just wanna ask has anyone ever experienced anything like these waking dreams? has anyone seen anything that is similar to this on their trips or dreams or anything??? and haha has anyone met MISTER PINKMAN!??!
muchos lovas,
john
xxx