I'm still trying to figure out what the point of this thread is...
This is what I got from it:
-You were at a big party with lots of people and drugs.
-You were rolling
-You smoked DMT
-You love us
Ok, I guess.
May I suggest channeling that energy differently? Maybe loose the ecstasy and all the people and explore DMT in a more private, spiritual set and setting? I'd bet you will benefit more this way.