Hello Nexians!
I just had the most amazing healing experience I have...ever experienced! I know I've been waaayy too self-centered lately and a pretty big jerk. I had the epiphone that almost all of the pain in my life is due to my own selfishness. This is how I did it.
I've been studying shamanism for quite some time now. I used basic shamanic techniques with anahuasca (375mg Moclobemide + 4.1g MHRB) to journey into myself. After a 4 day diet, abstinence from drugs, sex, and rock and roll, with frequent fasting (allowing myself to be hungry for most of the time) I brewed the aya. I sang to it with my guitar as I brewed it, asking it for help, and simply sharing some songs that I liked. I also asked for a spirit song (an Icaro if you will) which it later gave to me. I smudged the sacrament and myself with mapacho(jungle tobacco) and finally asking all those higher beings above me that wish for my well-being to help me, direct me, and guide me to what I need. I then consumed.
I waited for the effects and went to my dimly lit room to lay on my bed. Once the spirits came, I directed my consciousness to an area that I have had chronic pain in for about 9 years now. Suddenly I was having epiphone after epiphone about why I am generally dissatisfied with my life. The reason was my inability to appreciate other people. I dominate conversations, I try to be the best, I lose sorely...you name it.
So I want to apologize to anyone I've offended lately (particularly Jamie for having to deal with my huge ego, because I have an inkling we're probably the same kind of cat) and and just take the time to say I love this community, I think it is no coincidence that something like this has arisen just when our culture needs it most.
Also, a fair warning...MHRB is a powerful teacher, it is not to be abused, underestimated or taken for granted. I am enthused to have gained yet another ally! Stay safe everyone!
Peace and Love
AD