Welcome to the forum, man!
I grew up in IN myself (went to Ball State University), so don't despair about finding others who are following this path, even if it doesn't seem like there are many of them in your area. Often there will be more than you expect.
Good luck with your explorations, and may you find what you're seeking.
Ceci n'est pas Thesmorphia.
"Never make assumptions! That innocent rectangle could be two triangles having sex!"