Hello.

It has been three years since I registered and I am still kind of shakey when having my first baby steps.

I am bellow 30 but over 20, for my time since childhood do I remember much, probably stored somewhere but on the conscious level not much. When growing up I had few problems with the body. First came acne and second overweight and the blowout of the Vermiform appendix most recent thing being having bad memory.

From the age of 6-7th grade I have been reading the Internet and continuing to do so till this day, often many hours and past the 0000 from ~1300 waking time. Sleeping usually over 10 hours, most likely 12-13. Before this was fueled with copious amounts of soft drinks and nutritionally bad food. Often chips, pizza, candy. Later got off of the junk food and soft drinks. This phase lasted probably at least 5 years starting before the blowout (at around the 6th grade) and few years after.

After going to the upper secondary school (this being after 9th grade) I had my 1st girlfriend kind of relationship and the first breakup. Also during the upper secondary school I tried alcohol occasionally but did not really like it. I got introduced to cannabis as during a festival in summer the then girlfriend claimed to tried it during one night. I got interested since have heard about it or just somehow that seemed to be something interesting, a kind of new thing that was not really included in the past view of things at all.

After few days in the Internet browsing through Wikipedia and Erowid I kind of changed as whole having this amazing information flood came through me leading me into actually trying mushrooms, as they just seemed to be the logically best and easiest option to try first.

Did I just have the best thing ever happen to me? So what is this all about?

Few mushrooms in, the set & setting is bad. I sense that I need to get my things together and Hey I actually have some sort of personality. Some kind of ME/I/? thing here.... Well. Due to my bad health I came across DMT that I heard from one internet friend to be able to heal deep traumas. Things that bother me and make my living glitchy.

This time I was serving some kind of punishment for not going to the place where they make you practice killing so I managed to try to cure me from the stuff that have been bugging me during my mandatory other type of activity that goes on about 12 months. Becoming more and more consciousness about my health through DMT and few times some unknown substance related things. Reading this place and others about health topics.

So Dmt.... yeaaaah.... what? THE *

Now I am more aware how everything is some how stalled around. I am living in the world of sleeping people. Long winter.

Man this takes for really too long. I have been thinking and putting together the beginnings of the escape module to be added to the entity that is now. To get to the sun. To the place where I can freely posses things, substances. Grow food, plants, psychoactives. Earthbag house. Plant and myco filtrated water as the spring is way far ahead I suppose. Do not know how long I have before the paranoia materializes and tries to kill me again. The fruits help.

Journey is a good way to make this thing go into. I am stalled but heavily towards possibly jumpstarting the dysfunctional brain up to speed with fruits and DMT (EDIT: kinda feel weird to post links to sites that do not offer the info for free so that is why I deleted the link). Kinda same kind of must do as highly logical as mushrooms was back then this back to the land thing and heal with plants.

Possibly if I manage to live 80 years then I might be able to actually try ayahuasca too in a nice way without the possibility of ending up locking myself to this freezer.

Basically this has been on my mind and kind of sums up the me that is capable enough to write here.

I wish all of you best of beginning of 2012 and may all the best and well you know, hope we will all make it through this phase that is currently happening around and about the earth. The light is still on in the end of the tunnel it seems

Also HUGE THANK YOU for all the beings who have contributed to this site asit has really been a helpful site! THANK YOU!

I'm curious about this:



Do you mean in 'real' life or was this during your mushroom trip?

I hope the New Year has been treating you well so far.

Welcome to the Nexus!

So you mention about trying ayahuasca possibly in the future.. But you have no interest in the near future? What about pharmahuasca?

And extractions, anything you are interested in ?

Yay! The New Year has gone really well now that I thought about it. I hope and wish that you also have had positive without negative, without forgetting to include endlessness and everyone else I say this with <3

Cruel to be constantly reminded of the war and to have some kind of (lossforword,dunnohowtosayit) that if war happens I actually have to go to war by default. Which you must do if you go to the army. When serving the civil service you do not get sent to war, at least that is what they have written in the law, whether that would actually happen when war, I dunno. Making the possibility to run difficult.

I would if war happened, run and if it comes to that, be rather killed as a civ than to kill. Living in the destroyed environment would be such a horrible thing plus to know what comes after that is rather interesting anyway.

Sober and the army Did one years work in a Theater.


Thank you!

Yes, well pharma... I think that the ammount of ammount of caapi extract and the potency of the extract I would have to use a lot to do pharma. I used the xtract to make changa and have not yet decided to jump into the pharma way, at least not yet. Although have been thinking about it a lot.

I have done extracts few times 1.5-2 years ago. First with STB and then FASI that is now FB converted from fumarate. First conversion was with amor_fatis hasty FUM->FB and then did "The 10 minutes golden wax precipitation method"from wiki (dunno who came up with this as does not say in the wiki but thank you to all the contributers (hehee, sorry my bad, it was Ice House that did it , thank you) and sorry that I can not include you here edit: fixed) in order to purify little more. Hard to say what happened but good so far. Retrieved only ~1/2 and the rest still in freezer hopefully. Now I do not have the place to extract but have little left

Also I have drinked once a little bit of mimosa with 100g vine combination before having the set & setting put to the hold as of moving to a different kind of housing situation. Was reeeeeeealllllly pleasurable experience although having at one point some weird twistingrolling dance thing when in bed that just went on and on Left with good and tranquil afterglow. Totally new experience from the body movement perspective for example compared to my earlier mushroom trips.

Trying Ayahuasca would be nice since I love the caapi feeling on the body. Brew and in changa, which experienced only once so far. Sunnier place, chill law, and to grow as DIY outside feels like a pleasant way of doing it. Taking once or twice feels to be just an introduction with the down side of the quantity that must be ordered and transported(CO2,risk).

It is late and I have the sleepy eyes and attention span, will go to sleep and add more if I forgot something.

Good night every1

Welcome flouro, Thanks for sharing. Good intro. I look forward to hearing more from you.

IH

Thank you, your welcome and now that I looked out as I was hazy and not sure, but not totally bloacking out on the remembering parts it was you according to this and thanks to all the rest from that post too.

Yay!