Welcome aboard! Glad you made it here, and it's good to see you're coming with respect and good intent. Those qualities can take you a long way, and the possibilities of what you can learn and experience through the "spirit molecule" are pretty much infinite, so strap your boots on and get to journeying.
Best of luck.
P.S. Have you been smoking? Thought of trying ayahuasca? For me, the brew is definitely the way to go, but everybody's different.
"I have great faith in fools; self-confidence my friends call it."