PRE-CONDITIONS(mind)Set: Nervous, happy
(physical condition) Set: Workout-soreness
Setting (location): Big sofa, divan
time of day: 23:27, pitch black & a little rain
recent drug use: DMT
last meal: 22:00, meatballs & spaghetti
PARTICIPANTGender: Male
body weight: 65kg
known sensitivities: Psychedelics
history of use: Experienced with ayahuasca and up to 40mg~ DMT doses.
BIOASSAYSubstance(s): Freebase 2-(1H-indol-3-yl)-N,N-dimethylethanamine (DMT)
Dose(s): 47mg
Method of administration: Vaporized
EFFECTSAdministration time: 22:27. 15 seconds consisting of 3 tokes, 2-3s holding lungfuls
Duration: 30m
First effects: During second toke, est. 7s~ in administrating the substance
Peak:0:15s~ - 7-10:00 min.
Come down: 15 min
Baseline: 30-40 min
Intensity (overall): 4
Evaluation / notes: First time without any carrier wave, was simply swept away in the matter of 2-3 seconds from last toke. The experience as a whole was wonderful and frightening, had I done it this time?
OPTIONALPleasantness: 3
Unpleasantness: 3
Visual Intensity: 4
AFTER-EFFECTSHangover: 0, I do enjoy extreme body loads but this was certainly borderline.
Afterglow: 4, As I do not believe in discarding any bad experiences as simply "bad" this was frightening, sheer terror and dread with a smooth mixture of divine and ridiculous euphoria with a hint of drooling amazement.
REPORTMy first thought surfaced: Oh my god, I WILL most certainly and MUST be able to remember and explain this when I come back. Then millenniums passed by in the matter of seconds and I had forgotten all about it, it was nothing more than a fart in space.
Something had been shattered, was it me?
Fright kicked my guts silly, I was riding something huge, it looked like a robot from transformers but instead of wearing plated armor, it wore or was some kind of glass and diamond plated being that was moving forward at extreme speeds.
I felt dead, dismembered, lost and completely mad.
Terror fueled my thoughts as the being's head appeared out of nowhere and turned to me, looking through me with hostile, demonic eyes. A sudden suction took place and I was pulled by gravitational forces into the beings seemingly empty eyes. I had a million questions racing through my mind; how is this...why is this, what is this?
My thoughts echoed and the scenery magically changed to something completely different. I was inside another bizarrely odd looking world were different contrasts of purple freely moved around this "space". The odd thing about this is that I'm colorblind and in normal life I could impossibly distinguish these contrasts, which I was able to do while in this space.
At this point I could feel happiness and amazement due to the wonders that were taking place, I was still puzzled about the reality I was in, I didn't
perceive this as a reality, it WAS a reality and I was a part of it, even more so than with the real reality
From here on things escalated to the worse and better, the robot being returned and scared the crap out of me, I can't remember how or why, but I can recall my emotional response. It was a cold liquid running (feeling or actual liquid, had I pissed myself? dunno) through my spine up to my brain, infesting it, rapidly putting me in a full-on panic. I had gone mad, these extraterrestrial things and environments weren’t giving way, and my mind had been hijacked by these aliens with deeply disturbed and sinister motives.
I felt as if my existence began falling apart, everything was coming back at lightning speed, I remember calling out loud: What the fuck is a Christmas tree doing out here? Minutes went by before I realized that this was the reality I was truly stuck in...
As I came to self-realization and began recognizing my environment I felt happy and relieved of all the negative feelings, I was back. It was unbelievable, had I really left in the first place? Why was this place so alien to me? I suddenly remembered something VERY important and stress kicked in, I came to learn that I was still very much out of it, hallucinating stuff everywhere.
For some reason I tried to pick up a paper but it just dissipated into thin air, I smiled like a big phony as I felt completely retarded. Then it came back to me, I had been taking lap time with my cell phone! So I would be able to see how long it took me to administer the whole dose then how long it would take me to come back and be able to stop the timer.
Thrilled by this re-discovery I pulled myself over the damn sofa like a crippled zombie, it took me ages, everything was covered in something that looked like a aura of sacred patterns and texts running all over as if everything had been covered in some magical silk, I believe I was drooling profusely by the time since my shirt was wet (a later discovery).
I had also begun sweating insanely (like I tend do to with yopo upon administration) and I finally managed to get a hold of my cell phone. I flicked it up... and it was turned off. I stared at that thing for some while, completely forgetting about why I had picked up in the first place, I felt stupid and ridiculously loaded, I attempted standing up a few times but fell on my ass, luckily back onto the divan.
Then it hit me, seconds before falling out or in into hyperspace I had turned it off, realizing how scared I could get if it made any noises during the journey, although I highly doubt that I would be able to hear it at all because of all the things and sounds happening during my journey.
I laughed at this for some time, feeling incredibly silly and then I regained enough sense to boot up my laptop and try to talk about the experience with my best friend, and this however turned out to be hopeless as I was still puzzled and confused from the experience.
Lastly, I want to say that I'm sorry, sorry for not being able to remember more of the experience and furthermore not possessing the vocabulary needed to explain the things I experienced, touched, saw, heard, and smelled. It was a phenomenal experience but with too many phenomenon’s to remember.
If I were describe this experience with one word, it would have to be
ineffable.
I am planning to take another, heavy experience soon with the same dosage, in an attempt to see if my ability to recall the experience will be heightened.
Cheers.
Mad, bad and dangerous to know.
There's magic out there!