PRE-CONDITIONS (mind)Set: At ease & peaceful, enthusiastic
(physical condition) Set: Laid back (as always
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Setting (location): Bedroom made for traveling (cozy arabic-styled), in bed
time of day: 14:20, cloudy day..
recent drug use: DMT
last meal: 13:30, protein shake with cheese sandwiches
PARTICIPANTGender: Male
body weight: 65kg
known sensitivities: Psychedelics
history of use: Experienced with ayahuasca and up to 30mg~ DMT doses.
BIOASSAYSubstance(s): Freebase 2-(1H-indol-3-yl)-N,N-dimethylethanamine (DMT)
Dose(s): 40mg/ - /85mg.
Method of administration: Vaporized
EFFECTS[/u]
Administration time: 14:20. Have no idea as to when I "launched" or exhaled the 3rd toke.
Duration: 15m
First effects: During second toke, est. 15s~ in administrating the substance
Peak:0:30s~ - 5:00m~
Come down: 7:00m~
Baseline: 20-30m~
Intensity (overall): 4
Evaluation / notes: As the carrierwave from start came on ridicolously strong I can't recall anything, probable blackout and regaining of consiousness 1-2m~ after the carrierwave.
OPTIONALPleasantness: 4
Unplesantness: 1
Visual Intensity: 4
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AFTER-EFFECTSHangover: 0, because I enjoy being freakishly bodyloaded
Afterglow: 4, bliss, clarity and divine euphoria, cried of joy and relief for some while
REPORTMerry Christmas to all my fellow nexians!
I first weighed the dose to be 40mg on a +-1mg accurate scale and decided to save it for Christmas. When this wonderful holiday finally arrived I weighed it once more but I was very slow and the frozen jar began thawing, causing condensation, making some of my product gooey.
As expected the weight had gone up, the scale was now showing 85mg. Knowing there was a fair share of water mixed with the DMT I sat it out to evaporate for a while, weighing it again, 80mg, with this experiment I concluded it would still be around 40-50mg since I during the final weighing had scraped the jar clean from DMT on all sides (probably adding a few mg's to the first 40)
I went into our (me and my gf's bedroom) and prepared it, shutting the venetian-blind to make the room dark with the only light source being this huge Arabic-style lamp emitting beautiful patterns through itself on the surrounding room.
Sitting up-straight in bed with a plate beside me where I could easily put down my Machine after use I began meditating, reminding myself of my intentions and purpose of using the substance. I began adapting my breathing to a deep, slow pace while heating the steel wool carrying the DMT, slowly it began melting and I could see misty smoke seep from the Machine's neck.
I slowly began inhaling, filling the chamber with a thick, white/gray vapor, thereafter I took 2 lungful, holding each for about five seconds. During my second toke I could feel instincts telling me I had enough, the task was getting increasingly more difficult by the second as my motor skills were rapidly failing. Visions and patterns began bombarding my periphery as I focused on my technique.
I somehow managed to take a third toke, with a smile on my face as I noticed the empty chamber. Knowing I had taken the premeasured dosage made me relax and fall back, landing my head onto the pillow which suddenly felt like concrete. My body slammed against something, I realized this was my inner being coming lose from my physical self, yet I felt it as if it was my body melting through concrete, hard yet somehow passable, this went on without any physical discomfort until I can't remember anything more than the usual carrier wave.
This time however, the carrier wave seemed to come on at maximal strength right from the start, the sound was deafening and from there on I seem to suffer from complete amnesia, my guess is that I blacked out, shutting off from the sheer intensity of the launch.
What felt like minutes into the experience I suddenly felt struck by confusion, I saw my room, yet I was under the impression that I had closed my eyes, so I opened them; My room, huh, funny, lets close them again then; My room again? Odd... Let's keep them open then.
I was under the impression that my CV's somehow where the exact same as my OEV's and these were therefore my room. This was when I noticed what was "in" my room, there was a universal-large cathedral and I thought to myself, how in god's name did this cathedral of this SIZE get into my room? As if a smaller cathedral had been daily business this one only confused my because of its sheer size, it was enormous, like a planet, the cathedral was a planet, a planet that somehow had gotten into my room.
About this time, approx 3-5 minutes into the journey, I was awestruck by how normal my room still looked and (like a madman) thought that I had under dosed for a breakthrough. By the time I had managed to "figure this out" I realized that my theory wasn't waterproof with that cathedral still "being" in my room. It wasn't floating or anything, it was just physically there, this was also impossible because of its size being seemingly infinite yet it was perfectly fitting into my bedroom.
As I began studying this odd looking cathedral light began emitting from within it, the light steadily grew until I was almost blinded by it, as I concentrated to see I came to realize that I was now inside the building, how had this happen? I thought.
During this time I didn't think nor feel much, I was in the cathedral, as real as it gets, looking up its roof, only to see that there was no roof, just walls going up infinitely high. What should have been the roof was nothing but misty light seeping down like a Gloria pushing through the clouds.
All of this felt absurdly divine with a unknown emotion lingering down my spine tingling its way up my cords, as it reached my neck it "spread", is the best word I know to describe the phenomena, it spread itself, infesting my whole being from top to toe. As this happened I felt a cold liquid running down my cheek, as my ridiculously loaded hand tried to reach it I could feel it fall down on my chest, what was it? I was thrilled by curiosity and euphoria began streaming through me as I tried to think rationally about what was happening.
I was suddenly interrupted by my process as my room began emerging in my periphery, I felt as if my being had been dropped recklessly back into my physical body, it was a rough, cold realization of what was going on. I managed to run my hand over my face, feeling the cold and wet skin; I looked at my hand and saw water drip from them.
Had I cried, was I crying? Yes, I could feel a stream of tears pouring down my cheeks and I felt glorious and filled with joy as I began singing. As I did this the cathedral began to dissipate into thin air but as this happened the light emitting from its center grew stronger, I was completely euphoric and blissful as I sang out loud, mostly just making sounds, they sounded foreign and alien but the light was moving in total synesthesia which at the same time made the bright, white/yellow light to shift colors.
After sometime the cathedral was gone but the visuals where still going strong, my roof's amazing patterns from the lamp had been replaced with a enormous sea of red and orange that was freely flowing in and out of itself. I considered this as being "down", yet in comparison to other substances this scenery of visions is probable by far the strongest I've ever had, even though it was the comedown there were still true hallucinations all over the room, inseparable from the room...
When I regained enough capacity to think clearly I immediately began to try and recap the experience, this was however impossible as I couldn't remember most of it, feeling as if I hadn't been traveling for more than a few minutes. Looking at the clock; 14:35, I could feel my inner-clock go crazy and begin to reset, had it gone 15 minutes? This was the most disturbing part of my journey, yet it made me fall into laughter and more tears as this was also conceived as impossible, my brain just couldn't wrap itself around it.
The only thing I did kinda-unlike about this experience was the whole close-open eye thing, it was TO real it annoyed me to a certain degree, it actually made me think that my CEV's was my OEV's and not the other way around, because of this I got disappointed of still being in the room when normally CEV's instantly puts me into another dimension.
From what I could tell, there just weren't any difference or even such a thing as closed or open eyes. I had gone beyond, open and closed eyes showed the same things to the level that the third eye had to be fully activated, replacing all normal eyesight in order to allow these impossibilities to be seen and felt.
In the future I will cut down on the dose, probably 35-40~ without any water contamination to make certain of its actual weight.
This experience left me in tears of joy and hope, I have never been much of a religious believer but more of an atheist, however with the words I possess I can only describe my journey as divine, I am certain of the existence of a higher power, regardless of its kind.
Mad, bad and dangerous to know.
There's magic out there!