The following first person narrative is a fictional account. This is the beginning of a novel I'm currently working on...

"I Have only experienced mild effects with each of the first 2 attempts. I have been diligently researching, reading and pondering about the unknown. Tonight is my one night off from work. I am sitting by the fire with my dog and entertaining the idea of a spiritual quest in the comfort of my home tonight.

I will be alone. I have tried and tried to find friends willing to embark upon this with me, however it's nearly impossible to find someone who takes it as seriously as I do. They either think it's funny or don't understand the magnitude of what they're getting into and have no interest in understanding more. So, despite the fact that I am beside myself with fear, I feel as though I would rather just face that than surround myself with individuals who take the focus off the purpose.

I am excited, afraid and trying to be humble. The ratios aren't exactly even, I'm mostly just terribly frightened.

But, I feel there is a reason I am so compelled to search within. I have stumbled into an opportunity where I have potentially a key to unlock the secrets of my inner universe, not as a means to answer questions as much as to develop more valid questions.
Any suggestions, insights?"

if you are afraid of doing this alone, i would strongly recommend against it.
at least find yourself a trip-sitter who you trust, even if you can't find someone to trip with you.

fear is generally not a good starting place for a trip
however if you are unable/unwilling to find a trip-sitter, and your curiosity still outweighs your fear:
start with a small dose(15mg), if you still feel good about it, then go ahead an smoalk moar

It is totally normal to be terrified. The first time I did spice I was shaking like a furless polar bear in the middle of a blizzard. My teeth were chattering, my nerves were shot but the moment before taking that first pull I just exhaled and it seemed as though a lot of the anxiety went out with that one breath... I knew then that I was ready.

Don't force it my friend, even though everything may seem right please just make sure with yourself. With that being said I think tonight is the night but like I said don't force it. There were a couple of opportunities were I could have done the spice before I had did it my very first time but it just didn't feel right... I waited until all was right.

As long as you go in with a positive mindset, respect, and not expecting anything then you should be just fine my friend.

May I suggest some light music that soothes you? This could keep you "tethered" to Earth while you venture out. This could help you get use to the feel without fully isolating yourself for that breakthrough.

Good luck fellow psychonaut and personally I feel you should go for it and report back to us ASAP!

Happy Hyperspacing!!!!!

EDIT - I still get the "shakes" now after some experience with this stuff. It's a true wild card... you don't know what is gonna hit you be when it does hit you....

Oh, i am so excited for you cosmik!

i journeyed solo my first time,
but i was never alone

best of light to you!

Yes, have fun! Being somewhat fearful is good imo. it shows that you respect what you are doing. Like psychonaut said, if you are too appprehensive then I would wait until it all felt just right.. I had my spice for months and I only did it when it felt juuust right. And it was totally worth it..

Safe travels!

In my opinion, take the plunge, fear will be stripped away, replaced with bliss, love and happiness.
Enjoy your journey.
Peace and love.