So often! SWIM also gets the biological crying type tears when she smokes harmalas by themselves in large doses.

During the most intense trip of my life besides my breakthrough on DMT, this was on LSD, I watched the intro to the universe on history channel where they showed our planet then it zoomed out to show the solar system then zoomed to show the milky way and kept going etc etc. and I could fully comprehend 100% the enormity of the universe and I burst into tears with amazement and cried harder than I ever have in my entire life.

sounds amazing

SWIM wishes he could go into a "planetarium" or IMAX theater and take some DMT orally while watching a program about space or something similar.... would be one hell of an experience... but SWIM is smarter than that and wouldn't risk doing such things in a public setting like that....



EDIT - Thank you everyone for the replies. Great to see SWIM isn't the only one that lets himself go when hyperspacing

It was one psychedelic experience I remember above all others truly astounding. Really let's us know what little specs we are in an utterly enormous universe.

i balled my eyes out lying on the bathroom floor after my last changa trip, which i was guided through hyperspaces many different layers by a shaman spirit who relentlessly kept taking me deeper and deeper and deeper to the point where my ego resurfaced as a bit of a reaction to this and started to question whether i may be stuck here. when this thought arose, i began to think about how my family would feel to lose their son, and felt an incredible feeling of shame and uselessness and utter fright! not sure what it was but something jolted me away from these thoughts and i opened my eyes and again recognised where i was and who i was. this, of all my experiences with dmt took me the deepest i had gone and showed me some concepts and healing methods far beyond what i had thought possible.this was a really complicated experience in that i feel i cannot really tell people of what happened without it sounding like nutcase material, unless i am talking to somebody who shares a bit of experience/knowledge of the hyperspace realms

The visual DMT diagram in my signature is compiled of teardrops because of this.

The end brings tears of joy to me. I am always amazed.

Sup.

awesome diagram!!! Very beautiful and enlightening!!!

SWIM just had a breakdown on the way home while thinking about what is to come soon. SWIM started to think about the MHRB that he has just received and the extraction that is soon to come and all the old feelings of spice rushed through his body w/o a single hit of the spirit molecule. He was amazed to the say the least.... how just the mere thought of something so powerful can bring on the emotional liberation... SWIM can't wait to get his extraction going so he can go back to hyperspace.

SWIM will also be making Bufotenine, Harmalas, and different changas that are infused with the wonderful spirits. When SWIM starts this process he will be sure to make a thread for each process and keep fellow psychonauts updated on his successes and even setbacks. SWIM can't wait!

SWIM can't wait to make his changa... .thanks for sharing your deep and spiritual experience. SWIM has had a handful trips like these with the complexity and all. SWIM understands completely what you mean when you can't share the experience with someone unless that someone has had some experience in the realms of DMT. It's just something even DMT users can't fully comprehend... you have to experience to know the full feel, touch, vision, essence of the spirit molecule!

I had quite an amazing experience on my birthday a while back which brought me to tears. You can read about it here.

Cry all the time, I am a sissy boy you know...

I have cried for many different reasons too, from the depths of sadness, to the glory of glories I have seen and have cried, laughed, etc.

Cried this last time on the 4-aco(~40mg), just talked to God and came upstairs and was just so overjoyed and speechless over such a happening I wept. Boy was that a good one. I actually had a double ego-loss event. Very awesome.

i recently discovered changa whilst at a bush doof and have preferred smoking it to pure dmt since. also i find changa has a more ancient sort of ancestral feel , while my xtal experiences have seemed a little more extra terrestrial and less earthy . I am beginning to think that it may have something to do with the cappi leaves used but i couldnt be sure... all i know is i feel a rather different more organic spirit presence surrounding the changa experience.... however i also realise that my understanding of how the universe works is everdeveloping and this probably has effects on the experience. I havent had the joy of making my own changa yet but its something i am extremely keen to do, if i could just find some obtusifolia around where i live to extract the goodies.

Yeah it really is hard to talk to somebody who hasnt touched base with the dmt experience, i find it hard sometimes trying to express what i have learnt without feeling like a bit of an idiot... its like you try to explain certain concepts of the experience, but people's preconceptions of reality are a little too materialised so they think of these concepts within the western scientific frame of mind, which kind of defeats the whole idea. i have been having a bit of a hard time trying to get my parents to get over the hurdle of their son "using mind altering drugs" to get to these states of being. My mum respects my yearning to reach these states of mind, but believes it to be unnatural using chemicals to do so and believes i will end up like my uncle who she watched go down a bad path on heroin... i guess she forgets just how vital nature is to every essence of our being.. not just physical. I wish i could introduce my mum to these realms as i know what a beautiful and caring human being is, and i know the love she would be rewarded with in hyperspace for her loving nurturing nature. I can see her fear of madness which has been rammed down her throat by western society stigmas with drug use, which is holding her back from ever exploring these realms.

all the time, baby.

My first time was so phenomenal I was crying tears of joy through it Felt the warmest warmth I had ever experienced and touched an angel

SWIM have cried 2 or 3 times.

In so many times SWIM smoked DMT just a few were a meaningful experience... that is When the breaktru' ends with a white light filling the "chamber", a white light that is also a warm and full of love energy which hugs him and loves him infinitely, and SWIM lose his ego, memory and physical body, and merges his soul with this timeless dimension....

SWIM defines this pure energy-light-warm-Love-timeless-Dimension as God

The 2 or 3 times SWIM has "seen" God... or been in God... he had awakened in joy-and-thankfull laughs and tears at the same time.

SWIM hopes someday he shall return there, where he belongs, forever.

Ive never cried so much in my life after dmt, like gut wrenching in a complete state crying out of control crying, sobbing and balling and wailing like a crazy person! Amazing lol feels so cleansing and like wow I needed that experience and I needed that big cry like a big purge and you feel great after it, feels so beneficial and healthy as if you needed to get that out, weird lol

The first time SWIM took it really seriously and made something like that (about setting) he got his first meaningfull experience
SWIM totally agree with the diagram. Thanks for sharing ۩

On my first breaktrough, i cried a lot when i was coming back...like a happy wonderful amazed baby, i cried like a baby!!!
It was like a didnt wanted to go back "here"...So beautiful and confrotable, like i belonged there..


"The eye is the portal to the individual soul"

"The music is the portal to the human soul"

AUMUMANO

Stole the words right out of my mouth...

Once again thanks everyone for sharing your emotional experiences...