SWIM says;
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PRE-CONDITIONS(mind)Set: Intentions were made clear, the mind was calmed.
(physical condition) Set: A little bit tired after work, but energetic nevertheless.
Setting (location): In the house, lit a candle and fragrance, took a blanket and a bucket.
time of day: 07:15 pm - Indoors
recent drug use: None.
last meal: Approximately at 03:00 pm, a food consisting of rice, bean and carrot.
PARTICIPANTGender: Male
body weight: 97 kg. (215 lb)
known sensitivities: None.
history of use: Second timer of Ruemosa.
BIOASSAYSubstance(s): Syrian Rue and Mimosa Hostilis Rootbark.
Dose(s): ~7 grams of Rue, then after 50-60 minutes, ~4 grams of Mimosa.
Method of administration: Both substances were dissolved in lemon juice and were taken orally.
EFFECTSAdministration time: T=0:00-00:50 (19:15-20:05)
Duration: ~2 hours.
First effects: A dizziness, slight loss of movement control, and a heaviness.
Peak: No idea.
Come down: Around T+01:30-02:00
Baseline: Not there yet. (T+06:00)
Intensity (overall): 1
Evaluation / notes: I thank the Universe for this experience, as well as the spirits of the Rue and Mimosa.
OPTIONALPleasantness: 0
Unplesantness: 1
Visual Intensity: 1
AFTER-EFFECTSHangover: 2; tracers and dancing of lights; ~30-45 minutes.
Afterglow: None.
REPORTI don't know where to start. I'm starting to think there is something wrong with me
I felt the effects of the Rue this time. A slight dizziness, heaviness in the limbs and muscles, and slight loss of control over movements (meaning that moving seemed somehow awkward). I took the Mimosa, and started to observe. I felt no nausea at all. I closed my eyes and lay down. I remember seeing visuals, as if I'm watching a movie behind my eye lids. I don't remember what they were about, but they seemed unrelated with everything. Just as if watching a movie at the cinema.
I had many black-outs. When I came back, I tried to remember what had just happened with no avail, and it wasn't long before I drifted into the movie-like visuals again. This went on and on. Then suddenly, I noticed that my nausea had gotten out of control, so I grabbed the bucket and purged in it a couple of times. It was ~30 minutes after I had consumed the Mimosa. I lay back down after purging.
I drifted away for good, not remembering anything. When I came back to myself, I knew that the DMT's effects were gone, and that only the Rue was still effecting me. The CEVs were nearly diminished, and as open eye visuals, there were tracers and something which reacted to light, some kind of flickering I guess. The loss in muscle and action control, and dizziness were still there.
I didn't have any feeling of happiness, bliss, or joy neither during nor after the experience. In fact, I felt unhappy. Maybe I was disappointed and that made me unhappy. I don't think my unhappiness was due to the journey, which I don't remember anything about.
Now, at T+06:00, I can't think properly, writing this report have been so hard
Cognitive abilities seems to be weakened. I believe this is caused by the Rue.
I'm listening dear friends, please help me out on this. What am I doing wrong? Why am I drifting and not remembering anything afterwards (I had also drifted away in my first trial, with a lower dosage)? I'm asking for your guidance.
Peace and Love."