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11-13

1/4 tsp Kirkii (700mg)

Mug'o'Caapi Tea (made with Caapi leaves)

Nothing happened that night, no dreams that I rememberd (Darn!)

11-14

Ended up drinking: Lots of alcohol *sigh*

But had an AMAZING experience interacting with the kirkii!

Earlier in the night I bought a 32oz of some dank 9% micro-brew Belgian style beer. After my homework I think about goin for the booze and I hear the Kirkii speak to me directly

"Hey, I'm asking you, please don't drink that. Just smoke some weed."

Later in the night I feel the urge to drink and think

'no the kirkii said not to'

but then I hear His voice again

"Nah nah, I don't mind... Really its OK, you can drink it. But if you do you have to PROMISE me you won't drink at ALL until you return from thanksgiving."

I respond "Not even at the airport?"

Kirkii quips back "ESPECIALLY at the airport!!"

I get a big grin and say "OK DEAL!" (I know he'll offer some kind of other bargain later when the time comes, allowing me to drink!)

So there I went, back into the sweet caressing despair of alcoholism. One 32oz 9% beer & 3 long-forgotten-emergency-camping-reserve-flask shots of Johnny Walker Black Label.

That night I had LOTS of dreaming, VERY adventurous. I don't remember much but it was quite the journey.

The next morning roles around. Soon after I am awake I hear the Kirkii come out of nowhere and say

"Remember, you can't drink at all for the next week and a half. Not even at the airport... "

I feel the contempt growing and He adds

"You PROMISED me, remember? I don't think you know what a big deal that is for us.... Your words and intentions are all that you are, when they mean nothing, you mean nothing."

He gives me few seconds to think about what he just said then adds

"Why do you think so many of the others have turned their back on you? They will forgive you, they always do, but I'm GIVING you this chance to earn back some points."

He was distinctly referring to the 'others' as the other spirits and allies I have had in the past.

I start walking to the computer to type out this experience and he says funnily

"Yeeaaa... go write that down bro..."

<3 Kirkii...

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11-15

1/4 Tsp Kirkii (700mg)

I went to the casino to count cards with my friend as we usually do once a week. Hey, we make money and they still give us $25 for free every week to keep us comin back. The whole night I fought and fought the urge to drink but I was petrified of defying the kirkii and losing my spiritual credibility. My friend wanted to buy us a bottle of organic sake from my favorite brand, one even better then the previously mentioned sake. I said no.

Instead he bought a small bottle of super super high-end Sake. He begged me to take a sip but my sinuses had knocked out my ability to even taste my sushi so I refused since it would be pointless anyway. Later we walked out the parking lot for a quick cannabis (makes the card counting easier) and the cold air opened my sinuses and I told my friend "Holy cow I can breath and taste perfect all of the sudden!" He was then immediately insistent I taste this primo sake. I had no more excuses, my previous one of not being able to taste was obviously now invalidated and I surely wasn't about to tell him that the spirit in my mind told me not to. Then I heard him... the Kirkii... back again.... He laughs and says

"Don't be rude, take your one sip"

That night I had amazing dreams. I don't remember much but I remember a very vivid detailed storyline. When I woke up I felt like I had learned something. I felt like I had been on a long journey in which all the experiences along the way changed me in a significant manner.

I woke up feeling like I just got home for the first time after a long vacation... It's that feeling you get when being away on vacation or traveling for a while... contemplating over all the things you will do when you get home, all the ways your life will improve now that you've reflected while on your travels... All the new things you learned while traveling, all the negative patterns you've been unable to fall back on because you are in a new environment. These perceptions all lead to this "refreshed and renewed" feeling when you step back into your home for the first time in weeks.

I woke up. I was ready, the morning sun and my home seem distantly familiar... over the course of about a minute I quickly become oriented and am filled with a vibrance I haven't had in a while. My reward for not drinking? Maybe. Then something awesome happened.

I had an incredible sinus purge! I move out liquids + hard bloody solids that have been in there for a week or more. I can BREATHE!! Been waiting weeks for this feeling of relief...

I open the tissue and see the massive amounts of sickness that came out....

"See" says the Kirkii voice, knavishly working its way back into my broca

"This is what happens when you keep your promises..."

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11-16

No kirkii but a fun little lesson.

I had eaten a few pieces of candy today already. I just finished a homemade wild chantrelle & bollete health soup with mega-doses of fresh medicinal herbs. I wanted a nice little piece of dessert!

Kirkii came out of nowhere "PROMISE me you won't go eat anything else, especially candy..."
He said the last part with a vague hint of our shared mutual condescending attitude towards these bad habits.

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11-21

No alcohol!

1/4 Tsp Kirkii (700mg)

Even got my 2 friends I'm staying with to do it to! They were stoked on the results, they both felt AMAZING the next day.

I haven't been smoking weed for 3 days now. This is the longest break I've taken since June. My dreams are ALWAYS wild during this adjustment period.

I recall being in a battle in a major war. I get shot in the leg and it's the on par with the most extreme pain I've felt in a dream. A buddy drags me off the front line into a nearby cave where we hide from the enemy.

I wake up, covered in sweat (pretty typical for when I quit smoking weed, lots of wake-ups and night sweats)

I go back to sleep and wake up in ANOTHER battle in ANOTHER war but in ANOTHER ERA!!! The time is different, the clothes are different, the people look different.

I wake up again sweating then go back to sleep.

It happens again! A new war, new battle but this time a MUCH more different era.

This goes on for a few times, I experience being a warrior in these battles spanning multiple multiple eras. VERY interesting! I am not a fighter or a warrior at heart so experiencing these perspectives felt like it hardened me up in a good way.

Later in the night I have another dream. I dream that I am standing in the bathroom here at my friend's house as I gaze into the mirror. A girl I know appears in the mirror as if she is standing next to me. I look to my side, no one, she is only in the mirror. I say "Hello" and she says "Hello" back! It is obviously the same girl but there is something DIFFERENT about it, she looked 'enlightened' and peaceful, almost like a superior spirit version of herself. At this point I start tripping HARD. It feels like I am on Iboga and everything is flashing and shifting as I stare at my friend in the mirror. I see globules of solid energy just floating freely around the room, the surfaces of the globules are covered in multi-dimensinal colored static. I've NEVER had visuals like this before, it was distinctly unique and very powerful.

In another scene an animal bites me in the left nut and won't let go... sounds horrible I know, and it was, but this same thing has happened a half dozen times before in my life long before I ever took kirkii. These dreams always disturb me as I love all animals.

In one scene I come across this average sized cardboard box. I remember "Oh shoot! I setup a mushroom grow in there a while ago but forgot about it!"

I open the box but its filled with soil. As i dig the soil out growing underneath it are MASSIVE psilocybe azurescens the size of my arm! Two to three feet tall these suckers were, I harvest a couple dozen of them and put them on a big serving tray. Bon appetite!

Another couple of scenes I won't describe but lets just say it contained girls. Lots of girls...

What a great night!

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11-22

1/4 Tsp Kirkii (700mg)

Took it with my friends again. They are asleep in the other room as I write this. I am empowering my heart chakra and sending them good energy to assist in their dreaming. I easily visualize the exchange of metaphyscial energy, a task that has become second nature since I started taking kirkii.

No alcohol today. Almost but Kirkii made me promise, SEVERAL TIMES, not to do it.

I drank the kirkii 5 hours ago and for some reason got the biggest urge to write out all these journals. I've had them in short-hand but had not written out the detailed reports. For some reason, under the influence of kirkii, I felt this was the right time. I wanted to channel the kirkii into my writing. EVERY update I've posted was done tonight under the influence of kirkii.

Anyway... I'm going to bed now after this multi-post epic update.

I'll keep updated more regularly and hopefully check in tomorrow with more awesome dreams tonight!

Thanks for reading! Ciao.

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Got about 4 hours of sleep last night since I spent so many hours writing out these journal entries.

Didn't have any dreams but I feel surprisingly alright for getting 4 hours of sleep.

Usually I would be nodding off and barely functional, I don't do well with little sleep.

Right now I don't feel drowsy, I feel like COULD take on whatever. Some physics homework, some cookin, whatever the day throws at me.

Hopefully this is a pattern, I would LOVE to not have any more 'wasted days' due to a poor nights sleep.

Ok you certainly have my interest. Off to read of kirkil.

Cheers.

yea im watching this now ill stay tuned and hopefully be able to chime in about my own experiences sometime soon here

CL i feel like we get down to the same groove, your dreams are strikingly similar.

also I'm now going to explore this, I'm married to cannabis so to speak so the dream phenomena is different.

curious to see how working with this plant and or silene capensis is compared to calea

thanks for the super write ups CL!!

Glad you enjoyed the writeup!!

The main difference is that Kirkii stimulates neuron growth... You actually can end up with better sleep quality and feeling more well rested the next day. This allows it to function as a nootropic also.

IME Calea seemed a bit more tiring the next day as it seemed them sleep got on it wasn't as deep and restorative.

Silene, too, IME, doesn't have the same sleep-quality enhancing effects as Kirkii although Silene is also used by some as a nootropic.

i think i read reports about people ingesting it in the morning so the stimulating effects would wear off by night

CL have you tried AM dosing? or just Pm tea?

also have you tried CWE, I'm curious if something gets cooked off from raw plant


have some bark powder CWE now, gonna give a tester shot today and see how the stimulating effects are. gotta be up super early for work so i don't think tonights the night to see if i can fall asleep or not after



should mention I've been on a catuaba kick, t catigua to be precise. dreams are increasing from that alone, usually dreams with feminine energy

very interesting; can't believe we haven't seen this before. Thanks Cosmic Lion

No problem.

Still using the Kirkii nightly. Will use it for months at a time, then take a few weeks off or so. Nothing but continued compounding benefits...